MasukAnjis. I'm excited. Original. Severe!
I try to be as normal as possible. Seeing him start rubbing the back of my hand, I felt something rustling all over my body.
Realize oi. See people later! My mind is screaming. My mind seems to agree with me, that I won't stand it if I'm being dignified. So I have to do something immediately to end this.
I immediately let go of my hand from his grasp. It's a little harsh. I snorted irritably, "What the heck!"
He just smiled, and whispered (again), "But you like it?"
For the earth and everything in it! What is the purpose of this creature being sent to earth? I try not to care about his actions anymore. It's up to him!
Love him! I don't want to get stuck with bullshit. Very stupid with all the chatter and talk that is not really that.
I thought again that in this place, I have to get the best education. Better than before. So I thought, I can't waste the opportunity that God has given me. There is no time to take care of love, let alone fagot.
Until, not long after that thought entered my brain, my first lesson teacher came. Ah, thank goodness! Her name is Mrs. Athalia. Often called Bu Atha. He is a fun Indonesian teacher.
"Try to read this! The children in the front row, go forward, and share it with the friends in the back ..." she asked while handing over a paper flyer after she sat down and greeted us all with a greeting. I was about to stand up to pick up the paper when he suddenly stopped, "No, it's okay. I'll do it!"
Ish. What the heck. I can also walk alone, make it my own. Meanwhile, if he takes it, he should be bothered
because sitting in the corner. So he had to get past me first.
Apparently there is a rotten plan that he has prepared in his brain. So when he passed me, he purposely touched his hand to my chest. To be precise the 'that' part. Ah, I don't know, how should I put it.
"Aw ..." I said reflexively, screaming under his breath. He smiled mischievously again.
Universe ... can I be harassed?
My habit that did not disappear and was learned from the former vocational high school children was pointing my middle finger directly at the face that I was kzl-in. Whoever it is. Fuck you! That's more or less the meaning of the signs I use.
But wrong… something was wrong with today. Mrs. Atha saw me pointing my middle finger as if it was directed at her. Duh, ouch, aing must ottokhae?
"Nasrul, why are you suddenly pointing out your middle finger like that? Do you want to have a match against mom? Come here and serve me!"
In order to hear Mrs. Atha's question, my classmate immediately laughed. Mrs. Atha is really the person. He likes to joke and doesn't really bother
with things like I do. The behavior of the children in the class tends to be even more magical than what I did just now. But sometimes, those words really make me nervous myself. Total insinuation. Yes! The sarcasm of this mother is indeed warbiyazah!
As a result, I can only smile and say, "Eh, no ma'am, sorry. I didn't mean to you."
"Oh, so to whom? To the children in class? Children, Nasrul is sure that there is a match fighting. Anyone dare?"
For the sake of the Goddess of the Quann Inn, the children laughed once again! I really am the center of the stupidity of the universe this second. Damn it! Fuck you, Arif! Maki me to myself. I finally chose to be quiet, didn't respond.
Shortly thereafter, the sheets of paper were distributed. Arif came to my table for the first time, as it should be. He gave the paper while saying, "Astaudi 'lii, habibatii."
(Leave mine, yes dear ..)
Shit! Habibatii? I'm not a girl oi. Habiibatii is the origin of the word habiibatun, and this word is originally used for girls. Anjis pisan is the main thing, hear it too! Really me!
My back seat friend giggled when I heard Arif's talk. They also understand what it means. They understand, 1000%. So I feel ashamed of myself. My position is really awkward. Not letting this incident dominate my clumsiness for too long, I returned his words.
"Maa syi'ta!" I answered firmly, trying to ignore him. I just glared in disgust, then immediately shifted my focus and gaze towards the sheet of paper that had moved into my hands.
(whatever! - This expression does not mean to be rude, but I always find this expression harsh to say. I always use this word when I'm angry)
"Fine, kids. Have you received all the sheets? Try to pay attention and read them carefully. There is already a short story, the work of one of the alumni of this Islamic boarding school. I hope that someday some of you can be short stories. like him or as the author of a book. Mother is looking forward to it. This short story work entitled, Senja with Santri, which made it into Islamic magazines. The story is very moving, considering that the author really experienced all the stories and troubles in this pesantren. Well, your task now is to determine the intrinsic and extrinsic elements that are in the short story. You analyze, understand and write down your answers in your notebook. Last week, I explained about the intrinsic and extrinsic elements, now it's your turn to immediately practice. Can you understand? "
"Ready, Mom .." Kur children answered in unison.
