Chapter fifteen

Coming to terms with a broken heart. I guess that good things fall apart -john Bellion ft illenium

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Cassie

Three weeks gone and some days looked normal.apart from the days when sasha would call and whine throughout. She was having a hard time living with Edwina and her brutal son.and I knew if not for grandma. She'd probably would have ran away from home.

Personally, that wasn't a good idea to me. And dad wasn't going to let her come live with me besides, grandma was still alive and she wasn't going to support sasha's idea.

Sometimes, I hated to think that I had a messed up family. But then, it was my cross and I had to deal with it. 

Apart from my family issues, school was great.I hunged out more often with Toyo and Nene. And at home, Jeremy came by often. 

Well, before you sum up your ideas.we are kinda close to each other,More likely friendly neighbors.he hardly talks about his personal life and that's fine cause I don't tell him mine either.

Today was one of those days that were great. I had just walked out of the library. with my headset on.weekend's song titled HILLS kept replaying. I walked by a few lecture halls and greeted a few people who waved at me. A girl walked by waving too and of course i waved back.

It was only polite.yeah, but if I had know the reason why she waved at me, then I would have acted the blind bat's role. 

She had called my attention to some prick who kept calling me.I pulled off my headset to hear what she was talking about

" pardon? " 

" yeah, someone is calling you " she said pointing behind me.

I turned back to see sam running towards me. I rolled my eyes and hung my headset back.as I continue to walk

" cassie  please wait " he called and then I stopped.he drew closer to me. Slowly panting.

" what? "I asked coldly 

" I'm sorry. I'm tryna catch my breath. It feels like I ran a marathon " he said smiling

I rolled my eyes well.mr this obviously isn't impressive. 

" oh really cause waiting here feels like i already waited for an eternity " I say sarcastically 

" I'm sorry " he said again

" why did you call me ?" I asked.he shuffled his feet uncomfortably and sucking in a sharp breath he replied

" how you doing cassie?  "

I laughed sacarstically " since when did you care about how I was doing ?"

" I always did..."

" oh please cut the crap " I said already pissed 

" seriously cassie,  I didn't mean to hurt you"

" did you stop me to tell me this ? "

" no.I called you so you could know something " he said looking so meek and for a second. I tried considering what he just said.

But I think I was way past beyond caring.he hurt me real bad.do why the hell would I stand here to hear him out 

Still.

" about what?" I asked him

" it's about yetunde " he said and if I had hated this guy with fifty percent of my heart. Then the remaining fifty was a passcard to murder him

I laughed mirthlessly. 

Why??

Why the fuck should I know something about the physco?

I glared at him angrily " oh wow....you want to tell him something about yetunde ?" I replied him smiling sourly. 

" I'm sorry cassie I didn't mean to hurt you that day and..."

" shut up Sam! "I growled 

" just shut the fuck up already. " I folded my hands around me biting my lips gently

" you want to tell me about yetunde huh? Okay go on sam.tell me how you two fuck each second of your life cause you can't have enough of each other " I spat out angrily

" Cassie....that's not it.."

" really? Then what is it? That you two go to the beach, and without her your world will probably collapse.no tell me Sam. That you two have pillow fights and maybe cassie is somewhere feeling miserable therefore you should give her a job to separate your fights " I yelled angrily. 

I was trying to stop myself from crying. And I don't know what's worse.but I'm damn angry and tears are just something that pours out when I'm angry. 

" Cassie.  That's non of it.I loved you and sincerely I still do.babe for the love of everything we had.

I swear it, what i did wasn't intentional.please believe me " he said earning a slap from me

" babe?!....right.maybe I wasn't good enough for you and that's fine besides I don't wanna know what your problem is but I hope you keep running to your new girl friend. You are just a beast.a jerk and...a...a fool " I said walking out or rather running off.

Sam was a jerk

Sam was a fool

Sam was inhumane. 

Did he hate me this much ? 

He broke up with me for no reason and then tells me he loves yetunde out of the blues. 

Now suddenly he's back.begging me for forgiveness, cause there is something I fucking need to know about fucking fucketty yetunde. 

He just hates me.and all this while I was blind to it all.

I wiped my tears which were pouring so hard like little rain drops on my cheeks. 

I was supposed to be over him.

He is a bloody maggot

But it was painful. 

It was so hurtful. 

I still love sam.

How much did this realisation hit me.

If there was anything that hurts me most.then it was me admitting it to myself. 

I hugged my knees crying silently. 

Nene said I shouldn't cry anymore cause of him

But. No every single time, I hate myself for still loving him.

" I hate him " I cried out aloud in whimper. 

" aww.hate who ? " I heard a voice which was unmistakable say. I raised up my face and there stood her.

The fucking bitch 

Ye bitch tun bitchy de bitchress. 

" what do you want? "

She sighed. Placing her palms on her chest and giving me a mock pity look. she shook her head saying

" I guess sam already told you everything huh ? "

I didn't say a word still she continued, coming closer to my face level

" umm honey.no need to hate sam.he's just doing what a good boyfriend should do." She paused shrugging " besides you moved on. So why don't you just lean on Jeremy. Maybe he's better than Sam.." she paused and then gave a high pitch mocking laugh

" ...your jerk " she said slowly.walking out

I knew i should have slapped her.I was too tired.

I hated the fact that she had the guts to taunt me.

I hated the fear of me getting all weak.

I slipped my phone out of my jean jumpers. Dialing the closet person I thought of right now.and at one second he had picked up his phone.

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Jeremy held his car door open for me and waited for me to get in.before he got in too.swerving the car into motion. He glanced at me calling softly

" cassie "

I muttered a reply 

" are you okay ? "

" no " I said truthfully

" do you want me to drive somewhere else ? "

" I just want to go home " I said.shutting my eyes slowly. 

Minutes later.I was at home,he had made me a nice cup of tea while I curled myself up in my blankets

" do you wanna talk about it ? "He asked coming over to seat beside me

I sighed.sipping my tea slowly 

" I wish " 

He shrugged.then stood up abruptly

" okay...i'll just call Nene to come check up on you.I need to get going "

" no stay " I said on impulse.

" what.?"

" I want you to stay " I repeated. And then added " please" 

He sat down and then pulled me to a hug.

Jeremy's action actually suprised me.i wondered how he knew I craved that.I wanted someone to hug me. 

I clutched my arms around him. I was getting all emotional again 

" let it out. "He said softly

Ironically, I never wanted sam to see me cry but here I was, crying into Jeremy's shoulders.

He said nothing. Instead he patted my back till I fell asleep. 

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