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Cherry berry
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2020-08-23 19:18:44I jolted awake when I heard an overexcited knock or at least it sounded like it, I whined again, the knocking didn't stop, I tossed and turned looking for a comfortable position to help me forget this disturbance.
It was 7am for Godssake, was anyone dying?, I marched to the door ripping it open ready to lash out when my eyes connected with teary blue ones making my anger deflate instantly.
"Nightmare, scared" was all she said as she wrapped her tiny arms around me.
I was caught off guard at first but I wrapped my arms around her as I walked us into my room.
This was her first time In here but she didn't let go of me to look around, she just stood with her arms tightly wrapped around me.
"Uhh cherry, can you let go of me for a sec?" I asked her and as if her grip wasn't tight enough, it got tighter.
"No no cherry berry lighten up a bit, I just want us to lay on the bed" I whizzed out as she giggled, I look at the top her head confused and the weirdest thing happened.
She looked at me and I froze, her eyes were so beautiful, I mean I saw her yesterday but I don't think her eyes were this blue.
She snapped her fingers in front of my face, i shook my head to clear my thoughts, they were very weird and not my usual ones.
"I was the one with the nightmare but you're the one with the horror stricken face" she said as she looked at me weirdly and I blushed, I BLUSHED, I hate you stupid cheeks and I hope you're happy.
"Uhhhh I'm sorry, I just uhhh zoned out cherry berry" she giggled once again throwing me into confusion
"You called me cherry berry" she said softly as she smiled up at me.
This girl was really confusing, one moment she was holding on to me for dear life and the next minute it's like she wasn't crying in the first place.
I chuckled making her giggle more, this girl was just too much for me.
I tried to maneuver myself and this monkey into my bed.
After three failed attempts and finally success, I huffed at the hyper girl as she wiggled around trying to find a COMFORTABLE POSITION.
After chatting about nothing in particular for minutes I knew I wouldn't sleep anytime soon.
We settled for some Netflix and chill session, I got some snacks and drinks which cherry kindly stole from me.
She settled for orange is the new black, I watched the series for a while and decided Piper was my least favorite person, the way she acted or handled things just made me angry for no reason.
I screamed at the screen when some scenes came up, that's it, yup Piper is plain stupid, I turned my back to the screen, I couldn't watch anymore, cherry laughed at me but I didn't care, why couldn't we just watch umbrella academy?, I mean it's way cooler than stupid Piper. I huffed as I made myself comfortable, just the occasional voices of the characters tickled my ears till I drifted off to sleep.
When I woke up, I couldn't feel my right arm, I frowned, it was being crushed by something or rather someone.
I wiggled around a bit to check if my arm could still be saved, nope cherry was stopping all the blood flow.
Just two days of meeting this monkey, my sleep was taken from me, my mind is jumbled up and then she's stealing my arm, why can't she use her own?
Immediately, she turned wrapping her tiny arms around me, speak of the devils arm and it shall.......... Descend?, Appear?, Whatever it was too early to be smart.
I laid there for what could have been hours or minutes or seconds staring at this girl, my heart beat wasn't normal, I might have to go to see the doctor soon then my speech turned to mush around her, my legs got wobbly, my cheeks couldn't even maintain their colour anymore.
They were going to put me in the psych ward if I go into a hospital feeling like this, I felt crazy, unstable, borderline insane.
But it was only around her
Why her?
Was I worried about her?
These feelings were too intimidating for me, I had never felt all these feelings at once, it was scary.
"You know, as much as I love watching you watch me but not watch me cause you're spaced with your eyes on me but your not really looking at me, you need to get back here ky" I snapped to attention when I heard her voice, it sounded deeply laden with sleep.
It wasn't necessarily deep but the huskiness made me tingle in a good and bad way, making me shiver as i looked at this blue eyed beauty.
"You've been acting weirdly since this morning but I'll just take this you as a you I haven't met but hope you don't have a killer you cause gurllllll Amma hurl my ass to Alaska" she said in a fake black American accent causing both of us to laugh hysterically, I tried to laugh quietly so anyone walking by wouldn't mark my room as "room crazy" but all my attempts just ended me up with a hurt tummy, I thought abs would actually pop out the way I laughed.
I woke up finally after that non-abs popping laugh, I went to take my bath leaving her in the room, I spent almost half an hour in the bathroom, doing whatever.
I walked out heading straight to my dresser whe-
"Holy fuck"
I screeched trying to cover myself and failing as my towel was still in the bathroom.
"WHAT TF IS WRONG WITH YOU? WHY WOULD YOU SCARE ME LIKE THAT?"
"Shit I'm so s-or-ry I fo-rgo-t my p-hon-e, I uhh just n-eed to get it" cherry was bright red, her skin was so beautifully pale I thought she would pass out, she walked quickly out of the room.
She forgot to take the phone with her, I chuckled lightly while I dressed up, it was Sunday and I was going for a service nearby but too many thoughts were fighting for dominance in my head.
1) This was first time anyone had seen me completely naked asides my mom
2) This was the first time I had seen cherry blush, I think she got uncomfortable catching me off guard like that.The part that troubled me yet excited me the most wasn't the fact that she saw me, it was the way she looked at me or rather the way her eyes devoured me.
A shiver ran through my spine as the memory ran through my mind again and again.
I needed guidance down this path I was unwillingly willing to take.
I walked down the now familiar route to church.
I looked to the clouds hoping to understand.
I closed my eyes with my face tilted to the sky.To others I might look like I had finally lost itBut God help me I was liking a girl and loving every single aspect of it.
I couldn't go for confession this time
Only God would hear meOnly he would understandBut what if he didn't?
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