Hit by November

    My hand, it was the first what I felt, the grass, and the ground between my fingers. My legs were numb and I felt like I was lying on the ground. There was no way I could get up and move, only my hand tried helplessly to grasp anything so that I could realize what had happened and what was going on. The hand sought it from one side to the other by helplessly exploring the surrounding environment.

My body, like a stranger, no longer responds to anything that my brain's order to do, only give me inhuman agony. Through the flickering light in my eyes, I finally can see trees, but the image is still blurred, it looked calmly untouched by the harsh wind and rain. But the bright light made me close my eyes again, the sun's rays blinding my sensitive eyes that I seemed to be blinding immediately. In the distance, I hear shots that end in even more intense tinnitus, forcing my head to burn inside.

After a while, I kept trying to open my eyes again, and the image flickered through the bright colours, the view no longer doubling to me until I could finally see well. I couldn't believe such a suddenly changed picture. Not a single drop of rain or the evening sky, which was only met in the storm. Everything has changed but at the same time, it is familiar...

 This road looked different; the crushed asphalt more trees and fewer lights than before illuminating the path. I’m sure I’m exactly where I was driving but it looked like someone had forgotten this road pose and no one would be fixing it in order during the year. But it’s the same path I’m sure of it.

I tried to stand up and look around. My body was shaking and even my legs were trembling they still could hold me. My rubies were wet, and I was so frozen from the frost of autumn, and the sun's rays were not very warm. My car was no longer there, only overgrown trees that had certainly not been here before. There is no way I could lose consciousness, but if I did in some way, then I've been here all night, so why has everything changed so unrecognizable? And where’s my fucking car for the gods’ sake.

I am sure that this is the same spot where lightning crossed the spruce. But a tree is without any harm. And near it was a sign indicating direction but I no longer can see it.

“-Where the hell, I am?  “

My phone was lying on the ground, nearby and in my backpack as well, I immediately rushed to pick up my kinds of stuff. Even though the sun was shining and the day was clear, the phone glass was wet and I was trying to unlock it, but my wet, trembling hands didn’t let do it. I felt the taste of metal in my mouth and I still couldn't smell anything, but I felt that I would be able to use this sensation soon. My heart is pounding like madness.

“-Why this old cursed thing doesn't work? Shit. Fucking goblin gods!  Can I ever be visited by the luck, at least for one day? Shit. Probably there can’t be any worse than it is now, just please work you peace of shit. Common... Please just do something…anything… “ I felt scared and hopeless, My fingers were shaking as I tried to unlock it.

I helplessly drained my hands and my phone into my skirt and to wherever I could find, but O all was wet. Hoping that the phone wouldn’t be broken or discharged… Anyway, because otherwise, I can’t imagine even in which direction I should go to seek help, looks like this place is not surrounded by any living spirit, or by any house. I hate being in nature especially in a condition like mine.

I hate being in nature even more now. Kai would know what to do, he wouldn’t panic as I am now. And definitely wouldn’t go cry like me, my tears appeared in my eyes. He just would say breath slowly and think about what you can do, not what you can’t. Well, I could take my heel shoes, because its torture for my legs but I would get cold even more. Then I found a huge rock and started beating the heel of the shoe to make it fall off. It was hard to break it; I am not surprised by that because I paid them for six hundred euros. One shoe finally gave up for me and I sighed in relief.

“- Finally. Be blessed you fucking gods “ I screamed to the sky. But my voice was so silent. I cleared my mouth and looked where I could put my poor ass.

I sit down near that stone and put that broken shoe on my leg., then take my phone and I tried to press the unlock button on its left side again. The phone's screen responded and unlocked, a little flickering, but it didn't make the connection available.

In the distance, I heard voices. The excitement and relief passed through the whole body. I ran off the road towards the sounds I heard, until I could see the silhouettes of people. Without waiting for anything, I called for help as loudly as I could only for the hope they would not disappear.

- Hey!!!!Help!!!!Over here! I need help! “ ‘I forgot that I was cold or that I was weak, that I could barely walk, now I flew like a bullet crossing the way, with one high heel, which made me fall right on my nose.

“-Shit that hurts,” I rubbed my nose. I would give anything now, for pairs of the sneakers with a warm sweater and a cup of hot coffee… “Please just don’t go away.” I whispered as I pull together from the ground.

I waved my hands in all directions like a madwoman as much as I jumped up and down. As if from my stupid movement they could see me, but it didn’t matter to me anymore I was in a desperate situation. Despite the feeling of shame I had to do something.

‘Bed I need it so bad…I could imagine how I would like to crawl into bed to cuddle to Kaj while we were watching the fire burn and hearing the roar of it…I would never argue with him again that we go out too little to the city. I would stay at home with him while he would smooth my hand or my back as I would be his little kitty…

Not long enough I approached a few people furthermore behind them I could now see some 20 armed and uniformed men.

“-I need help. Please. Help me? “

My voice even for me sounded strange, no longer so bold and confident like the squeak of a mouse sounded too high. For some reason, I was no longer convinced of my request.

I stopped and just waited…for them to come. My hand ran through my hair. I ran to them with such huge hope to return home but now I was overwhelmed by a strange feeling as if something was wrong.  For more better I could see them more worse I could feel my hope, it dissipated like fog.

Time was running out and all my instincts were screaming to me to run out from their way. I felt a growing fear in my veins, but to be left alone in the middle of somewhere, I was afraid to even more. I knew I had no chance of surviving on being alone, I was too far from home and too far from the city I didn't know where I was at all. Logic told me to take the opportunity to use the help of people until some strange pervert killed me or died of dehydration in empty fields, it would be very foolish to sit here and wait for a second chance of help because of a stupid security instinct.

Men were near me, behind them there were also some trucks.  Some men began to shout on me in the language of Russian’s’. The truck stopped and one handsome man goes out of it. He was tall blond hair and very handsome in a sexy way. I felt as my cheeks blushed. His eyes were blue as the ocean. He was muscular but not as much as Kai. But still, he looked like a model. His eyes didn’t let mine and I could see his long eyelashes I think even longer than mine. He put on his head a black peaked cap and on one shoulder took his gun. They looked like soldiers but I didn’t recognize the uniforms, but from their language, I could guess who they are…It made my blood frozen.