LOGINIn all my - years of existence,I have experienced multiple emotions, multiple types of feelings, but none quite like this.
She fell on her bed dragging me on top of her while her lips where still pressed on mine. Her hands on my back, mine on her face tracing every edge and angle.
It was the most intense feeling I've ever had, my whole body was vibrating.
I mean I had had sex before but sh** I just couldn't get over the way her lips and hands made me feel
A little later after the endless fight for dominance which I lost to,the urge to rip each other's clothes off became unbearable.
I broke the kiss, her lips were swollen, the enormous feeling of pride almost made me smirk.
"I haven't ever done anything like this before, I mean uhm with a girl"
I managed to say with a trembling voice and that annoying blush on my face.
"Just follow my lead" cherry said going in for a kiss again
This time it was much more passionate than before.
She bit my lower lip, slowly pulling my zipper while we kissed, my heart was pounding, I knew once I crossed this line there was no going back, I didn't care.
She took off my top leaving me with just my bra, her lip bites were driving me insane.
"Fuck you're so beautiful" she muttered while skillfully unclipping my bra, throwing it to God knows where.
I was half naked on top of her, my nipples weren't making life easy for me, it hurt to even breathe, they kept competing for her attention.
My drenched hopeless panties was the only thing standing between her and what she wanted most, I was so turned on it was starting to get painful.
Her lips were doing wonders to my sensitive neck, her hands were everywhere and nowhere, I kept opening and closing my mouth cause I didn't know any more sounds to produce, her hands eased their way down to my drenched panties, I stiffened, fuck I couldn't do this.
What If I messed up?
"Relax,it's just me" she said
Her voice was so calm and soothing I knew she wouldn't do anything to hurt me, if there was ever a girl I would give my all to and not regret it, it was my cherry berry.
She attached her lips to my neck making me forget all my insecurities as I struggled to keep my moans down.
It felt so good anywhere she touched me, her lips were leaving burning trails across my skin.
Goosebumps erupted everywhere on my skin, this was the best "new" I could hope for, she readjusted so I was lying flat on my back at the edge of the bed while she knelt down.
Blood of Go-, oh shit forgive me Lor-, hol-, crap I couldn't even scream normally anymore.
Cherrys POV:
I couldn't believe I was doing this, this wasn't my first time but I wanted her to remember this night forever, I wanted to pour out everything I felt for her.
I could smell her innocence from a mile away, her body made want to chant hymns and never leave her side.
I knew she was turning her back on her religion to be right here with me but I didn't care.
I wanted to have her, I would have her, she was mine to do as I saw fit, seeing her here where I always imagined her was like a dream come through.
My fantasies were coming to life, I repositioned her to lie flat on her back while I knelt down to get the perfect angle.
Nothing was hidden from my peering eyes as I took in all of her, I could see her blush from down here but I knew in no time that would be the last thing on her mind.
"May I?" I whispered softly while I trailed kisses down her thighs, she could do nothing but nod rapidly, I chuckled.
"Words please"
"Ye-s cherry please stop teasin-" I cut her off as I swiped my tongue over her clit making her moan.
She tasted sweet, just as I imagined she would be, she surpassed my imaginations.
The female body was a beautiful thing I tell you, I held her legs down as I made love to her nether lips.
With every swipe of my tongue it got harder to hold her down, damn was she strong.
I swiped my tongue in a slow circular motion, steering clear of the part of her that needed attention but I wouldn't take till she gave her consent.
I kept my slow pace, swiping, licking, nipping till her moans and hands turned desperate, I drew out her orgasm for as long as I could.
Her moans were like music to my ears, her breaths were ragged as she tried to control her breathing.
I kissed my way up to her lips as I let her taste herself, she moaned into my mouth making get hot all over again.
"Round two?" I asked while she giggled.
******
Morning came by rapidly, Kat was still asleep, her mouth was slightly open, she released the most amusing sounds, I couldn't get out of bed without waking her up.
For someone who called me a monkey, she sure knew how to hold me down.
I watched her for a while, just taking her in, I knew we had this attraction the first time we met, I wanted her to be mine.
