Alcohol

"Nick, please." I called again, because I couldn't anymore. Fortunately the door was thrown open and I looked quickly to the side and saw David's shocked face.

"Nick." He shouted and wanted to come towards us, but then decided to stop. And looked back and forth between us. He must have thought that if he did something, Nick would freak out more. I looked quickly at Nick, who was still staring at me. Somehow he didn't perceive David at all. I tried to look deep into his eyes and dig into them so that he had no choice but to look into my eyes as well.

“If you really love me, then stop using drugs. But what they do with you! ”I noticed that he looked at me confused and his grip loosened. I put my hand, which I had around his wrist before, on his shoulder.

"You ... hurt the woman you love." He screwed up his eyes as if he didn't understand what I mean. I looked at his hand, which was still around my chin.

"You hurt me, don't you notice that and you scare me." Now he slowly took his hand from me and I took a deep breath. Then I heard David.

“Nick, this is Jolina. The one you're just touching. ”He looked down at me and then I noticed how he finally let go of my wrist. I took the opportunity and quickly put that hand on his other shoulder side and then I gathered all my strength and pushed him as hard as I could. So that he really was almost three feet back against the next wall. He stood up slowly and I looked a lot at the bucket of water. I ran to him, picked it up and poured it out over him in a high arc. So that he screamed out loud and then stared at me in complete shock with heavy breath and wide eyes. I dropped the bucket and slowly took a few steps back to the wall. Waiting for what he would do. But he just sat in the puddle and continued to stare at me, breathing quickly and mouth open. I was no different, my pulse was racing. I slid down the wall behind me. So that we sat across from each other exactly one meter away and stared at each other. Then I heard Sven storm into the bathroom.

" Hey, what's up? Why are you so. "He got no further when he saw both of us and looked back and forth between us.

"David?" He asked completely confused and I saw Nick brushing his hair back from his face and looking at David.

"He should go." I said calmly to David, who immediately nodded and went to Nick. Helped him up and pulled him out of the bathroom. Nick stopped at the door and turned to me so that I was looking at him.

"Can you still look at me?" I hesitated at first but then nodded. David was about to move Nick on when he said something.

"When are you going to tell me?" I sighed. It wasn't serious now.

"Nick." I said simply, but he stopped and didn't let it bother him that David wanted to pull him on.

"When you've made up your mind." He apparently understood what I meant because he didn't ask again.

"Now go please." He turned and went out with David. Sven was still looking at me.

"Can you close the door behind you." I said more than that it should be a question. Sven wanted to say something first, but then nodded and she closed behind her so that I was alone. I stayed on the floor for a moment. Until I got up with shaky legs again and then only took a very short shower so that I got completely wet once and came out again immediately and finally turned off the water. I wrapped the towel around myself and put the bucket back and got another large towel and put it on the floor to mop up the water when David came in and looked at me.

"I'll do it." He took the towel from me and knelt on the floor. He looked up at me briefly as I stared at him.

"Do you want to talk about it?" I shook my head.

"I'll go to sleep." David nodded.

“Yes, do that.”

......

David came into my room that night. I pretended I was going to sleep because I didn't want to talk to him. But he had apparently noticed that I was just pretending, because he had sat down next to me on the bed and patted my arm and told me that everything would be fine, that he would talk to Nick. That he wants me to stay away from him. So that he buckles up what he always does. That he hopes that I would still come on the weekends. Because he liked it, because he wasn't so alone then and that he liked having me here. When he said that I wanted to react because I was surprised. I knew or rather said I had noticed that David didn't think it was bad anymore, that I always came here and did what with his friends. In the beginning he didn't think it was so great when I was still living here and we didn't really know each other. He stroked my arm again before leaving the room.

I wanted to go home again, so I told Jess who called me. Since she was surprised that I didn't come to the club yesterday. I had been there but only twice and that very briefly, so that she hadn't seen me. I told her the whole story and then told her I would go back. So she told me that she wanted to come with me, she had stress with Andy herself and wanted to get to know my parents and my home. That she was free on Monday and that she had heard from Sven that he wanted to visit a few people at my place and that he could take them back with him on Monday evening. I Agreed. I told David about it, who then told me that he would drive us both so we wouldn't have to take the train.

My room door opened very slowly after a soft knock. I was just about to pack my things and expected David.

"I'm not quite finished yet." But when I didn't get an answer I turned to the side and saw Nick. I just stared at him.

"Hey." That was all he said and then he slowly walked towards me.

"I wanted to apologize for yesterday ... so for everything." I nodded and we both just stared at each other again.

"But that doesn't change anything." I wanted to make it clear to him and he understood immediately.

"And .." he said then and took something out of his pocket and then came up to me. Took my hand.

"Nick." I stuttered in shock. But then I saw that he had a silver bracelet in hand and put it on me. I stared at the piece of jewelry. It was a narrow bracelet about two inches wide with curlicues on it. He looked a little oriental. Exactly what I found beautiful. I looked up at Nick who then let go of my hand.

“I bought it last weekend after the concert. I actually wanted to give it to you for your birthday, but I think we won't see each other anymore, that's why I'm giving it to you now. ”Now I was surprised I had my birthday on Monday and that he remembered it meant a lot to me. But we weren't together anymore, could I accept something like that?

"Nick ... it's beautiful ... but I don't think I will .-" I was about to pull it off my arm when he interrupted me.

" I know what you mean. But I bought it for you and it's a birthday present, so please keep it if I still mean something to you. ”Of course he still meant something to me, even a lot. I would have loved to tell him how much I loved him and that I hoped that we would find each other again sometime. But I just couldn't pronounce it. He turned and left again.

It was really nice that Jess came to me. She distracted me a little and we got to know each other better. She told me about herself and I about myself. We also talked a little about Nick, but every time it came up I would block. She told me about her problems with Andy and I listened carefully to her. On Monday she picked me up from school, so that some of my class looked stupid. She was sitting provocatively on the hood of Sven's car with crossed legs in high black over-niess boots, plus she was wearing a black leather mini and a black top. As always, her hair stood out in all directions and she still had a cigarette in her hand for the river. I really had to smile when I came up to her and then she pulled down the sunglasses that she didn't really need in this weather and looked at me. She really knew how to get attention. Fortunately, Sven came out of the school building right after me and said goodbye to a few friends and came to us with one of them. He grinned at Jess as she smiled at him, then reached out his hand to her and she took it and got off the car. Sven looked as if he found it as amusing as Jess himself. If I thought of Andy, he would have freaked out, he would have seen Jess sitting in the car like that. Sven first congratulated me on my birthday, as I hadn't seen him today before he introduced us to his friend Rafael. Sven wanted to meet with him later, while Jess and I would go out to dinner with my parents and later pick up Jess from me to drive back home with her.

Everyone had written to me on my birthday and congratulated me or called, everyone except Nick. I was disappointed about that, but maybe it was better that way!

I didn't want to go to see the others next weekend. So Jess and Lara decided to visit me. Jess had liked it with me, even though we hadn't really done anything other than going out for a drink in the evening and having dinner with my parents. We spent most of the time in my room talking. But I was really happy that she came with Lara. We had a nice weekend together, what a real girls weekend. Go out to eat, watch DVDs and chat. On Saturday we had pints together and went to a bar in the evening, where even I had ordered a few alcoholic drinks. On Sunday we had breakfast together before I brought them to the train station and they drove back home.