Promises

The session was in full swing by Monday, different people, different moods with the same agenda.

We all roamed the halls either going for a class, coming out of one or neither of them.

I wasn't cut out for this sort of lifestyle, I think my brain was just waiting for the right moment to jump out and wave my ass gooodbye.

I was hot all over and no it's not the sexy kind of hot you perv, it was the sticky irritating kind of hot, the one that made you angry for no reason.

I stormed my way to my dorm room, college wasn't living up to my expectations in any way at all.

If anything it just got so fudging harder than high school then why was I rushing to graduate?.

I kept mumbling curses under my breath as I took a much needed shower, I didn't even flinch as the cold water rained down on me, It was cooling me off, I'm sure I was seconds away from detonation.

We had a free period today, the lecturer had to run off on an emergency, leaving me happy at first till we all had to draft out an article on the Egyptians following the time frame of 3150BC till now, freaking awesome first day.

My bed was begging and crawling on its knees for me to just lay down but I rejected the offer and faced some assignments instead.

I spent hours upon hours researching, reading, redirecting, copying and pasting, proofreading before I finally had a tangible script, I wasnt done but at least I had started.

The day just kept getting better and better, I mean I had another class to get to right now.

I ran like a maniac through the halls screaming sorrys (honestly I'm still skeptical about this word but research says it's acceptable so you all can use it in writing but not in speeches)

Finally, I missed the class, before I could shuffle in with the rest of the students, she slammed the door in my face, literally I was the only one left and she still didn't let me in.

I think I looked like a dragon the way I kept breathing in and out, the only thing missing was just the smoke, you know for added effect.

I walked back to my dorm room AGAIN, this time more agitated than before, even a shower wouldn't be able to calm this storm inside me.

I cleaned my room twice, brought down my clothes then rearranged them, cleaned out my table, threw out the unneeded, after 2 hours of cleaning I had worked my frustrations out.

Remember the day we found each other

My ringtone rung out, I glanced briefly at the screen before I tapped the accept button.

"Hey Mom"

"Hey baby, you sound really tired, how are you?, You aren't over stressing it are you?, Just breathe through it, college isn't that hard" Right mom!!, college isn't hard, could've fooled me twice.

"Sure Mom, I'm just taking college by the horns, it isn't that hard actually, just some classes I couldn't make it to"

"No slacking hun, you should be in every class at every given time, remember you aren't leaving college without giving it your best and your best is better than everyone else's, you need to be at your best all the time, no failures, not one bit, you aren't permitted to do that"

"Yes Mom no slacking, no failures, my best Everytime all the time got it, I won't let you down"

"That's a big promise"

"I know mom, I intend to keep it" I reassured her.

"Well then, I was just calling to check up on you, see how you were doing"

"I'm fine mom, just getting it right"

"Any new friends?" I heard the emphasis on *new friends*

"No mom, no *new friends*" I said which made her laugh.

"I didn't mean to pry love, I just want you to be fine and I need you to know what you want, who you want and when it's right to want them, youre still very young, you should walked back on some things love"

"For example, boys, right mom?" I asked, my voice was serious but I'm sure she could hear the sacarsm.

"Haha very funny ren, just stay away from bad influences hun, any other thing you want to tell me?"

For a moment cherry popped into my head, my heart was beating so fast I wondered if my mom could hear it, she was my confidant, she would understand right?, This dizzy feeling Everytime I was around her or the need to put stars in her eyes.

"Honey are you still there?, What's bothering you?" I zoned back into the conversation.

"Nothing mom just my usual head space, I forgot you were still here"

"Alright hunny, I have to go, take care of yourself and be the best, remember ren nothing but the best"

"Yes Mom, bye, love you" I said blowing her a kiss

"Bye hun"

And dead went the line.

Now I was beyond bored, i had no other class for the day, the assignments of the classes i didn't get to attend were sent to my mail.

Another hour of reading, surfing the internet and pretending I was Einstein, my brain had had enough.

I laid sprawled out on my bed as the time flew by, i never knew just laying down could be this peaceful.

I picked up my phone and put passengers album on repeat, it was just what i needed to end the day, slowly i drifted off to the lands beyond.

**********

A week had passed and I had made up my mind, i would never judge a drop out in my life, cause right now i wanted to be one.

I studied and studied and i had finally caught on with some of my courses, not easy i tell you.

It was really a drag reading all day but i had to just bear it for now till i stabilized or found a balance.

I was just lazy walking through the halls, I didn't want to turn in yet.

It had been a while since i saw cherry, she popped into my mind here and there, never staying long but never straying too far away either.

I missed her

My heart didn't beat twice as hard as before when I thought of her or heard her name.