I waved my name around a bit and that did the magic, no one messes with a Malnov, I loved appearances, what no one could reach, I didn't even have to blink.
After watching Katya like a stalker she finally stirred, curling her body into mine she stretched and yawned, she blinked and froze as I took in those beautiful eyes.
"How long have you been watching me?"
She mumbled in her sleepy voice, so cute."Long enough love, you could sleep through a hurricane" she blushed making me laugh, she buried her face in her hands.
"Awwwwhhh come on, don't hide that pretty face from me, give me a kiss" i pouted my lips but she turned her face making my lips land on her cheek, I furrowed my brows.
She must have seen my frown as she rushed to explain
"No no cherry, it's not like that, just morning breath" she said with her hands on her mouth, I looked at her incredulously.
"Babe I just need to brush first, jus-"
I grabbed her neck cutting her off as I connected our lips, she tried to push me off making me growl, I bit her lower lip making her gasp, I took the chance, pushing my tongue into her mouth while she moaned.
I pulled her on top of me putting her hands on the headboard, her mound in front of my face.
You could call it punishment but I took and took and took some more till all she could chant was my name.
"Remind me to always kiss you" she said breathlessly
"I won't need to" I chuckled.
We layed down for another hour, just kissing, cuddling or watching movies, I got up at some point to get us some food.
Kat ate for three people but still, her tummy was still flat and I just couldn't see where any of the food was going to.
We goofed around for a while till lunch time, we had been cooped up in the room all day so we decided to go into town.
We went to our local favorite, once we were stuffed once more, I looked like a pregnant elephant while Kat was still Kat, so unfair.
We walked around for a while, went into the pet store, watching her eyes light up was probably the second best thing I had ever seen.
We bought some more food, I tell you it didn't sit well with me, where was all these calories going to?
We went into a boutique, tried on all the clothes till they kicked us out, we didn't buy even one.
On and on we went, I couldn't remember the last time I had this much fun, I felt so free right here, right now, I would do it all again.
We did all our business on a rush, there was a time frame.
We couldn't stay out late, we had classes tomorrow, by 6 we were done and ready to go.
We walked back to campus, holding hands, yeah I loved this feeling, Kat had finally accepted that part of her, she wasn't conscious on who and who saw, she held me like she was proud of this.
My smile faltered a little but I shook the negative feelings aside.
I wanted to enjoy this, there was no time for stupid thoughts, no space for the red lights right in front of my eyes, the warnings ringing out in the ears.
"Hey earth to cherry" I blinked Kat into focus. "Are you ok?, I lost you back there" she looked concerned.
"Yes yes, sorry, I was uhhhh too far in my head, I'm sorry you were saying"
"Oh uhh nothing, haha, maybe next time" she shuffled her feet nervously looking everywhere but at me
"What is it?"
"Nothing berry, come on, let's head inside, it's chilly out here"
"Don't try to change the subject partner, spit it out"
"Uhh I was just uhhmm, I was just uhh saying that uhhh-"
I was starting to get irritated "Save it then, if you don't want to tell me then say so, don't stutter, you're talking to me so don't stutter like a fool" I gasped, I bit my lip
"No no kat, I didn't mean that, babe I di-"
"I was going to ask you to be my girlfriend but I wouldn't want you to be with a fool so I'll go in first" she said coolly
Shit, I messed up this time, I couldn't take this a second time.
"Kat Kat please, I'm sorry, don't walk away, not again please, not again" my voice shook as I trembled, i blinked away tears.
She kept walking, she kept stepping on my heart with every step she took, I couldn't breath.
My knees gave out as I let my tears fall, I should let her go, she didn't need the pain later on, I could do this for both of us.
"I'm not going anywhere" I shook as I heard her voice, I cried harder, she didn't leave.
"I'm not going anywhere, I'm sorry baby, don't cry love" she cooed at me, making me cry harder, idiot, you don't tell a crying woman to stop crying.
She held me, rocking us softly while kissing my face from time to time, I don't deserve her but I wanted her, I was going to break her but I didn't care, I was going to love her.
