Never change

Addilyn pov-

I lay on my floor board out of my mind just wanting something to do, ugh why is life so boring all of the sudden Axel comes and jumps on my stomach.

" Ax you fatass, get off me I can't breath you doof ".

He rolls off of me and lays next to me on the ground. He then looks up at the ceiling the same as I'm doing. He just let out a small giggle as he lays next to me on the floor.

" What are we looking at Addy? "

He lets out a smirk and looks at me after he continues, I just roll my eyes at him.

" Nothing dumb dumb I'm just very board and have nothing to do, what have you been doing for the last like 5 hours? "

He takes a minute before talking again.

" Not much th-- "

Before he can finish his sentence Lola jumps on both of us.

" Hey guys what are you up too ".

Before she can say anything else I send her a devilish smirk. Her face then drops as she looks at me. She knows she's in trouble now. She then rushes off of me and Axel rushes away from me too. I smirk at both of them.

" I'm gonna kill you, both of you! "

I end up yelling this at the top of my lungs. We run down the stairs but before I can run after them I'm picked up by somebody. I know who it is right away.

" I'm gonna fucking kill you too Ryder, unhand me ya jerk ".

He lets out a laugh at my attempt to get out of his arms.

" Just to let you know babe, you're not scary. Your fucking cute when your angry ".

I let out a puff of air blowing the strand of hair out of my face. I turn my head just a bit to see that Ryder is staring at me with a loving smile spread across his face. I turn around and slip out of his grip. I then take his hand and lead him up to my room. He smiles the whole way up the stairs. Yeah I really do love this boy, so much.

When we get in my room, I close and lock the door and we both go and sit on my bed. He may be sitting but I lay down flat on my stomach, he runs his fingers through my hair. This for me is one of my favorite things, Ryder makes me feel so calm and so free. He makes me feel alive, he makes me feel so loved. Yeah my family does love me, but the kind of love Ryder gives me is the kind of love every person deserves, he smiles down at me and it just warms my soul. Yeah there is no denying that I love this boy, so much.

I feel myself start to drift off and become very tired, he kisses the side of my lips and this makes me feel safe and know that he won't let anyone ever hurt me again.

I let myself just be calm and fall asleep, this room isn't my safe place, no inadament object is my safe place. This loving boy that sits by me loving me, he is my safe place, he is my home.

Ryder pov-

She falls asleep as I leave a kiss on the side of her mouth, she really is the one girl that I love. I have never loved anybody more than her, and I'm going to protect her until I take my last breath. She is the one thing that makes my heartbeat, the one thing that makes sparks run through my veins, the one thing that makes me feel free and lastly she is my home. Her breathing softens as she falls asleep, I pull her up a bit so her head is laying on a pillow right next to me, I get up and unlock her door knowing that I may fall asleep as well. And I don't want to have to wake up if one of her brothers or parents come into her room. None of them mind me being in here, as long as the door is unlocked were all good.

I turn her light off and plug in her phone. I send my mom a quick text and tell her I may be here overnight. She says I can always stay over here, I just always need to send her a quick text every time. I lay down and pull her into me, she is on my left side. I'm holding her around her waist. She snuggles into me moving her back more against my chest. I just smile and start to fall asleep holding the girl I have always loved. I slip into a sweet and peaceful sleep, this is the life I have always wanted.

Sleep soon overtake me, taking me into a floating abyss.

Alex pov-

I go and walk into Addy's room to ask her a question, but then I see something that makes me smile brightly. Her and Ryder and cuddled up, fast asleep. His hands are around her waist and she is cuddled into him, holding his arms tightly. His face is pretty much tucked in her neck.

We're all very glad that these two are pretty much in love with each other. We would rather have him loving our baby sister then some boy she would just have met and we wouldn't even know him. But we all grew up with Ryder so we know what he's like and how he is with our sister. I close the door lightly and just let them keep sleeping, most nights Addy still wakes up with bad dreams, so if she is in a good deep and happy sleep we just leave her alone. Most of them time when she is in a peaceful sleep it's when she is in Ryder's arms.

I walk down stairs to see all the boys doing their own thing and I need to tell them not to but Ryder and Addy because she is finally getting a good sleep. Yeah it may only be 3 in the afternoon but she didn't really get a good night of sleep last night.

I sit down on the couch and watch all of them for a moment, they really all do have their own thing that they love to do most of the time. We all have our own thing, yeah we all may like some of the same things,but we all have the one thing that we love more than anything to do in life.

" Just letting all of you boys know, leave Addy and Ryder alone at the moment, she is finally getting some sleep. Her and Ryder are both asleep at the moment. And I'm betting that Addy is going to sleep until tomorrow morning, maybe even longer, she has had a rough couple of nights ".

They all just give me light smiles and nod, then return to what they're doing at the moment. I smile getting up and making my way to the kitchen to see what mom is doing.

