I'm So Sorry

Original me - Yungblud ft Dan Reynolds

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I stared at the message from Finneas one more time and turned off my phone. Skipping school was getting kind of numb to me but it was the only option I had to get myself together. It was almost 1AM. I glanced over at Leroy and sighed. It was all my fault he was in pain. He looked so pale and thin and I saw his chest rise slowly and fogs filled the oxygen mask on his face. My hands slid down the glass and I dipped them in my pocket.

"I'm doing this for your own good. I'm protecting all of you. Tell God in heaven not to hate me okay?" I whispered and snorted. I doubt he'll ever forgive me for all I have done. I dropped my phone in my pocket and left the hospital. There was an underground alley next to the street of the hospital and it was empty. I dropped my bag on the floor and changed quickly into a black skinny jeans and black long sleeved turtle neck shirt. I put on my black socks and flats. I put my hair in a tight ponytail and wore a black bob wig over my hair. I had fake brown contacts on already and dipped my changed clothes into my bag.

I went to the bus stop and bought a ticket. The bus was empty thankfully and I made my way to the back, staring out of the frosted window. The bus stopped at the beginning of the street and I got down and searched for the house. I found the house eventually and gasped. I expected a huge mansion but what I saw was a one-storey building. For a rich man, he sure did live simple. I tiptoed to the window of the house and peeked through the open window. The house looked empty and dark. I climbed the window with ease and slipped inside. I fell on the tiled floor in a soft thud and made my way to the living room. I observed the living room and smiled sadly at the family photos. I was about to destroy their happiness.

I went up the stairs and tried every door I saw. Their kids were safely asleep. I finally found the master bedroom and and opened it slowly. There on the bed, was his pregnant wife. She laid safely on the bed, not aware of the danger she was in. I got in quietly and found the laptop on a reading table. She was snoring really loud and that eased my heart a little so I put on the laptop and put in the password Kai gave me. It worked and I reduced the brightness. I transferred the money I was ordered to transfer and it went successfully.

"Who are you?" A shaky voice asked and a lump formed on my throat. I shut the laptop quickly and turned around to face the awake pregnant woman holding a bat. I eyed the bat carefully and gave her a smirk.

"Put the bat down." I ordered and she still held it tightly, her hands shaking and her heavy breathing got louder.

"You better tell me who the hell you are and what you broke into my house for before I call my husband," she ordered and I rolled my eyes purposely at her. I brought out the gun from my pocket and pointed it straight to her. I shook my head in a smirk and walked cover to her slowly.

"Don't come any further. I mean it," she said and I chuckled dryly.

"Look I don't wanna hurt you. But if you try anything stupid, I won't hesitate to kill your unborn baby and maybe kill you." I told her codly and tears fell from my eyes and she dropped the hockey stick on the ground without making any noise. I smiled sadly at her.

"I'm just gonna leave, my mission is completed. Look, I didn't sign for this. I'm also in a tight condition as you are." I told her and picked my bag, slinging it over my shoulder. "I'm sorry." I pulled the trigger and my heart slightly dropped when it didn't make a noise. Silencer. I watched as she gripped her chest and slummed to the ground, gasping for air. My lips trembled as I regretted what I did. She didn't deserve this. Mom didn't deserve me. No one deserved me.

"I'm so sorry." I whispered and gave her a look one more time before leaving. Just as I was about to leave the house in darkness, a light flashed on my face and I squinted my eyes to see it was a car. My eyes widened in fear as the car stopped moving and a man in suit came out.

"Hey you! Stop there," he called when I turned and kept on walking in a fast pace, gripping my bag tightly. "I just wanna know what the hell you were doing in my house," he said, his footsteps getting closer and I knew he was really determined to come after me so I ran. I ran passed blocks into another empty street and only our footsteps were heard. I used my whole strength to push myself forward, breathing heavily as fogs cane out of my nose and mouth. A busy street appeared and I used that to my advantage to get missed up with the crowd. People stared at me like I was crazy as I ran like my life depended on it. Just as I was about to cross another lonely street, a hand pulled me and clamped my mouth and I fought for freedom and air.

"Shut the fuck up and get in." Kai ordered and pushed me into a black car. He got into the driver's seat quickly and drove away like a mad man. I stared through the side mirror as the man yelled and cussed profanities while pulling his hair.

"I gave you one job! Just one job to do right and you mess it up!" He yelled and I pulled off the wig and held my face in my arms. I should have let him catch me. I should have been in prison by now. But no! All I do is run and run away from the truth. The picture of the woman I killed staring at me with dead eyes flashed through my eyes.

"Fuck." I muttered and gripped my hair as a sob threatened to slip through my lips. I'm so sorry mom. I'm sorry Jack. I'm sorry Leroy. I'm so sorry. I didn't mean to do it.

"Did you kill her?" Kai asked. I'm sorry everyone. It wasn't my fault, I didn't have a choice. I'm so sorry.

"I asked you a damn question! Did you kill her?" He asked, hitting his hand on the stirring wheel.

"Yes! I did it okay! I killed an innocent pregnant woman!" I yelled in tears and my heart ached when he rolled his eyes. I leaned back on the seat, refusing to shut my eyes close as I kept staring at the woman. She didn't deserve this.

Soon, he stopped in front of my house and I motioned to unlock the door.

"Look, what happened tonight shouldn't repeat itself. Come over at the warehouse next week. I need this story to die down first," he announced and I nodded and got out of his car. I got inside and thankfully, Jack was asleep. I scrubbed off the sin I had committed in the shower and laid on my bed with heavy eyelids but I refused to sleep. Not when the dead woman kept staring back at me.

"I'm sorry."

Hey everyone!

So I kind of wrote this yesterday in a depressed mood and I hope you like it

My phone's got issues and my laptop too.

So frustrating!

Well, I hope you comment and vote for this book.

I love you all 🖤🖤🖤