"All right! I'll give you an hour. You use your time as best as possible, ok? Later I will ask three of you to read the results."
Hearing this, everyone seemed surprised and started reading the short story. But not everyone is really focused, because in this class, there are also people
people who love only cheat. Like this person next to me.
"Rul, ba'du ana Andzur laka, na'am?"
(Rul, I'll see yours?) "Laa uriid!" I answered firmly. "If'al binafsik!" (Don't want to. Just do it yourself!)
"You will definitely give the answer, Rul. Because if you give it, tonight, I'll give you something delicious too.
"Agree?" He whispered in a comfortable voice. I shuddered to hear that.
Holy! The delicious one? What's good?
My thoughts are already everywhere. I feel confused myself. But then I took control of my thoughts again. I immediately shifted my focus to the paper. What a fool! Give you up, Rif, give up!
I want to finish this as soon as possible.
I then read the rest of the short story script which I had only had time to read a few paragraphs because my focus was constantly disturbed by this Arif. I continued to immerse myself in my reading and suddenly felt like I was choking when I read the middle section. Unconsciously, I also shed tears. It seeps out of my eye slits, flowing without excuse me.
"Rul ..." I paused, sharpening my ears at the words he was going to make. "I told you not to cry! If you cry, I'll close the tissue factory, so only my hands can wipe your tears."
In order to hear the joke that he made, I immediately glanced at him. Glanced irritably. What is it! What you talk about Dangdut, Rif!
I decided I tried to ignore him. I am already engrossed in my reading. Until I got to the end of the reading, I kept the short story on the table while I myself folded and put my hands on the table. I ended up really crying while putting my head down over my folded hands. Losing a friend at a pesantren, who in fact has done many activities such as bathing, eating, drinking, studying, ah, almost everything together is more stifling than ordinary friendship. Oath! I can't stand it. I cried innocently. Universe, I don't mean to be weepy. It's just that I really want, if I also lost the best friend I loved when I was in middle school. He left me on earth. It's lonely, universe, lonely.
"Rul, qif! Qif. Alright, don't cry anymore. Shhh ..." She said comforting me while stroking my back hair.
( Rul, stop! Stop.)
"Rul, is the story bad?" Suddenly Mrs. Atha came over to me. He knows that basically I really like things that smell like literature and like to live up to what I read.
"Already ... already .. the story is true. Eh, could it be that you have also experienced losing a friend?" Mrs. Atha guessed and made me stop crying. I looked at Mrs. Atha.
"Yes, Mom. I have experienced it myself. During junior high school."
"It's okay. Just pray for him, Rul. He must be happy that his friend can be pious and enter the boarding school. Hopefully he will be happy by his side, Rul .." said Mrs. Atha while stroking my head.
"Yes, ma'am, that's right. Now Arif is also here. Arif will look after Nasrul from now on. Arif will be Nasrul's best friend."
"Well ... that's all right. Don't cry anymore. Can you work on the intrinsic and extrinsic elements?"
"Yes, Ma'am, inshaAllah. Thank you." I nodded. And Mrs. Atha started going around to other places. My crying started to subside.
"Thanks, Rif." I said sincerely while looking at him
"Yes. It's okay. Eh, by the way, I don't want to be your best friend ..."
"Eh, how come you suddenly said that? In front of Mrs. Atha, you said ..."
"I can't say in front of Mrs. Atha that I'm ready to be your boyfriend." Between you cut my conversation. Then with that sharp gaze while smiling, you said something more terrible emphasis. "Could it be, if I were your boyfriend?"
The Universe ...
Please just hide him in a blackhole. I can't stand someone else when he is on earth.
