LOGINThe sun was shining at fullest. My mom and I, along with my elder sister, were enjoying our breakfast. I found it the best moment to share my plan of starting a business with Kartik. They stopped chewing and raised their eyebrows in a second when I told them about my plan. It was an online business, where I challenged, I will become a millionaire in a few months. My passion paused their breathing and shut their mouth for a while and they allowed me to carry on. It was tough for Nisha to convince her family, as she used to live with her maternal uncle, but somehow, she continued in a hope to stay with me.
We were working day in day out, but even after months, we didn’t become one-tenth of a millionaire. Kartik and I were in an excellent position, but Nisha was at a distance. The negative side of the business drowned her. Some harsh words of seniors pierced every corner of her body. Regular rejections and uncomfortable zone forced her to walk through ignited roads. One day, one of our seniors slammed her in front of us. My eyes enlarged and brows raised high. Three parallel lines of anger were visible on my forehead.
I was full of compassion from deep inside, but losing patience in anger. I wanted to kill that bloody hell, but unfortunately, the rules had bound me. She lost all her moistures and sweat made a thin layer on her face. Her nose was freaking and ears on fire. That scenario gave me a slight view of hell. After getting slammed, she hated our business.
It was mid of August when a new partner joined our business. Tall and smart, confident with words, influencing people with a charming attitude and modern personality. A modern lifestyle impressed me a lot.
Riya. Setting ice on fire. A girl made for the corporate world. Riya Agarwal, a techy, straight from Bangalore (A City in Karnataka, India), leaving her family behind in Kolkata. She was perusing her B. Tech in IT from one of the most famous engineering colleges of Bangalore, where people love coding more than writing love letters.
She was doing outstanding work alone in Bangalore. Her performance was extraordinary. Her entrance changed the perspective of business for Nisha. The more we admired Riya for her performance, the more Nisha hated me and the business. As you know, the same milk which provides strength to many give acidities to some. Choosing our business became the worst thing for Nisha. It became a wrong decision of her life.
Her struggles made her tough to breathe. On the other side, Riya was doing outstanding. We didn’t get time to talk from morning to evening, as she was busy in college, so we used to have a long discussion at night My long night-calls with Riya was helping her to expand our business with ease. We used to talk for hours and hours after her college ended, which was spreading poison in my relationship.
Our business in Bangalore was going fine. It was a time when Riya needed our support. So, the management chose me to visit for a few days and help Riya and her team.
Nisha was completely in grief when she got to know I was about to visit Bangalore for a week. My news of separation made her face dull. Her voice fainted on calls and tears dropped from her bright eyes. Every drop of her tears was as valuable as my blood. Her silent cry left my heart bleed as if someone dragged a sharp knife on my chest. Maybe it was god’s plan because never in my entire life I imagined, to be apart from my Dilpari for so long. Distance, purpose, time, and place nothing bothered her, only a girl waiting there, hit her hard.
If I knew I had to leave my sweetheart for a week, I would never have accepted Riya as a business partner. I don’t know whether it happens in genuine love or I was getting emotional. Being in her arms, I cried like hell for a few hours before I had my train. I don’t know what were the positions of planets when I stepped in train. Things changed in seconds. I am still paying the price of that journey. A journey which took my life to a different world.
Next day, I was in Bangalore. With big dreams, a bigger plan, and the biggest ambition. It was around 3 am when I reached the station. I was breathing faster as it was my first inter-state journey, which I traveled alone. Never in my life, I went so far alone. I was roaming here and there trying to witness entire station at once. Half slept faces were all around and I was jumping in my mind while gazing the surrounding. Every little thing surprised me a lot. I enjoyed the beauty of the station for almost two hours.
“Welcome to Bangalore.”
Riya appeared from somewhere when I was busy with my mobile, scrolling Facebook. She welcomed me with a beautiful smile on her face and a fire in her soul. I was astonished to witness her from my bare eyes. She was five feet and six inches tall with sharp eyes aiming like an eagle. Her Straight forward attitude dominated me from her first word she uttered.
She was in a skin fitting sky-blue jeans and a purple color top, dressed with a purpose to snatch my attention. I found all the stars twinkling in the dawn except the one who was shining in front of me. I loved everything about Bangalore when I stepped for the first time.
Going out of Bengal was my dream as I went only to Bihar and Jharkhand (States in India famous for holy places) for worshiping. With fire in my eyes, excited to work in a new atmosphere with new people and with a familiar stranger, Riya. I followed her in a way a monk follows his master.
She made sure our journey won’t trouble me anymore. We waited a while for the bus. We left one bus as it was crowded and took the second. She stepped in first, took a window seat, and shifted towards the window. They had made the seats for two people and the way she shifted towards extreme right and made space for me, I was helpless to choose another option. I was not comfortable sitting with her but I couldn’t reject her offer.
I lost in thinking many times in Kolkata, I sit beside a female passenger or vice versa. It was normal and completely fair with Nisha. So, it’s no harm to sit with her, together. I adjusted and squeezed myself as much as possible to avoid touching her. I kept pushing myself to the extreme left.