Once I walk in the kitchen the smell of fresh baked chocolate chip cookies hits me full on, I don't see mom anywhere so I go over to the bowl full of cookie dough and I dip my finger in. but as soon as I do this mom comes into the kitchen. Oh God I'm in big trouble.

" Alex Paul Miller! "

I let out a small laugh as I took my finger into my mouth. Mom smacks the back of my head. I give her a sheepish boyish smile as she hits me in the back of the head and looks at me. She rolls her eyes walking back over and taking a fresh tray of cookies out of the oven.

" Oh what I needed to tell you was, don't go into Addy's room because she didn't get a good night of sleep last night and she and Ryder are both sleeping soundly. It's like those two were made for each other, well to tell you the truth I think that they were ".

Mom smiles at me and just nods her head. Mom has always been so caring toward all of us. The older boys used to tell me that before me and Addy came along mom was so tired of having all boys. Boy was she excited to be having twins, she had always wanted twins.

They told me that when mom found out she was having a boy but then she was also having a baby girl that she almost fainted. She was so fucking happy to be having a girl, yeah she loves us all the same. But I can't blame her for wanting one girl. Not even I can survive with all these boys in this house.

Truth is there is something I haven't really told anybody yet, well Addy knows but. . . I haven't really told anybody else. I'm scared honesty to tell anybody. But I'm gay, I like guys and nobody knows this I wanna be true to my family but of course I'm scared.

What the hell would I even say, like tell me how would my brothers, and dad feel?

Would they be mad at me for being gay?

I just decided that right now is a better time than any other to tell my mom, I know she will be supportive of me, right?

I sit on one of the stools and sigh putting my head down and holding my hands to my face, I'm so fucking scared at the moment. I have no idea how to even tell her. And how the fuck do I tell her I already have a boyfriend to?

" Axel what's wrong baby? "

I look at my mom with tears in my eyes, she gives me a small smile but once she sees the tears flowing down my face her face drops and she then sits next to me taking a break from what she had been doing. God I'm really about to tell her, and for the record I'm so fucking scared it's like my heart is breaking and I haven't even told my mom yet.

" Axel please tell me what's wrong? "

I take a second to calm myself down, God what if she kicks me out or worse, doesn't want me as her son anymore. It's not my fault I love boys the way I'm supposed to love girls. . . I-it's just who I am, it's how god has made me. I can't change that, and I'm not willing to for anybody, and anybody who can't accept me for who I am can go and FUCK them self's.

" Mom, please just. . .this is so hard for me. I just want you and everybody else to love me for me. But after I tell you this you may hate me ".

She looks at me with even more worry in her eyes, tears slide down my face, I don't even wipe them away, not really caring at the moment that they're there.

" Mom I'm Gay ".

I look up at my mom pretty much full on sobbing now, but instead of seeing anger and hate as I thought I would. I see love and happiness in her eyes.

" I'm so proud of you, I would never love you any less just because of who you choose to love hun, if you like guys then you like guys, this doesn't change a single thing in any way. I love you no matter what Ax "

I smile at her as she pulls me into a loving hug, this is how I have always wanted it to be, but I had always been too scared to show the real me. But this is the real me. I love boys, that's just how I am. That's how god made me, that is how my life is and I am proud to be me, nobody can ever change me.

I need to be confident of who I am, is this anybody else's, mind, body, choices, brain or to choose anything about this body?

This is my body and that is never going to change, well unless I get possessed by a demon of some sort. Hehe.

Mom gives me a bright smile and gives me a kiss on the forehead, this makes me wonder how my dad will take it though, is he going to still love me for me or what is going to happen?

Oh well, as long as I have mom by my side everything is going to be fine, I am going to be fine. And I already know that the boys will support me, and Addy will. I mean hell Lola is a Lesbian just like me, but I'm Gay and I like boys.

I smile at mom as she looks at me, I see the feeling of being proud swirling in her eyes, she is really proud of me. I don't see a single drop of a lie in her eyes. I'm so glad that she loves me for who I am, and that she really just wants me to be me.

Damon texts me and asks if I told my mom and If either he can come over or I can go over to his house.

I ask mom and she says it's fine, I give her a quick kiss and then say goodbye to the boys and head out of the door. I'm glad that mom accepts me for me, I really really am.

I make my way down the street and to his house, his parents support him and they're really glad that he is such a good kid, and that he doesn't get into trouble. Truth is we are both very calm and loving toward each other. We always cuddle and stuff, and now we can go out on dates and stuff freely. I'm glad that I don't have to hide it anymore, because I'm pretty sure that I love him. We both act like we do, so I really hope that he loves me as much as I love him.

Later as I make my way home it's now dark outside. I was there for a little over 7 hours, it was about 3:30 when I left. But I left Damon's house at 10:30 so as I walk in the door it's about 11:00 P.M. as I walk in the door it seems as if everyone is asleep, I head up to my room and shoot Damon a quick text, plugging my phone up I hop into bed and slip into a deep and happy place, today was a good day. I just hope dad is okay with who I am.