Chapter 36

2 easy - Dani leigh 🎶

My eyes burns and i can hear my heart pounding.

Not from fear of him but i am a bit scared my inner self yarns for his touch by all means. 

A burning ache began in my chest and the soaring ache spread throughout my whole system.

Just as my eyes adjust to his...my anger begins to boil up.

I want to throw up on his whole face at how disgusted i am by his presence. His cologne is almost seizing the whole air and my inner self is aroused by it.

You must be surprised how my whole beign is not stable with one emotion at this point.

That is the kind of circumstance Drew puts you in.

His sight was terrifying and considering how pathetic it was to keep on avoiding him, my legs moved on it own.

“Renee!” He yells out causing the break in silence in the whole room.

Yeah right, great at causing scenes.

Memories of what happened at the hut and how he abandoned me came whirling my head. 

My jaws clenched.

I growled dashing further out of the room into the night with my mind wirling in thoughts.

My anger bubbled up but i am not sure what i am doing.

All i know is my legs picked up pace and i am running.

To where? I dont know either.

All my instincts tells is to run away.

I cant seem to hear any more step from him and i heave a long shaky breath.

Clenching my arms to my knees, i hear the sound of the door open.

There’s a door? I’m in a room again?

I gesture further into the dark and he gets hold of my forearm firmly.

He drags me along with him to near the window and i try to jerk away.

“Get away from me bastard!” 

“No...we need to talk..even though you have nothing to say to me at least i could clear my air...” he interjects.

I’m so uncomfortable, God.

“Fuck!” He cusses as i pinch at his fingers.

His hand still remains firm on my forearm.

I roll my eyes in disdain.

“Why are you running from me? I am now a monster?” He asks

My eyes shift into his as the tiny ray of dim light escapes through the window centering at the wall opposite us.

I wish i had a knife to poke his eyes out instead of encountering this pathetic stare he serves me.

“Let go off me!” I shout at him and he stares for sometime as if thinking if that’s the best thing to do. He releases me and stand still.

We remain like that eye ball to eye ball.

“You’re overreacting” as soon as the words come out of his mouth, my instincts forces me to gush out at him.

“Overreacting is what you call it?! Is this how to show how you feel towards me! I never begged you to take me out...i am alright in my comfort zone and then you come up with this gibberish thing of spending time together and telling me not to leave. Then drop statements of meeting you for lunch and of course you throw my expectations at my face! You never meant your feelings!” 

He instantly rests his index fingers on my lips to stop me from gushing more

“Dont talk like that” 

I take a step back

“If there’s anything that’s ever true it is how i feel and i mean it. Trust me” 

“Trust you?! Why!” I ask

The words register him that he probably had no reason to back it up and he brushes his hair with his fingers.

Of course..he had to blow this one at my face again.

A larger part of me was hoping he would reassure me of how he felt but he’s here silent.

I’m not the kind to keep on expecting but i don’t understand why i expect so much more from Drew when he is always going to be an annoying fuck.

I cant help the tears that prick my eyes and i allow them roll off.

“Hey..” he gestures to me and i back off

“Dont come close to me Drew..” i sob

“Are you ready to listen to me now?” He asks and I remain silent.

What’s there to hear more when his already silence was enough answer to me

He forces his hand into his back pocket and gets out his phone.

“I got a new phone” he raises it to my face

I don’t understand what that means. How’s that related to this talk.

“My phone crashed...I couldn’t call to tell you...i was supposed to come over afterwards but i couldnt even reach you...my car battery died because i left the AC on...i know you may feel this is an added up story but its the truth...”

I remain silent and my tears begin to dry up.

“I still managed to get a cab to reach you at the cafeteria but you weren’t there and when i got to the hostel...it all blew up, remember...?”

I realize now that when he later showed up, he came without his car. 

Oh my God...i have been carrying anger in my heart without listening up to his own side.

“I thought i could talk to you but you didnt even give me the benefit of doubt that you would stay put Renee...”

I force myself to look back up at him.

I feel terrible and might just crash right now.

“You went ahead to look for comfort from Jayy!” I can sense his anger boiling but i am surprised how he can still sound calm.

I was wrong.

I am wrong!

“I am sorry if i hurt you by not showing up but i just thought you should hear this as well. Honestly, i dont know what to think. Have a blissful night Renee...” he turns to leave and my both hands rapidly reaches out to pull his hand.

I cant hold back the tears but i know it changes nothing.

I better speak up.

“ i hate it when i have to get angry and get involved in unnecessary drama i could have avoided. I filled my head with thoughts because i was confused..”

My tears roll out more and i sob

“You have girls around you and i felt you wanted to add me to the list of your play girls....and jayy i didn’t do nothing with him”

“The least you could have done was give me the benefit of doubt “ he shakes his head

I dont know what to say anymore but the whole of me wishes this will all pass as soon as possible. 

His fingers trail up to my face and he wipes my tears.

“Stop” he says

I’m trying to but dont know how to

He cups my face and raises it to face him.

“Look at me he instructs “

I force myself to dart my eyes at his... then he smile.

“My baby...”he pouts

He pulls me into a hug and we remain like that for some minutes.

I dont want to leave his embrace till i can process what i want to do next.

My mind is at rest and it’s surprising that there’s no new thought whirling my head.

Just at that point, he had the nerve to break loose.

“I feel like myself around you” his voice comes out cracking and shaky

He stares at me and i feel like any word i say now would be my own cross.

This guy makes me feel things i am new to and makes me look at things differently from different perspectives. Who knew we would be back together like nothing happened so soon...

......it’s like a force of attraction between opposite poles of a magnet.