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2020-09-16 01:31:19I was roaming around in the garden with slow steps looking at the sky, while closing my eyes from time to time inhaling the fresh air. My heels were hanging in my right hand. After getting my nerves under control, I thought everything through. I know whats going to happen now, I must be prepared.
I took a last long breath and finally decided to go find Hardin. I wanted him to send me to my house.I didn't know that someone was watching me the whole time. Just as I turned around, I almost bumped into someone with a familiar scent. God knows how long he has been here. He sometimes scares the hell out of me. My hand was placed at my heart trying to calm it down.I lazily looked up at him with startled eyes but, covered it up immediately with a cough, "I want to go home" I directly got to the point avoiding eye contact with him. I didn't want to confront him about what he did today because, I knew it was going to be in vain.He was standing still with his hands in his pockets. He was looking at me with sharp eyes, like he can see right through me. I wanted to fight with him, telling him how much lose I am going to suffer beacause of him, how hard he is making it for me but I didn't have the energy.My hands were shaking and eyes were blurry but I must maintain my posture. He gave me a last glance looking down at my shaking hands and grabbed them. He was focusing so hard on my hand squeezing my soft hands with his hard one's. His thumb caressing the back of my hand. I felt lost looking at him.He placed my hands back down and turned around to look at Jack, who was standing a few feets away from us. His back was what I could see.Hardin raised his voice and ordered him, "Send her safely home, Jack". Hardin started walking away from me disappearing into the dark night which he was a part of.I snapped out of the trance when Jack cleared his throat behind me. He was looking at me with no specific emotions or expression.I glanced last time at the place where Hardin disappeared to just now and sighed. So much of us being married. He left again. I shook my head and started walking.Jack was walking behind me as always. He was responsible for my security. He was more of a spy and informer of Hardin than my bodyguard. I smiled mockingly to myself at this.He nudged me towards a car and opened the door for me. I sat down with my back relaxing against the soft seat. I immediately dropped the heels down. It's going to be a long journey because, my house was far away, at the outskirts of the city so I preffered dozing off.I woke up when the car stopped moving, indicating to me that we have reached already. I stepped down and looked at my house.A glass house was standing all alone surrounded with lush greenery and mountains at one side and a lake at the other. A perfect picture dream house for everyone, where you could see beautiful mountains first thing in the morning and feel the cold breeze because of the lake as well. There were flower gardens near the house too, spreading the fragrance of roses in the air.Huh!!! Its been so long I've been here. This house of mine was once home to me. Whenever I look at this house, I don't see a house that can make anyone blissful but memories. Yeah! I could only see memories. Lots of them. My eyes glistened for a moment feeling myself getting drowned in misery again. So I shook my head and went inside knowing Jack was looking at me as always.I can't act weak not even in front of myself, I am SIA MARTIN, the CEO of one big corporation. My weakness can ruin lives. That's what I was thinking before I entered inside. I passed by the corridor hurriedly not wanting to be seen by anyone right now. I finally got to my room and opened the door slowly. A black and red combination was what the theme of the room was.I sighed heavily finally getting to a place where no one will be watching me. I was barefooted and I also forgot to bring my heels, but I shook it off knowing that Jack will bring it anyway. My muscles were sore so I went to take a bath.After taking the bath, I called my secretary to tell her that she should cancel all the meetings for the next 3 days, as I was planning on not going to office or attend any meetings.I don't want to see them yet. I dont want to deal with anything yet. I laid down on the bed closing my eyes and fell asleep after a while.I was in the middle of a secluded place crying and screaming, "Don't kill them, kill me instead. I will do an--anything you want, just don't do this" I was sobbing sitting on my knees in front of him.He squated down in front of me and caressed my face, "You should have listened to me before darling!...The time has passed now, Sia". I heard the familiar, terrifying voice saying to me. I shook my head and tried to grab him to plead again. But the sound of two gunshots stopped me and I went silent.I screamed loudly and jolted up from my bed. I suddenly looked around room. I was fine, it was just a dream. My body was shivering and covered with sweat. I was crying hysterically when I felt the panic attack appearing again with breaths coming out in short pants, my lungs and whole body aching with the familiar burning sensation.I shakingly opened the side drawer and quickly grabbed the medicines, gulping them down with water trying to calm myself down. But who was I kidding when I knew that I am going to spend the rest of the night crying.Why me? Why did this happen to me? Why am I the one to suffer always?You deserved it I started hearing the voices in my head again and cried more hysterically....PLEASE TELL ME YOUR REVIEWS IN THE COMMENT SECTION. THANKYOU!
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