LOGINAs long as she spends her time with Wilhelm, it will never work," Elvira was certain, "Nobody dares even look at her because everyone thinks she is already in firm hands."
“Nonsense”, said Sabine, “Wilhelm is my best friend. Many women have a gay best friend. "
"Only Wilhelm is not gay, he is bi," objected Zoe, "And his behavior in public does not always suggest that nothing could ever happen between you."
"Seriously, mom? How often do I have to explain to you that we treat each other like brothers and sisters? "
That was at least the case for most of their time together. Sometimes it came over him and he joked a bit with her. But never with really serious intentions, just for fun. Or he became a little more trusting and closer to the body when he temporarily passed her off as his girlfriend for various reasons. But everything within an absolutely reasonable framework, of course.
At home he ran into her every now and then completely undressed, but she had given up warning him about it and was no longer really bothered by it. There were worse sights after all. But just because Wilhelm was looking pretty good by now didn't mean she had to fall head over heels in love with him. They had known each other far too long for that. They had been friends for almost fifteen years now and during this time Wilhelm really became part of her family for Sabine. And that's exactly how she loved him - on a purely friendly and family basis like a brother. But were you actually allowed to find your brother attractive? She mentally compared Wilhelm to Viktor and concluded that she had never seen her real brother as a man in that way.
“We know that, Bienchen,” Zoe soothed her, “But it can easily appear different to outsiders and convey the wrong image. We didn't mean to say anything more. "
Sabine growled annoyed. She had heard that before. It wasn't her fault that people could only think in drawers. It was certainly unusual that she had shared an apartment with Wilhelm for six years and that neither of them had had a single relationship with anyone else during that time. But if it worked that way for both of them and they were happy with it, it shouldn't be a problem for anyone.
“We are just concerned that you will never find a partner as long as you always go outside the door with Wilhelm. Although of course we are grateful to him for making sure that you even socialize. As a child you were always slightly sociophobic, ”emphasized Elvira.
"Excuse me? I'm always alone with people! I take the bus and train, I go to work, I meet up with my friends ... ", Sabine listed," So I think I have plenty of contact with my fellow human beings. And you know very well that this pointless partying, dancing and drinking is not my thing. If that's the only way to ever get to know a man, then honestly I'd rather stay alone. "
So far, at least, she had come through the years very well without a boyfriend. Sex was overrated anyway. And besides, you couldn't miss anything that you had never had.
"There are also Tinder and other dating apps," Zoe interjected, not really serious.
Elvira sighed.
"If it makes you happy to be forever single, of course I accept that. But you also know exactly how much I want little grandchildren. "
“Yes, and you know exactly how much I hate children”, Sabine countered, “If anything, Viktor has to take care of your grandchildren's wishes. Not me."
Children were all small and mean monsters, after all. She had never understood how other people could even begin to refer to children as cute . Baby animals were cute. But not so naked, misshapen bundles that later grew into naughty snot spoons and drove their parents insane.
"Amen," Zoe said, trying to get the tension out of the atmosphere and a change of subject.
Zoe had always been the more tolerant of her two mothers. Maybe also because she was most likely to take on the male part in the relationship, even if she never dressed or behaved male. She was slim and not very tall, had a cheeky blonde pixie cut and sympathetic laugh lines on her dark blue eyes, the color of which Sabine had almost inherited from her. She lived true to the motto live and let live and usually reacted very understandingly to alternative ways of life in any form.
Elvira, on the other hand, was not just visually the opposite of Zoe. As a hairdresser with her own salon, she was constantly trying out new haircuts and colors. She was currently wearing her natural-colored, brown locks in a kind of long bob. Once when she was young, she was slim. But since the birth of Viktor and Sabine several years ago, she had retained some excess skin on her stomach, because her slack connective tissue simply had not contracted completely. In this sense, she wasn't really fat, but simply had a normal figure with one or the other problem area.
While Zoe had already known as a teenager that she was a lesbian, Elvira had only cultivated relationships with men before falling in love with Zoe in one fell swoop and finally switching banks. Perhaps because of this, she found it a little harder to understand her daughter's non-standard lifestyle.
"Have I already told you that I have a casting for Elisabeth in a few days ?", Zoe finally shared with Sabine. She made big eyes and shook her head.
"For Sissi? Or Nene? ” She asked immediately.
“Neither. I'm a little old for them both . No, I'm in the running for Archduchess Sophie and possibly Ludowika . "
“That is crazy! Of course, I wish you every success and will keep my fingers crossed. Where will the production be performed? "
“Here with us in the city theater. That would be a dream if it works. Right around the corner from us. "
As a trained musical artist and actress, Zoe was used to a lot of grief when it came to her venues or sets. She always had to travel and work where the plays were being performed and filming was happening. Often she was hardly at home for weeks or even months. Every artist's cross.