"To answer your question yes I'll be your girlfriend"
"You didn't have any other option, it was either a yes or a yes cherry, I'm not going anywhere" she said making us laugh.
"I love you" I watched her eyes widen and soften.
"I-i-i-" she furrowed her brows opening and closing her mouth looking frustrated.
"Shhshh, it's ok, I understand, I know" I peppered kisses on her neck, making her giggle, I loved this girl.
"I like this position but I might not be able to walk in another 5 minutes, I gasped jumping out of her arms making her roll over in laughter.
"Idiot" I muttered helping her to her feet, she wobbled a bit but she would survive.
We walked side by side, we just had our first argument, I didn't like it but we survived, I knew we would survive in the ones to come, we had to.
She kissed me goodnight as I playfully pushed her out of my room.
I changed into my pyjamas, turning on my phone as notification after notification popped up.
My phone chimed a last time signaling an end to the notifications.
I checked them all, replied all my emails and messages.
I scrolled through Instagram for a while before my phone chimed, signaling a call.
I wasn't expecting it
It was Nate
My f-----.
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Sitting in my low budget hotel room with my multi-millionaire girlfriend felt surreal, I stayed quiet while she animated her argument, using her hands, she exaggerated her point, one hundred and one reasons why she couldn’t make it yesterday.Listening to cherry’s excuses, doubt slowly crept into my heart, enveloped my mind and seized my body, there was so many excuses I doubted she knew she wasn’t keeping up.One went into another again and again, it began to sound like sweet lies, the tune perfectly played, I was beyond swayed, beyond saving.“Why are you lying to me?”With a shocked expression, she argued “Kat you know I've never lied to you amore mio, why would you think that?”“Where were you when I kept calling?”“I was at work, I couldn’t escape, I tried to cal-”“Bullshit
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The sendoff email was still fresh in my mail box when I hauled my ass to the bus station, cherry whined for thirty minutes before she let me go, some kisses half way in and I was fueled for the days ahead.My mom wanted to pick me up, I would have liked that but I tore off my freshmen skin for something, I needed to stay true to the pact I made, freshmen before, freshmen never again.I was sitting in a bus with an old man’s head on my shoulder listening to the melodic tunes of his snores, things we do for our promises.I stared out through the window as I listened to music, I enjoyed the view anytime I traveled or went on a road trip, I was a sucker for them.I chatted back and forth with cherry, rejected a video call because I didn’t trust her not to tease me, I needed a clear head and underwear for this journey no matter how much I loved her.The journey was over before I cou
The following week had me in a daze, I was just grateful we had a free week, our exams were over, we just had to party our freshmen skins off, tradition they said.I spent most of my time with cherry, I had basically moved in with her, I called it getting our lost moments back, cherry went out of her way all week, she spoilt me rotten, I did love the attention but money coming from her felt wrong.I loved her either way but I didn’t want her to think I wanted her money or feel obliged to buy me stuff, I made it a rule, if it wasn’t important don’t buy it, if it wasn’t needed don’t get it, in return if she did buy it I couldn’t whine about the price, we went back and forth, throwing rules, countering others.The more time I spent with cherry the less I did Ray and Asher, she didn’t like him and she made it known, she extended the dislike to Asher, she was just that petty.I tried several times in several ways t
I went back to ignoring cherry, avoiding her at every turn, I started hanging out with Ray more, he had a girlfriend now, her name was Asher, we called her archer just to get under her skin, she was really cute, dark skinned, short and crazy.They always hinted on a triad but my heart was elsewhere.I could feel Cherry's eyes everywhere I went, see who the stalker was now.She kept sending me messages, some sweet, some needy, she woke me up with romantic texts, left loving voicemails, tried to talk to me every day, I was flattered really but I didn’t need all the physical assurances, she broke our emotional bridge, no amount of flowers or chocolates could fix that.I went back to my former routine, classes, if I wanted to attend them, cafeteria, library, walk around campus, Ray’s room or mine.We had fun most times, we either talked about anime or played video games, I always won though, what c