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2020-10-12 18:23:06When I noticed the page was soaked in blood, I had to stop. I couldn't write any more. My action at that moment was frozen by the sight. My right hand and my ballpoint pen were already covered in blood. I closed my eyes and closed the book first, pushed it under my bed before I got up and then quietly but quickly scurried into the bathroom.
Once there, I frantically washed my hands and my left forearm. Two of the cuts were even deeper than expected. Immediately I went to the closet and packed the basket with bandages under my arm, with, to my room. There I bandaged my forearm. Then I did the same with my right hand.
I needed another cigarette. My body started shaking and obviously seemed to be in withdrawal. I lit a butt and immediately took the first draft. Immediately I felt my racing heartbeat calm down and I buried my bound hand in my pocket.
It was already quite late in the evening. Suddenly my mum was standing in my room. In my life I hadn't expected her anymore and was all the more shocked that she had another look.
"Preston, I just wanted you ... Preston !? What are you doing? Didn't we first talk about smoking at dinner? Why the hell you just don't want to hear? I should have sent you to boot camp ", she cleared her throat visibly upset. So Tesa had caught me in the act as I was still smoking my last, all evening, cigarette at the window.
"Right, Joe said it ..." I said meekly and flicked the cigarette out of the window.
“Preston. I don't want to see you smoke again! Do you understand? “, She came closer and wanted to take the box out of my hand.
"No!" It escaped and buried my box in my pocket. I closed the open window and carelessly ran towards the sofa.
"How, no? Preston, I am your mother. I don't want you to smoke and I'll have another serious word with Joe about your behavior, how we will do it in the future. In any case, it cannot go on like this! Finally get sensible and think about your behavior, Lord God again! With you, that's hardly bearable This selfish and naive act that you have been doing for a long time! I don't understand you anymore And now give me your cigarettes right away! ", She scolded angrily and put her arms on her hips.
"Oh yes ... all these years you have never been interested in what I'm doing or how I'm doing. Now all of a sudden, because Joe wants it, do you care all of a sudden? ”I burst out furiously and ran agitated towards the room door.
“Preston, what's wrong with you? Of course, I care about you. I've been trying to get to you and talk to you for ages. But you're just closing yourself off even more. You don't even let me get close to you! Instead you always run away and do one crap after the other, "she burst out miserably.
I locked myself in the bathroom opposite, and my legs involuntarily gave way under me. So I slid along the door to the floor. Immediately again, unintentionally, tears welled up in my eyes and I tried convulsively to wipe them away and suppress them. Damn what was wrong with me. I'm not going to cry now.
“Preston! Preston, please open the door! ", My mum knocked on the door and continued:" Preston, please. What's wrong with you? Open the door!"
"No. Just leave me alone, ”I gave in control of myself.
"What's going on here, Tess darling?" I heard to make matters worse, including Joe's voice.
"Ah Joe. I just caught Preston smoking. He doesn't want to give me his cigarettes and has locked himself here in the bathroom, ”she explained to him.
I just thought hypocrite and shook my head with a clenched fist.
“Preston. You open this door now, immediately! Do you understand me? Preston? No doors are locked in my house ... If you don't open that door immediately, I'll kick it in and I don't care if you're behind it or not, ”Joe pounded vigorously on the door.
Shocked, I got up from the floor and wiped the tears on my shirt.
“Not Joe. Let him. We'll talk to him again tomorrow, ”I heard Tesa chatter.
"You see, the kid doesn't hear a beat on you," Joe hissed irritably, in front of the door, to my mum.
After a moment of hesitation, I opened the gate and wordlessly pushed the box into Joe's hand.
Joe said with satisfaction and immediately grabbed my arm to keep telling me: “That is not the end of the subject, your upbringing. Do you understand me, Preston! Things will change for you now! You are now under house arrest! "
"Let go of me right now, Joe!" I glared sharply. We looked each other in the eye for a moment.
Fortunately for me, he did what I said and I went back to my room.
I let myself fall on the bed, trembling and confused. More tears made their way inexorably. When at some point there was no more I fell asleep exhausted. After a few hours, I woke up scared again and lay awake in my bed for the rest of the night.
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