Shit! No wonder I was really lazy to play soccer. I already said I didn't want to go crazy. But Rafli insisted on persecuting me instead. With weak steps, I was forced to follow him to the field. And because I was so lazy, I decided to go to the field wearing sandals.I saw several children gathered in the field. Ah, I counted for a moment, it turned out that there were only ten people. Five against five. Alright, with compulsion - even though my body doesn't feel very good - there's nothing wrong with me participating in this game. If I'm really tired, then it's easy, just stop right away.I went in and started playing on the field. My mood changed over time as the more I chased the ball, chased the falls and the goals I felt. Fun. Sweating can actually change your mood, huh? The impression of a sweaty guy looks tantalizing because their mood might turn out good. Eh?But the cave has been lazy from the start, bad luck manifested itself in front of me: the claw
I'm really confused today. The incident last night still made me confused and uncomfortable. Everything suddenly messed up in my brain. Universe, what shall I do today?This morning I went to class earlier. I'm lazy to eat. The incident all day yesterday was fatal for me personally. I felt as if I were being hit by repeated bullets, and I was hit badly. Until that ended my appetite decreased dramatically.Especially last night, after Arif kissed me, he said,"Rul, after this you may need to be even more prepared. I think there will be lots of guys who are eyeing you." Something was different this time. He doesn't use me and you anymore."Including you?""Yes, including me." There was absolutely no guilt in her voice. Suddenly horror ran through my body."Then what should I do?""Yes, just take care of your body. Don't get hit again."I'm angry at my anger. I really want to scold the devil in human form in front of me. Doesn't h
Someone grabbed my arm, then pointed it at something. He moved and rubbed slowly, until something got bigger. Like swelling.I still don't care. I'm quite tired from all the activities today. I just want to sleep well and forget everything. I'm really tired all day! It feels like my energy is being sucked in and completely exhausted by Arif, including the consequences of the sentence this afternoon. I'm sleepy. Universe ... Please tell them, don't have a single one to bother me!Then I felt the 'naughty' hand slowly moving towards my chest. Around that sensitive area, he continued to grope slowly. It's so calm. Me, who is sleeping well, starts to be disturbed. Who is it? My eyes slowly opened. And I immediately turned to the direction left, where the person with the arm came from. I squinted, trying to identify this person."Akhyar?" I asked softly because I didn't want to make a scene to the whole crowd. He smiled. Still - politely, I held his arm in silence. H
Tonight I am very nervous. Am I just playing dead? Or did you really die?Not bad if you die in a boarding school. God willing, martyrs, khusnul khotimah.After evening prayer, his dhikr routine took a long time. You can mutter the dhikr in the congregation with your voice raised for more than half an hour, guided by the priest. In the beginning, I was still excited about doing dhikr, because I thought I could memorize as well. But over time, sometimes I get bored. When you have memorized it, dhikr for half an hour and done every day in the same way can it be boring or not?But, I can't be like that. I have to be able to endure fatigue, so that I can be devoted to khotimah. InsyaAllah yes ...After that long dhikr, I immediately took my yellow book for sorogan. Tonight the study of the book of tizan, a book that discusses the science of monotheism. Tawhid is one of the most important sciences i
I'm really happy. To my relief, I finally had half an hour to be alone. I ran towards the roof of the Al-Fathah building, there was a large area where I could see the sunset or sunrise. Or maybe just being alone like me. I am happy to be alone here in the afternoon, because the children are usually busy taking baths at this time. I can take my time.I was silent, began to direct my gaze towards the sky. The atmosphere is very reassuring here. The trees also look earthy with their shadow to the ground. The leaves moved slowly along with the soothing evening breeze. I'm comfortable here. My front hair bangs up and down.I daydream for a while here. Reflecting on what I've experienced today with Arif. I swear that kid, really annoying. From morning till evening, he kept messing up my life. From dawn even! Even though the previous day, he had never acted recklessly like this. I can't be loved! It's like he's just playing with me. But how to relieve the nervousness whenever
The jaros rang again. That's a sign that today's lesson is over. I'm relieved. Ah, finally, I can breathe better after this. Literally, I don't need to be close to Arif right now. I have to find a place to hide, calm down and confide in. Fill in my diary again as usual.The general activities of the students here after school are praying asar, receiving punishment which will be announced by qismul i ‟lan or doing extracurricular activities. My extracurricular? Looks like scouts are the ones who are obliged, hehe. Because I don't really like sports. I think walking back and forth between Hammaam is also a sport. Anyways my body is thin So I don't need to be more tired with exercise.As usual, I tidied up the contents of my bag, and I entered the subject books last time to the cupboard. I'll take my bottle and drink first. I have to calm down before praying after almost all day long I've been bothered by Arif.Crazy man. Just tell him all day long, up to 10 mosaic