Chapter 35

Rain on me - lady gaga 🎶

His palm cupped my jaw and he brings his other hand to remove my hair falling down to my lips behind my ear lobe.

His eyes connect with my lips and my resistance is fierce to back away.

He takes his other hand to pin my arm back on the bed and looks at me deeply.

My stomach stir and my muscles tense up.

I’m not repeating any mistakes anymore.

My inner self wants to fight the urge to remain before he pulls down my wall.

His breath is fully warm on my cheeks.

I can feel the way my heart is heavily pounding on my chest.

It wasn’t supposed to be like this.

I am not supposed to stay still and allow it all repeat itself to my full sight.

But i am numb.

All my energy varnishes and it feels like i am encaged in an ice cube and goosebumps appear on my arm skin.

He sucks in my neck line trailing kisses upwards to my jaw. His mouth breath is minty and it heats my skin like steam.

Just as he gets to my neck...

“Drew” 

Too much struggling to forget him has caused my mind to bring up revelations of him.

Even in my deepest dream, he still had a way to escape through the gates.

“It’s not fair that you chose to ghost us...!”

Priscy scrambled off the bed.

“Even though we hurt you...speaking up to put the truth to our face would have been better. We’re roommates at least. Am i that bad? You dont want to be close friends, thats fine. But avoiding us is not fair.” Her eyes met my gaze.

I dont have a word.

Sadness and hurt knot my stomach and it is almost choking me. I hurt her , not just her..my friends all these while without knowledge. In the cause of preventing more issues with Drew..i kept to myself and tip toed out of the room in the mornings and returned late when i was sure they’ve left for night class.

If it had been me, I’d have been madly hurt and not even talk to the person anymore. 

But here she is, venting her emotions out to me.

I understand what she means and realize how wrong i have been.

I feel worse for hurting her.

A tear almost escapes my eye and i blink rapidly brushing off my nose.

Tears came down, spilling off her cheeks as she continued to express herself.

I jump down from my bed in no time and pull her into a tight hug.

I think i must have lost my voice but the steamy words roll off anyways..

“I’m sorry Priscy.”

She hiccups.

“Believe me when i say you weren’t wrong in anyway. I feel worse and selfish that i have been at fault all this while without an idea. I’m really sorry.”

I pull out of the hug and face her eyeball to eye ball...”i was being childish. I didn’t want to disturb or cause distractions so i left for classes as early as possible and move down to the library afterwards..” i half lie.

I cant bring myself to inform her on my issues and time spent with Drew.

I can tell her about Tony but it’s best this way.

I feel terrible but spilling more would not only cause issues for me but my relationship with them would turn out weird.

I have not even talked to Drew concerning what he has with Priscy or Violet.. he should be the one i hear it from first.

But i dont know how to put it yet so it doesn’t seem like i am desperate.

He offended me and i have been running away since i resumed from the break.

 My fingers move up to her face and wipes off the one remaining tear rolling down her cheeks.

She chuckles.

“What?” I am confused at what enthused her action when some seconds back she was emotional.

“I’m just glad to have spoken to you. I missed you..” she pulls me back to a hug.

We remain like that for few more seconds and pull away.

“Let me make it up to you..”

“Of course...” she pouts

“Errr....Your dinner is on me today and ....”i am trying think of something that’ll amuse her.

“Follow me for night class!” She interjects delighted.

Exactly. If this was a paid skill, priscy would be a millionaire by now for every time she had a way of ensnaring you to make tough decisions. Totally i cant even dare refuse this one. End of discussion.

I nod, “ok ma’am”

She smiles and digs my hair to roughen it.

She chuckles and i stand up to leave and freshen up.

I’m not interested in thinking about Drew right now. What if he doesnt even show up tonight. Just maybe.

The clouds had been covered up with darkness and the moon was already showing itself.

“I dont intend staying for TDB” i inform her

“Me neither” she responds

Once in the outer space of the compound, we branch by the stall to buy popcorn for priscy.

Now that we have gotten to the class room to read...i feel oddly warm.

Others aren’t present 

“Violet wont be present?”

“She’s reading at the basement tonight”

Of course. 

Everything about the statement denotes she’ll be with a guy probably busy groping her parts as usual. I resist the urge to scoff so i just roll my eyes and look away.

My eyes fall on a girl paying attention and trying to eavesdrop at us. What the hell is wrong with this people.

You thought i was going to ask about jayy, whats my business with that jerk.

I dont hate him but his presence simply irritates me.

Priscy’s phone buzzes on the table and she gets up to leave with it.

My mind goes back to his lips on mine. 

I miss the intake of his breath. I flush at the thought of it.

I am snapped from the thought when the door opens which causes me to flinch slightly.

One step...two step....