Chapter 5

After finishing eating in the canteen, Shavira ventured back to invite Raga to talk for the umpteenth time.  Who knows what wind, Raga immediately agreed with Shavira's request.  So here they are now, in the campus garden with some students who are seen spending time studying or just taking shelter under a cool shady tree.

 The park is one of Shavira's favorite locations on campus.  Not only is the atmosphere peaceful, the green grass that grows neatly as a base for the ground also gives a comfortable impression, coupled with the sound of gurgling fountains that seem to accompany the song.  Shavira prefers to sit on a park bench and then followed by Raga.

 Several pairs of eyes followed their movements.  But they didn't care in the slightest, as if they were more interested in this seemingly natural atmosphere.  Shavira smiled, as if his memories had been carried away from the past.

 Before, he had been in this kind of atmosphere with the same person.  But at that moment it felt more beautiful and fun.  Where all his complaints can he tell freely and the listener will always give advice or just make fun of it.

 Shavira inhaled deeply and then exhaled slowly.  "I do not understand?"

 Raga knows what Shavira means.  But somehow, Raga prefers to wait for Shavira to finish with what she wants to say.  Until Raga straightened up in her seat, waiting for the continuation of Shavira's words, the words she often heard without knowing what to answer.

 "What is the reason for you to avoid me?"

 Maybe it's time for Raga to emphasize that they can't be like before.  "I'm tired of friendships like that."

 Quickly, Shavira turned her face towards Raga.  Staring at the body with a hurt look, as if he could not believe that the body he knew was the body he was currently seeing.  Even the style of speaking to him was different.  He didn't think that the question he kept repeating was finally answered with a surprising answer.

 Raga looked straight ahead towards the fountain.  "All this time, you have always asked for an explanation of why I avoided it."

 Shavira closed her eyes.  He was afraid to hear the explanation that would come out of Raga's mouth, but his heart wanted to know more.

 "We are both adults.  My real life has started.  You also have to live your own life.  And also, ”Raga sighed.  "After thinking several times, even the umpteenth time.  We were too childish.  Honestly, I don't like your overly spoiled behavior, and other things that sometimes make me uncomfortable. "

 Shavira didn't know that.  He thought, Raga was sincere with him.  Raga will always be alert if he is injured.  If anyone bothered Shavira, without Shavira telling him, Raga would have beat up that person first.

 "Think of it, I was wrong to befriend you."

 Raga's last sentence, was able to make Shavira's heart beat violently.  Without realizing it, Shavira started shedding tears.

 “I hope that after this, you won't be demanding any more explanations.  And for now and in the future, we just know enough.  Maybe I'm a little too much, I don't like it when I'm close to other girls, then she asks if we have a relationship or not ... "

 Out of nowhere, Shavira reflexively threw her hand to Raga's cheek.  He felt the heat on his palms, but Shavira didn't care.  He needs an outlet for his current illness.  "It's true Karin said, so far I have misjudged."  The words came out as her lips trembled.  Shavira leaves from there, leaving a wound that was previously her happiness.

 ***

 Karin stared in surprise at Shavira at this moment.  Yesterday he thought Shavira was okay before leaving Karin to the canteen.  But right now Shavira was very quiet.  Never before had Shavira not even done a job.  But earlier?  Fortunately, the management lecturer still gave him the day after tomorrow to complete the task.

 "What's wrong with you?"  Okay, he had asked this question dozens of times during the last thirty minutes or so.

 "You?  I mean, are you comfortable not being friends with me? "

 Karin stared.  This is a ridiculous question according to Karin.  Of course he is comfortable.  Shavira is probably the only person who understands Karin the best.  Shavira knows, when Karin needs support and when Karin feels happy.  That is, Karin is comfortable because Shavira can be a place to share her joys and sorrows.

 "Of course."  Karin adjusted her seat.  Somehow he felt that this would be a serious conversation.

 Today their class ended so fast because the lecturer who was teaching suddenly had something to do.  So at this time in the class only Karin and Shavira, because the others would prefer to go to the canteen or to other places.

 "When the time comes when you don't feel comfortable, please let me know as soon as possible, right Kar?"

 "What's wrong with you?"  Well, you know.  That question again.

 Shavira retracted his smile.  "It's okay."  At least Shavira knows that right now Karin is sincere with her.

 Shavira is not the type who gets sad when he gets hurt and gets sad.  So he decided to forget everything, about Raga.  After knowing Raga's reason, maybe at that moment he should stop hoping.

 "Let's go to the canteen!"  see, Shavira can do it.

 "I don't know why and it seems like you are also reluctant to tell me that.  At least I'm happy now that you look happy again. ”  Karin came closer and hugged Shavira.  "Honestly, if you are sad, my atmosphere is immediately empty."

 Shavira let go of his hug and smiled.  "I feel better now."

 Karin smiled back.  "Okay, now that you're feeling good, let's go to the canteen."

 Shavira nodded, then stood up followed by Karin.