"I guess you've gotten better huhh, no funny business" I said as i patted my chest

"I knew you were crazy, I still wanted to be your friend though" speak of the devil and she shall appear, I wasn't scared this time, I'm sure my smile could cut a cake in two, I'm sure I looked like an idiot standing there, grinning like a fool.

"Hey berry" i said then the weirdest thing happened, cherry blushed, my heart picked up speed, I thought i would pass out, I'd never seen anyone beautifuler, if that was a word then that was the best thing to describe her with, she was beautifuler.

"Uhhmm i don't know if you got uncomfortable the other day, I'm sorry really, I'm usually conscious of my surroundings, i would have respected your space, i wouldn't have just walk-"

"Ok Mr. flash before you start speaking in tongues, i wasn't uncomfortable, in fact let's just keep what i felt in a tiny little box" she said cutting off my rambling.

I tilted my head like a confused puppy, "Feelings?, What did you feel?, But you just said you weren't uncomfortable, so what other feel-" the rest of my words were muffled by her little palm.

"Really partner, who would know you talked this much, you don't want to know what my thoughts were about, Trust me, you aren't ready"

I still tried to speak, it only made it worse, I sounded like an angry dog, at least it was funny to cherry, she found pleasure in torturing me so i did what anyone would, I licked her palm.

She stared at her palm with her brows scrunched up like she didn't understand what had just happened.

"Did you lick my palm?" She asked as she looked at it with astonishment.

Ok this girl was weird, I was expecting some "ewwwws" or "yuck" not awe.

"Yes I did" i said, speak slowly so she would hear me.

"Don't do that again"

"What?" I looked at her confused

"I said, don't lick my hand again, please trust me, just don't" she said seriously, her blue eyes were darker than normal, they bore into my dull brown orbs with intensity.

Something about this stare, something about the look in her eyes had me wanting the danger i could sense hitting me from all angles.

"What If i want to?" Her palm had dropped during our little staring contest so my voice came out strong, I knew i was pushing it but i didn't care.

This feeling was too much for me to handle, i didn't get it, I didn't understand it one bit but I knew i had never felt this way before not even with Tristan.

My heart was always sick around her, always wanting, this had to count right?, Something big was at play here, I was sure of it"

"Don't push me Katya, don't dip your legs into what you can't handle partner"

I was so frustrated, why wouldn't she just make me understand what i was feeling, I folded my hands and pouted like a child.

"Awwwhh, come on, I'm sorry really, I just think you aren't ready, i promise I'll always be here, anytime, anyway, anywhere, promise you'll be here too" she said holding out her pinky.

I smiled, this looked so familiar, I lock mine with hers "promise".

The day kicked off from there, we roamed the halls, sorry, cherry roamed the halls like a kid on Christmas, it was like she didn't walk through them to get to her classes.

I shook my head as i followed behind, she was pretty popular, I could understand, really, her energy was contagious, people waved or stopped for a little chitchat, I was a social bird but honestly i didn't think i could light a candle next to her.

We walked around for a bit then finally, cherry got tired, she kept rubbing her eyes or yawning, I think the day zapped that unending energy.

"Do you want to come in?" she asked

"Why dont i do that tomorrow, I can't promise to wake you by 8 in the morning but I'll be here" I said as we shared a laugh.

"Fine, don't wake me up by 8, I'll just walk round school five times before you drag your lazy ass out of bed" I scoffed at her words.

"I wake up early, i just don't like doing it" I retorted.

"Could have fooled me but fortunately i know the real you"

I grumbled under my breath, why couldn't i just win a conversation.

"Awwwwwh you big baby, it's all right love, I'll always wake you up, if not you'd be failing all your classes" she said as we laughed.

"Fine fine, you win, I'll see you tomorrow" i did a fake salute.

"Bye" she waved as she dissappeared into her room.

I dropped my backpack and stretched, my muscles almost reached their limits today, everywhere hurt, it was all good though, I wanted to keep fit so this could be considered exercise.

I decided to Skype Bella after i had freshened up, i waited patiently, I didn't know a lot about times and zones together, i had to keep up with them so i wouldn't call at a wrong time.

"Hey bestie" her voice filled my ears and warmed my heart.

My cheeks hurt from smiling so much, now this was genuine happiness, she looked so good in her jammies.

"Hey bestie, how've you been?"

"Ughhh college is no fun, asides the parties, the classes are killing me" she whined as i cackled, i knew she was the only one who would get me, she was really smart so I wasn't worried.

"Oh shut it Einstein, you're the blessed one, we are the humans who need to read for eternity to keep up"

"Yh yh i know" she said as she did a hair flip, i laughed at that.

"I really miss you"

"I miss you too best best, I'll be home for the holidays, so get your ass ready, we're going shopping"

"Yes ma'am, just get here then we can shop or whatever"

We spoke for a while then decided to play a game, who would be the first to fall asleep?.

I lost.