로그인"Good morning everyone, I trust the reports have been turned in, I hope you loved Egypt history because the next report submission will be centered on the French revolution" the whole class groaned, I just rolled my eyes, typical Mr. Talin, history lecturer, I think he taught just to torture students, this wasn't part of our syllabus, he just enjoyed zapping the lives out of us.
"Oh there there, that's enough, from french we shall study more advanced areas of this world from the root, don't bother my class, don't pretend like you don't understand and please don't bother me with whatever you don't understand, I have better classes to attend to, understand?, Nice let's begin" are you freaking kidding me?, He didn't even wait for our opinions?, What happened to our fudging rights?.
"I have an introduction for you for your reports, reviews or whatever you call it.
The French Revolution challenged political, social and cultural norms in European society. Politically, the governmental structure of the Revolution moved from an absolute monarchy to a constitutional monarchy to a republic and finally to an oligarchy. At each stage, the question of who should hold political power was further refined. The Revolution also undercut the traditional social hierarchy of France, by reducing the privileges of the First (clergy) and Second (nobility) Estates. The Revolution had a dramatic cultural impact in terms of building nationalism, I don't know what any of this means but I implore you to find out, we'll be writing a test about this, my time is up, goodbye" Mr Talin waved at us as he walked out with his coffee.
I was confused, one second I had history, one second I didn't, I guess I was the only one who could keep my confusion to myself.
"What the fuck just happened?", The girl sitting in front of me said, I'm sure she didn't know she said that out loud as the class erupted in laughter, she blushed while gathering her books and bag to leave for the next class.
We piled out of the class just walking around aimlessly, I leaned against the wall, guessing who this was, who that was, pretending one of them would be a celebrity that would make the students go crazy.
I wondered when the thrill would end, the feeling whenever I walked around never got old, the walls even looked fascinating, college was killing me but I loved every bit of it, especially the people, everyone was so nice, nobody really cared about anything, living was day by day over here.
Yesterday was forgotten, today was treasured but tomorrow was left unknown.
"Hey" A voice said directly into my ear drums.
I jumped from the closeness of this stranger, doesn't anyone understand personal space.
"Uhm hi, how can I help" I said with my brows knitted in annoyance.
"Oh nothing, I was just walking with my guys and I decided to stop by, you look lonely by yourself over here, why don't you walk with me, I can show you around, I'm in my second year" I looked at this stranger with a blank stare.
Cute eyes, curly hair, pearly white teeth, tall, broad, huge, dimples...... Typical player, it was written all over his big forehead.
"Is there something on my face beautiful" he flexed his burly arms with a smirk.
"Honestly no, thanks for the offer but I'm good" I gave him a thumbs up.
"You'd rather stare around when you could walk with me, I'm Tyler Jones, I know you're a freshman but honestly I can help you if you help me" oh boy asides being an obvious player, he was a proud annoying brat, Jesus why me?
"Listen taylor swift, i honestly dont want to go with you, whether you can help me or not is very debatable, I'm very fine just watching the day go by with my back against this wall, thanks for your offer but I'll pass"
"Listen bitch, i rule this school and I'll ruin you, don't test me" his face was beet red as his true nature began to unfold, he looked too funny i couldn't help but laugh.
"What's so funny bitch"
"The fact that i was beautiful a while back but now im a bitch and then you think this is still high school, going around on your white horse pretending to be valuable, in case you didn't get the memo, we dont go to prom in college so hunny everything coming out of your mouth is bull so please leave me alone" i said with a smirk now present on my face.
I thought he was going to explode right in front of me still my smirk didn't waver, I guess he was resulting down to violence cause he ran at me fists raised, i couldn't take him on so i braced myself for impact.
But it never came
I scrunched up my brows in confusion and anger, this boy was playing with me, feeding off my fear, with anger as my new courage, I opened my eyes and boy oh boy was i surprised.
Little player boy was on the floor nursing a bloody nose with cherry towering over him, what could this midget have done, immediately panic filled me, i rushed towards them while shielding her small form with mine.
I was scared to my bones but i wouldn't let them touch cherry, not while i was alive hehe I was about to die anyway.
Player boy scrambled to his feet, his eyes were staring right past me, it wasn't his eyes that made my skin crawl, it was the fear in them, i was going to pass out if any other person showed up.
