Roses

Remember when I said this year was going to be great, I take that back, in fact I take it all back, its been three days since we read the letter and my mom keeps prancing around the house like I was about to get married.

I haven't had any decent sleep these past few days, even my dad had enough sense to get in and out of her way faster than flash, I wasn't that lucky, I mean I was the one with the halo till she stole it..... pfft.

We were in my room, I've never hated this little space like I did, she was invading every personal fudging space I had, she packed this and threw that, hung this and tore that, screamed at this and gushed at that, Jesus take me now, I really wasn't cut out to be a woman.

"Hey honey, I'm going to get some more gowns for you" my mom said while I groaned into my pillow.

"Mom, I hate dresses, just get pant suits or something besides its college, I'm not going for job interviews"

"Hush, what would you know, we need to put a stop to these boyish clothes you choose to wear, you're a lady, you have to start acting like one"

"Mom; lady or not, I still hate dresses and I'd like it if you didn't waste money getting those things cause I won't wear them. I love my 'boyish' clothes, it shows the whole me, I wont wear something that makes me look for my already invisible ass" I countered as we shared a laugh

"Fine, but honey your ass is fine, you're still so young, give it some time, all the body parts will fall into place"

"Yea I hope so"

We fell into a comfortable silence after that, I even napped a bit, her invasion didn't bug me anymore, the sounds of moving boxes and ruffling clothes were lulling me into a deeper sleep when my phone chimed, I checked it to see a message from my boyfriend Tristan.

booboo🥰: hey babe

shit I forgot about him for a second, he got into the university of Colorado, he got a full scholarship, I was proud of him but I didn't know what would happen to us after this, another chime brought my attention back to my phone.

booboo🥰: are you free rn? let me take you out, I won't get to see you for a while, so lets go do something fun.

Me: I don't know tris, I'm not done packing and my mom is home.

booboo🥰: come on babe think of something, I cant wait to see you, come on don't ruin the mood.

me: alright fine but just for a couple of hours, I still need to get some things from the mall.

booboo🥰: that's great I'll be parked down the block, bye love you.

me: love you too.

I dropped back on my bed dramatically, what was I going to do now?, my mom didn't like Tristan and she wouldn't let me go if I used him as an excuse, kill me somebody.

Well I couldn't go back on my promise now, tris would blow a fuse and maybe block me for a few days, he was petty like that but I liked him.

I sighed again, I was too young to start thinking this much, imagining me and tris on a beach with fifteen kids made me laugh out loud, causing my mom to look at me like I was loosing my mind, which made me double over In laughter, now my mom was looking all worried.

"Are you ok? cause I don't think going to college makes people go crazy"

"I'm fine m-o-m" I say still laughing

"Kat cut it out right now, I won't have a maniac under my roof"

"Ughhh, fine mom you're no fun, anyway can I go see Becca real quick?, she's moving to England and I don't know when she's coming back"

Half truth and half lie, Becca was my best friend, she has been for a couple of years now and her moving is a huge step for both of us, I didn't even need to fake the sadness on my face, her moving sucked.

"Oh honey, sure you can, be safe and pass off my regards, I know this is tough but you can always go visit and there's always skype so its not as bad as you think"

"Thanks mom, that means a lot, I'll be out for a while, you know, goodbyes and all"

"Sure honey, take your time" my mom cooed while I fought to hide my smile.

I jumped out of bed and ran out of the house, I got down the block in record time, I saw his black truck parked by the bakery, I jogged down to it and slipped in.

"Hey babe, I was about to drive off, what took you so long?" Tris said as he pulled into the road.

"Sorry babe, I had to tell my mom I was going over to Becca's place, you know she doesn't like you" I said while quickly buckling in, Tris was a reckless driver.

"I don't care babe, as long as you love me, that's all I care about" he flashed his dimples, earlier into the relationship, I would have blushed feeling on top of the world but honestly, it made no sense how I needed to fight for his parents approval and he couldn't do the same.

We pulled into an arcade center, I squealed like a kid, I couldn't help it, I loved the games here.

We played for hours, different games or just competing, we ran around like kids, people turned to stare but I didn't care, I was going off to college and honestly I didn't even know what to expect so if this was my last few hours of freedom, I was going to lap it up.

After some time, I got tired and bought some food, Tris bought ice cream, we just sat for hours, talking and laughing, it was crazy how much we knew each other, it was like he was my twin, he is my twin, we had been dating for years, three years actually, my age made it seem weird at first but if he was cool with it then so was I.

"You look beautiful when you get lost in your head like that". I couldn't stop the creepy smile spreading on my face

"Thanks Tris"

He went back to staring into nothing, I watched him for a while, I asked myself when it all changed, when my heart didn't skip like it did, why my almost black skin couldn't push out blushes on my cheeks around him anymore?, when saying I love you sounded so normal?.

"This is the end isn't it?"

I knew what he meant but I didn't think I needed to answer, we had both felt the shift, I had a lot of things to say but I just settled for a simple "I love you Tris". I looked into his pretty eyes and smiled.

"I love you too baby girl, remember I'll be here whenever or wherever, you'll always be my first love but we both know it isn't working out that way anymore. Its time I allow other boys come closer" we laughed at that, I had a few male friends, he drilled most of them, only my friends friends stayed, my admirers ran for their dear lives. "I'll miss you baby girl, promise we'll skype" he held out his pinky.

I laughed but I intertwined mine with his, "I promise". we shared a long hug filled with laughs, after that he drove me over to Becca's place.

We hugged ourselves goodbye once more before I watched him drive off, I would miss him.

"Well I thought you had gotten kidnapped and thrown to the wolves" a voice filled with a terrible British accent said. My head turned so fast I got whiplash.

"Don't ever speak like that ever again, that wasn't just terrible it was plain murder, you're a murderer" I said to Becca as we giggled on her doorstep.

"Was that Tristan?" she asked

"Yeaa, we kinda broke up" I prepared myself for I-

"WHATTTTTTTT?, HOW COULD YOU GUYS BREAK UP, WHAT ARE WE SINGLES SUPPOSED TO DO"- yup there it was, "OMG, YOU GUYS FINALLY BROKE UP". I covered my ears waiting for her to calm down.

"Yes we did break up but oh well, we had to, come on!!!, you know it just didn't feel the same anymore"

"Yea I do, but anyway my flight leaves tomorrow, I'll be back for summer break, I'll miss you so much boo" she sniffled which caused the tears I held at bay to flood in.

We spent hours crying, laughing, singing, hugging, packing, running around and just having fun.

I checked the time and it was past 6, I needed to get home.

We cried some more, made promises and soon I was on my way.

Two of favorite people were going off on their own adventures, I hoped I could create mine.

I hoped I would.