Chapter 40

Hawaii - maluwa ft the weekend 🎶

The emotions in his eyes are clear to see.

He uses his finger to brush my cheeks gently as he stares at me. I lead my fingers into his hair and brush them ....bring them down to palm his cheek bone.

He tilts his head and rests his face on my palm.

For a split second, i dont want anything else but him.

“Love is fucked up Drew and you know that...yet claim to love me..”

He looks closely into my eyes..

“ marriage and divorce are both hard either ways...financial discipline and self discipline are both hard either ways...life has always been hard...but choosing our hard is left to us. You are worthy of connections that are nourishing, healthy and help you grow. There will always be things to love as long as you stick around to find them”.

 For a split second, it feels like time stops.

His hand reaches to my arm and he rubs it.

The warmth from the contact runs thousands of emotions through me. 

Here i am laying face to face with a live form of the kind of love i have ever hoped for. I love him and i know he totally does. His smile deepens and he kiss my palm that’s resting on his face.

He goes on to tell me about himself....how he’s never let any girl in his family house and how he sees a future in us. I feel awkward to talk about marriage with him because i have a lot more things to be bothered about at the moment. He makes me understand he’s ready to wait for me and put in all the effort in our relationship until i am done with school and ready to settle down. He goes further to inform me how his parents dont want him to end up with a girl from the igbo tribe and his dislikes and likes. Then we swerve over to his moods and how he hates to feel like a burden to anybody so he most likely keeps to himself most of the time.

When he said we’re connected...it appears more real now. There’s a lot of similarities in how we think except for i dont usually carry a sour expression when at dismay. He talks about how he knew i wasn’t interested in the guy i met at the club house that offered a drink. Damn...we’re so similar in every aspects, like we’re both so sensitive to tiny changes in the environment . I love his personality because it is just like i am seeing myself in this guy.

“What’s up with you and Tony?” He drops raising his brows

I chuckle...he still hasnt let it slide

“Nothing much..” i simple answer

He’s not satisfied with my answer and keeps on staring at me

“I figured to pass time with him to clear my head after we fought...we just read at the library and then ...”

“What?!” He gasp intensely

“Chill...” i chuckle

“Renee talk to me...” 

“He took me to one cafeteria and oh gosh...you really need to taste their spaghetti....its more tasty than the one we got at the cafeteria” i tell him

He leans into me and bury his head in my neck heaving out a shaky breath

His hand reaches up to my hair as he strokes it

Since he’s been opening up..he’s yet to talk about Violet and Priscy.

He pulls away and cups my face to look up at him

“Anything you want to let out?” He asks gently

I don’t know if this is the right time to ask but it’s bothering my mind..

I shake my head looking away and try to out up a smile

“Talk...”he pleas

“Violet and priscy..” i half say looking at him

He smirks scornfully...”forget Violet..she’s a bitch..”

I’m not surprised at that..regarding the fact that I’ve seen her do things.

“Priscy...she..we..” he stammers looking away

“We what!?” I ask curiously 

“She wanted FWB...”

“And that is?” He interject anxiously but a larger part of me is hoping he isn’t involved in anything with her...

“Friends with benefit...” he says looking at me to read my expression 

I stay there speechless

“But then...i got to know about Jerry on her birthday...she wouldn’t even tell me and that freaking pissed me off...that’s my i wasnt minding her the day on the morning of the birthday...” 

i remember how something seemed off the day he led me to her room and she informed me about the date thing..

“And that’s it...ever since, i just cut every tie with her...we don’t even talk as before...it’s now weird...but i promise we have nothing between us..” he tells me and closes his eyes

I could see the feeling of regret in him as he opened up and i am glad he did

“Thank you..” i say and pull his face to me then lean in to kiss him lightly

“No...I’m thankful you’re not away from me...” he says keenly

“Now lets get to sleep..” he kisses my temple

I see what he did there...i roll my eyes.

He pulls me to his chest and wraps his arm on the small of my back

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