"Mis-s c-herr-y, I did-n't see you the-re" he stuttered, his stance rigid, miss cherry?, Who?
"Tyler, you are really starting to piss me off, i give you everything but this one thing, my one rule, you just can't obey, you DARE TOUCH WHAT'S MINE" oh boy, i was trembling now, i didn't know this person in front of me, this wasn't my cherry, hers?.
"Miss cherry please understand, i didn't know, please forgive me" I've never seen a man cry but right now, right here i think i was about to witness history.
"Tyler, you know the rules" cherry said
"No no cherry please, I'll never do i-"
"Tsk tsk tsk, why should i forgive you?" Cherry said with her gaze trained solely on him, this was really beginning to irritate me.
"Cherry" I called out softly, her eyes met mine, a chill ran down my spine, i couldn't be having these thoughts right now but her eyes were really pretty, she had a knowing smirk on her face causing mine to heat up.
"Yes love" she said with her present smirk.
"Let him go cherry, he didn't mean it, I don't understand why he's kneeling here begging for mercy, you're just cherry berry, are you blackmailing him or something?" i asked, watching player boy shake in his boots.
"You can go Tyler, last chance, mine tyler, remember what's mine next time" cherry glared at him as she emphasized each word, mine? Oh he stole something from her, dumb player boy.
"Yes miss cherry" player boy said as he scurried away.
"Why does he call you miss cherry?" My brows were knitted in confusion as my eyes followed player boys hurried steps down the hall.
"He works for me" cherry said casually, i looked at her like she has three heads.
"Why would Taylor swift be working for you" i said as cherry laughed.
"Tyler and yes he does work for me, his father ran into a huge debt some years ago, i paid it in full, in exchange for Tyler over here, hes quite smart when hes not being a child"
I stared at her for a couple of seconds filtering her words through my head, debt?, Is this girl Kidding me?.
"No partner I'm not"
Shit did I say that out loud
"Yes you did" cherry giggled, "my full name is Brianna Cherry Malnov, i'm sure even a crazy person like you has heard of my family"
My eyes widened, NO FUDGING WAY, SHE DID NOT SAY MALNOV, I didn't know if i was having a mental breakdown but a Malnov was standing in front of me.
I thought i was going to pass out, my breaths were ragged as I stared at this human, i was going to have a happy panic attack right here.
"Hey hey hey, stay with me, focus on my voice" she held my face in her small palms and my heart beat accelerated, A MALNOV WAS TOUCHING ME, my heart went out of control, i was going to die, my heart was going to burst from the inside out.
Adieu world
She kept touching my face, her lips were moving but i couldn't hear anything above the ringing in my ears.
All of a sudden the world stopped, my raging heart even skipped a few beats, it took my brain a while to adjust to the present.
Soft lips
That was all i felt
Soft lips parted mine, I couldn't feel anything except her lips on mine, like a drug she reeled me in, like an addict I became addicted to everything about her, she kissed me like she was afraid to even touch me.
She?
She?
On cue i froze, she was a she, God have mercy
Suddenly her kiss became the furthest thing from my mind.
She was a girl
I kissed a girl.
I was so shocked, my feelings became clearer, what i felt for her suddenly smacked me in the face, I'd never been this terrified in my life.
My life was ruined
How could this happen?
I couldn't even explain it to myself then how can i understand it?
"Fuck i'm sorry, don't freak out please, you weren't calming down and i just had to, I didn't want to kiss you under these circumstances but i just ha-"
I jumped up interrupting her mid sentence
"Hey hey calm down" she reached out to take my hands but I jumped away from her.
I could see hurt mix up with the pretty blue eyes i've grown to love but all I wanted to do flee
I picked my bag that had dropped during my panic attack, gently pushing cherry out of my path as I began to walk far far away from her.
"Kat please, do anything, just don't walk away, don't do this to me please"
I kept walking
"KAT PLEASE, DON'T GO"
I kept walking
Walking turned to jogging, jogging turned into a full blown marathon.
I just had to get away from her
Anywhere was safe as long as she wasn't there.
Anywhere wasn't safe without her there.
Anywhere wasn't safe for me anymore.