Every time our legs came in contact, I shifted it. She noticed my uncomfortable behavior but remained as she was. Chilled air from the window was fluttering her hair on my face. Though I was not comfortable, her hair blowing with wind, was giving a certain pleasure. I enjoyed it. She adjusted her hair, when she noticed, and her face apologized with a smile. I gave a smile back. Most of the time, she didn’t notice, and I enjoyed a beautiful moment. I don’t know whether she really didn’t notice, or she too enjoyed it. But it was destroying my hesitation and filling my journey with pleasure.
When a boy says he wants to go away from relationship, try to stop him. He might stay.But when a girl says she wants to go away from relationship, don’t try to stop her because she has already gone from her mind even before telling.Pearls in love is tough to findAs you know some love is blind.Dealing with damage like beggars without choiceGiving my story a sweet, broken voice.Promises of life burnt in fireTogether we stay, I still desire.Once in life you too will flyI wish we meet above the sky.As a writer, the only thing I tryReading my story, I hope you cry.I will succeed as I am wiseIf I bring tears to your eyes.Pleasure of life left with mysteryWriting my journey, the rest will be history.Dedicated to my school-life girlfriend who left me alive to die every moment
Who knew, seeing her in that railway station would be our last meet. Who knew, wiping her tears would be the last chance to show my care. Who knew, the crave to see her in that blue lehenga will remain unfulfilled. Who knew, whispering of her wish in that bus ride of getting man and woman next year will just remain a sweet wish. I wish I knew, tears will leave her eyes and stuck to mine forever. I wish I knew, the one who gave hopes in life will shatter so brutally. I wish I knew, the crave to hug her in that railway station will never get fulfilled. I wish I knew, I had to weave our dreams alone forever. I wish I knew, she will take away all my happiness and leave my body with a deep wound forever. I wish I knew, my dreams of being with her forever will end up being with her wounds. I wished lots of things.Kartik and Ankit tried a lot to convince her, but they were futile. So, they ended up confronting me with a shoulder full of sympathy. I came home early from the ba
7th June 2019.The sun was not the same when I woke up early. Morning tasted different to me. It didn’t warm me any more like before. It was not as bright as before. It was ten long days we remained with no proper conversation. It happened for the first time in the history of our ten incredible long years of relationship. I tried to keep aside these thoughts for a while and attended our morning meeting of our boring bank manager.I was helpless. I was self-obsessed with these thoughts till our bank manager finished his monotonous speech. And the moment it went over, I pushed the door and came out of his cabin. I distanced myself from the bank and called Sunita, Nisha’s female cousin, who was here in Kolkata. She knew everything about our relationship. She was the only person in her family who knew a lot of stuffs about us. She was less a sister and more a friend of mine. I called her twice but both times she disconnected. My mind encircled wit
I shared our concern with our close friends including Ankit, Kartik, and they were ready to sign the court papers. We needed minimum three witnesses to get registered in court. So, I arranged them and ordered to be present with no delay, whenever I call. They were obedient and desperately wanted to accept us together forever.It was early morning when I received a text from Nisha about reaching her village with no hurdle. I thanked god when she reached safe. I was worried how would she travel such a long journey in such a worse condition. What if she gets some ache? Lots of questions ran in my mind, which faded away by her text.It was over three weeks, we hadn’t met. I missed her the entire day. I described what was going on in my mind. How much I was worried about her. I texted her in WhatsApp. At night, I waited for her text badly. I described every twist and turn off my bed. Everything which came across, from missing her to worrying about her, I t
My blood was boiling, and I was sweating with anger. Every time, I fought a new battle in my mind. Every day I had to face new challenges in my life. Challenges which broke me out and built me up together. And when I asked her, after coming out of the manager’s cabin. Nisha burst out crying on call. In deep pain, she said.“I don’t want to attend my cousin’s marriage. So, I intentionally slid off the ladder of computer class. But unfortunately, it hit me hard on my leg and it’s paining like hell. You please come fast. I couldn’t walk.”Her words pressed into my chest with a ton of loads. My heart was full of sorrow and my mind full of anger. Squeezing my brows, I told to myself, “Idiot girl. What nonsense you did.”I pushed the door hard to step in the bank and took my wallet from my half-opened chain and threw my bag to a corner. I rushed towards Nisha. She was waiting in a railway station, near
April 2019.It was 11th day of the month. I celebrated my birthday in despair with wet eyes. I spent my entire day in the bank and they were oblivious to my birthday. I didn’t prefer to inform them to get special treatment. Nisha called and wished me half-heartedly. It was not as adorable as before. I knew things were not the same. There was a time when she was more excited about my birthday than I was. And then came a time, she didn’t even say to meet. I was of twenty-five so, I behaved like a gentleman, mature and smart enough to tackle with tears. Her wish was enough for me. At least, she gave me a chance to be with her and it was enough at that time. I kept myself happy whenever she used to hurt me by remembering her second chance.Past three years were not much good for me. She never missed a single chance to tease and taunt me. She always criticized me for every little thing. She used to connect everything with my past and slammed