"I believe in you, my darling," said Elvira, put one arm around Zoe's middle and pressed a kiss on her mouth.
“Please keep me up to date”, asked Sabine, before she gradually said goodbye to her mothers and started walking home.
At the beginning of the evening she had thought exactly the same thing. But as it turned out, for the most part it had been nice to chat with her old companions."W-do we want to sit down at one of the pools over there?", Suggested Sanjay as a substitute and pointed to one of the paddling pools a little further on the edge of the area, where a small group of guests was in the mood for optimism."Gladly," agreed Sabine and made her way through the crowd on Sanjay's back.In doing so, she suddenly realized how surreal this situation was that she was in right now.She and Sanjay had been neighbors and thus more or less sandpit friends. Zoe and Elvira had had a very good relationship with the Patel family from the start. Nothing was more obvious than sharing the burdens of being a parent and always having breakfast together for the expenses of the children of the same age. Because suffering shared was still suffering half. So it happened that Sanjay and Sabin
What are you two standing around here so apart?", Wilhelm suddenly approached out of nowhere and cast a scrutinizing look at his roommate before he and Erik greeted each other with a manly handshake.It had not escaped him that Sabine made an uncomfortable impression. So he stood next to her and put an arm around her middle."Are you okay?" He asked quietly and looked at her waiting with warm eyes. She nodded and gave him a small, grateful smile.Erik had not escaped this familiarity, of course, and drew his own conclusions from it."Didn't even know that you were dipping your stick in Maja's honey pot," he commented on the scene and took another sip, amused.Sabine's features slipped easily and she was glad that she could hold on to her glass.Wilhelm froze next to her for a second, before he deliberately pulled her very close to his side and kissed her on the temple."Envious?" He smiled provocatively.A mocking sound escaped
She had secretly raved about Erik Seibert all her school days. He, on the other hand, had mocked and teased her over the years for her bulky body, for her braces, for breasts that were too small and, last but not least, for her acne. Despite all his meanness and insults, she thought he was great. Apparently she had a slightly masochistic streak even then.Erik had just been terribly cool, how he was always casually cruising around with his skateboard in the schoolyard during the breaks and performing small stunts and jumps with the part. As a real rebel, he had provocatively chewed chewing gum during class despite the prohibition, started smoking in the seventh grade, had argued with the teachers several times and disrupted the class and was therefore regularly shown outside the door. His grades were mostly bad because it was not cool to study and nerds like Sabine were ostracized for their hard work. A bad boy like he was in the book. He had also looked good on top of that.
had been a long time since she had been so painstakingly dressed up. Wilhelm had suggested to her, just like him, to show everyone impressively that they were no longer the ridiculed children of that time.But she didn't feel as adult and self-confident as she outwardly appeared today. Sabine possessed the ability, which she did not appreciate very much, to adapt her mental age to the respective situation and her human environment. For example, when she filled out her tax return, she felt right at home and as if she knew where the hare was. She was at least forty years old then. If she was talking to clients at work and had to appear competent, she was definitely thirty. In the presence of her parents, she automatically became a minor child with an open age limit, who had to be protected and instructed. She usually kept her biological age among friends, but occasionally slipped back into puberty.Tonight she was as insecure and overwhelmed as she was at school an
That will be really nice. You'll see, ”Wilhelm was sure.“For you maybe. You got on well with pretty much everyone. I have absolutely nothing positive about these idiots and I don't know any good reason why I shouldn't just let the past rest. That's why I won't go there either. Sorry. "Wilhelm scratched his beard.“This is a little inconvenient now. I've already promised Bianca that we will both come. ""Are you crazy ?!", Sabine briefly indigned, "You can't just decide that over my head!"“There's nothing to it”, Wilhelm didn't understand the vortex and shrugged his shoulders, “I thought you were happy. That will be fun. I'll take care of you. In addition, these Honks are all older and some may even have become more mature. "He gave a short laugh. Sabine, on the other hand, exhaled very clearly audibly.“When is this unnecessary gathering of the insane actually going to take place? Certainl
She thought back to the conversation about her non-existent boyfriend and, like every time this topic came up, immediately felt a little depressed again. What could she do that nobody wanted her? Well, she didn't do much to get noticed, of course, but still it was an absolute mystery to her how other people did that. Or how a Wilhelm could tow away a new bed companion every evening if he wanted. No matter where you looked, it looked so incredibly easy and natural to love and to be loved too. As if it wasn't scary and difficult to let another person get so close, emotionally as well as physically. So if it just wasn't working for her, she must be the problem herself, willy-nilly. She had no other explanation.There were always moments when she wanted a partner by her side from the bottom of her heart. Someone she could lean on and let go of. But when she then noticed all the relationship drama of her friends, the good feeling sprang up again very quickly in her, not to see her