Maybe Existing Wasn't The Best Idea

Maniac - Conan Gray

"I'm Patricia Abels and I'm here for Leroy Smith." I told the nurse with my hands on the counter. She looked at me wearily and if not for the situation at hand, I would have rolled my eyes.

"Are you related to the patient?" She asked and I bit my lower lip in utmost-defeat.

"I'm his best friend. Please you gotta let me through, I need to see him." I pleaded, my eyes watery and her face softened.

"Trauma ward. Fourth floor," she told me and I nodded and ran to the elevator. I waited patiently, even with the annoying elevator music till if got to the fourth floor. I searched for the trauma ward and my pace came to a halt when I found Mrs Smith waiting in front of the transparent room.

"You," her eyes met mine and my eyes widened in fear. "What are you doing here you bad luck for a child?" She asked. I ignored her and faced the room. Doctors were surrounding Leroy who seemed to be groaning in pain.

"Leroy." I called out as tears fell from my eyes. I felt a stinging sensation on my left cheek and I turned, wide eyed to face a fuming Mrs Smith.

"You're never welcome here. You didn't succeed in killing my son and you won't any longer. Now leave this place before I do something we'll both regret," she ordered and my lips trembled. My chest felt heavy as my breathing became raged.

"I just came here to see Leroy. I didn't come here for you. I don't even know what I ever did to you." I told her and she gave me a dry chuckle.

"I'm not the only one who hates you in this town. Everyone does. You wanna know why? Because you're ugly. You're a curse and I wouldn't want my child to associate with you." She told me the truth and it hurt me to the core. I nodded and wiped my tears. She was right. Leroy was too good for me. I was an ugly murderer. If it wasn't for me, Leroy wouldn't have ended up here. Everything was my fault. I made up my mind to go see Kai. I could be useful to the people I love without them knowing. I was gonna do this for their protection. It's the least I can do for killing mom.

I left the hospital and headed straight to the bus stop to board a taxi. I showed him the address and he took me there. He stopped in front of a small house which was facing a huge warehouse and I new that was where I was supposed to be. I paid him off and walked across the street. I glanced around to see men with guns and I summoned courage and got closer.

"Stand down kid," one of the guards pointed a gun to my face and I raised my arms in surrender.

"I'm here to see Kai." I told him, my expression emotionless and he glared at me and brought out a phone to make a call. He brought down the phone and nodded at me to follow another guy next to him. I followed him through the building, my hands still in surrender as another man pointed a gun at my back. We got into an elevator that took us to the top floor of the building. I got in to see Kai with a bottle of whiskey in his hand and a smile on his face. The face I hated so much.

"Kai." I called his name with every hatred I had in me and his smile increased.

"Edana! My sweet lovely girl. Good to see you again," he cheered and I clenched my fist and brought my hands down. I really had to stop myself from pouncing on him and wiping the smile off his face.

"I'm sorry for what I did to your skinny friend. He sure didn't deserve whatever happened to him. It was all your fault you know," he said and I clenched my jaw and ignored what he said.

"I'm here for the first mission." I told him and a glint of pride flashed through his eyes.

"I'm so glad you know the right thing to do now," he said and motioned for me to come closer which I did. He slid an envelope on the table close to me and I picked it up. "In that envelope is the address of the man's family house. His password is in there too. All you have to do is break into their house, scare the family, transfer the money in his account to mine. His pin and everything you need is in there. You have to do it before he returns." He explained and I nodded.

"That's all?" I asked and he smirked and shook his head no.

"You have to kill his pregnant wife." He told me and my heart skipped. This was not the life I wanted. I didn't want to kill innocent people to protect people.

"I'm not doing it," I told him and he raised an eyebrow and chuckled. He pointed a gun to me and frowned.

"It looks like what I did to Leroy didn't teach you enough. It's an order not a request. The mission must be complete before 6AM the day after tomorrow. You can't ditch me Edana. I'll kill everyone you know." His voice was low and I nodded in fear. The hairs on my body had risen and I could hear my heart pounding in my ears.

"The gun you'll need is in the envelope. You may leave," he told me and I left immediately with his bodyguards hot on my trail. I got up and prepared for the match tonight with a lump in my throat. How the hell was I going to rob a rich man's family and kill his pregnant wife? Maybe existing was not a good idea. I just wished mom never picked me the day she found me. I wished she left me to die.

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