Classes had resumed full swing, I had little or no time for myself, the lecturers were brutal, if this was meant to be a dog fight, I would go back to my room in rags every day.Needless to say, this week wasn’t my week, devils time of the month had caught up to me then add to it this stress, I was beyond livid, I smiled for a certain amount of time each day, I never exceeded it, sometimes I just didn’t you know… smile.We were pushed to our limits every day, some days I didn't want to wake up, or think about the stress of the day, I felt I had no purpose in life when I did, I would dive straight into bed to wake up five minutes after.The cruelty of the world was no joke, couldn’t time slow the fuck down?I looked like a homeless person who got bitten by a zombie, my life held no spontaneous acts, I was trying to keep up with classes as it was, I couldn&rsq
Sitting in my low budget hotel room with my multi-millionaire girlfriend felt surreal, I stayed quiet while she animated her argument, using her hands, she exaggerated her point, one hundred and one reasons why she couldn’t make it yesterday.Listening to cherry’s excuses, doubt slowly crept into my heart, enveloped my mind and seized my body, there was so many excuses I doubted she knew she wasn’t keeping up.One went into another again and again, it began to sound like sweet lies, the tune perfectly played, I was beyond swayed, beyond saving.“Why are you lying to me?”With a shocked expression, she argued “Kat you know I've never lied to you amore mio, why would you think that?”“Where were you when I kept calling?”“I was at work, I couldn’t escape, I tried to cal-”“Bullshit
This scene felt all too familiar, staring at this unattractive ceiling, laying on this cold bed, surfing through the memories zooming in and out of my head, I retraced every road, redrew every line, unsaid every word but I was still in this plain room, I couldn’t retrace that.I woke up to my new reality, my chosen path, how did I feel? Thrilled but scared, what would I do? Live life as I wanted now, with who I wanted and how I desired to.I decided to call my mom later in the day, maybe she would want to meet up to hear me out, she would hear me out right? I might want to be free, desire to be loved and ready to be known but my family still is and would always be my family.The neighborhood was quiet and business like, no birds chirping, no neighbor screaming, I missed the little things but I wanted to be who I was, to live freely not as a FAG but as a person.I'd come a long way, fought so many battles,
The sendoff email was still fresh in my mail box when I hauled my ass to the bus station, cherry whined for thirty minutes before she let me go, some kisses half way in and I was fueled for the days ahead.My mom wanted to pick me up, I would have liked that but I tore off my freshmen skin for something, I needed to stay true to the pact I made, freshmen before, freshmen never again.I was sitting in a bus with an old man’s head on my shoulder listening to the melodic tunes of his snores, things we do for our promises.I stared out through the window as I listened to music, I enjoyed the view anytime I traveled or went on a road trip, I was a sucker for them.I chatted back and forth with cherry, rejected a video call because I didn’t trust her not to tease me, I needed a clear head and underwear for this journey no matter how much I loved her.The journey was over before I cou
The following week had me in a daze, I was just grateful we had a free week, our exams were over, we just had to party our freshmen skins off, tradition they said.I spent most of my time with cherry, I had basically moved in with her, I called it getting our lost moments back, cherry went out of her way all week, she spoilt me rotten, I did love the attention but money coming from her felt wrong.I loved her either way but I didn’t want her to think I wanted her money or feel obliged to buy me stuff, I made it a rule, if it wasn’t important don’t buy it, if it wasn’t needed don’t get it, in return if she did buy it I couldn’t whine about the price, we went back and forth, throwing rules, countering others.The more time I spent with cherry the less I did Ray and Asher, she didn’t like him and she made it known, she extended the dislike to Asher, she was just that petty.I tried several times in several ways t
I went back to ignoring cherry, avoiding her at every turn, I started hanging out with Ray more, he had a girlfriend now, her name was Asher, we called her archer just to get under her skin, she was really cute, dark skinned, short and crazy.They always hinted on a triad but my heart was elsewhere.I could feel Cherry's eyes everywhere I went, see who the stalker was now.She kept sending me messages, some sweet, some needy, she woke me up with romantic texts, left loving voicemails, tried to talk to me every day, I was flattered really but I didn’t need all the physical assurances, she broke our emotional bridge, no amount of flowers or chocolates could fix that.I went back to my former routine, classes, if I wanted to attend them, cafeteria, library, walk around campus, Ray’s room or mine.We had fun most times, we either talked about anime or played video games, I always won though, what c