Over?

Just a few minutes later, I was at the door of his apartment. I wanted to knock first, but since I was listening to music I knew he was there, so I just went in. I should have thought twice about that. What was offered to me when I came into the living room made me stop. Nick was lying upright in the bed next to him, several bottles of beer on the dessert, a whiskey bottle on the floor and it was really messy. The worst thing I saw was. Jenna! The one sitting next to him on the bed in a very short dress and leaned over straight to him and stuck her tongue out to him with something blue on it, as far as I could see it from here. As she got closer to Nick with a grin and the sticking out tongue, Nick slowly opened his mouth and closed his eyes. You wouldn't do what I think you would do now, I didn't know what to do now. Just stand here and look at the shit or make myself noticeable or just disappear quickly. Just as I made up my mind, Nick's eyes flew to me and he noticed me. I quickly turned around, my heart racing, and ran out of the apartment. Maybe Nick wouldn't even notice that I was there and think that he just imagined it because he was tight. I went very slowly back to the club. Luckily Jess was dancing with some girl I didn't know, so only Sven spoke to me.

"Were you with Nick?" I nodded slightly.

"Are you okay?" I shook my head. Sven looked at me challenging.

"I almost caught him with Jenna." Sven raised his eyebrow.

"Really?" I nodded.

"And now?" He asked stupidly.

"It is time that I drew a line." Sven did not answer. I went to the sofa and took my jacket and put it on. Sven watched me do it.

"I worth going home." He nodded slightly.

"Should I drive you?" I shake my head. I wanted to be alone now. I meandered through the crowds to the exit. Just as I was walking towards the door, I looked to the side and saw Nick and Jenna. Great. Nick stood leaning against the wall and Jenna right in front of him and talked to him and he just looked at her. Until he lowered his head and Jenna raised her hands to lift his head again. Now it was enough for me. I walked up to them with quick steps and pushed Nick lightly against the shoulder. Actually, I would have liked to push him with full force, but the way Nick was standing there against the wall, he would probably have fallen over immediately. Jenna looked at me first when she saw that I was pushing Nick. Then Nick raised his head and saw me.

"Yeah, you came?" He frowned.

"Have you just been with me?" I did not answer him to this question.

"I'm going." I said. So that he pushed Jenna away from him, who then took a step away from him and he turned to me and stood very close in front of me. So that I couldn't see Jenna anymore.

"I'm not coming back." I said very quietly, but so that he could still hear it. He put his hand on my arm.

"Why ..." I looked past him even though I couldn't see Jenna.

" You lied to me. You don't love me. ”He frowned and it all contracted painfully when I said it.

"I didn't lie to you." He defended himself quietly. I looked at him again briefly and then back at Jenna so that he noticed.

"That doesn't mean anything." I shook my head.

“I saw you at your place ... If you hadn't noticed me, you would have kissed her. Maybe you have it too. ”He immediately shook his head.

"And that?" I pointed to his eyes, which were just red. He did not say anything. It all made no sense. I put my trembling hand on his cheek. So that he huddled against it.

"It's ... it's over." I brought out with a shaky voice and noticed how he huddled even more against my hand on his cheek. So I pulled her away.

"Don't you love me?" He asked me in a fragile voice. What gave me goose bumps. I swallowed hard.

" How can I? If the things I hate are more important to you. ”

“ So it's over now? ”He asked in a whisper.

" It's over. I don't want to see you anymore. ”I nodded.

I took his hand from my arm and left.

........

It was in the middle of the night when I heard that David was coming home and not alone. But there didn't seem to be many people because it was really quiet in the living room. I snuck from my room into the bathroom. After Sven left me at home, I was downstairs in the kitchen for a while and was amazed that my uncle made bread in the middle of the night He told me that he had to go to the airport in half an hour and that my aunt had already flown yesterday. I talked to him until he drove away to distract me a little and not think about what was in the club earlier When I went to my room afterwards I tried to distract myself with reading, but after I had to read the second sentence for the third time I gave up, but I couldn't go to sleep either. I was still too upset so I made up my mind to go. I took off my clothes and grabbed my bathrobe and went into the hall when I heard David and his friends. I quickly closed the bathroom door behind me, went to the shower, and turned on the water. When I noticed that there was a bucket of water in the shower. I picked it up confused, then realized that my aunt always filled a bucket with water to water all the plants up here before she left. She probably thought that David would not be able to do that and that they would perish in her absence. But I didn't know why the bucket was still full. I was getting a large towel out of the closet and hanging it over the shower curtain. When I was suddenly taking a strange smell and just as I was about to turn around confused, I was held by the hips and noticed the pungent smell of alcohol. I winced when I heard Nick's voice close to my ear.

"Schttt .." he said only softly.

"Nick." I let out a breath. Then I felt him pull one hand away from me. Pulled my bathrobe from my right shoulder and leaned over and kissed her. I stiffened immediately. Pushed him away and slowly turned to him and saw that he looked even worse than before in the club. He had probably thrown himself in more. He couldn't even catch my eye. His eyes looked back and forth in confusion as if he couldn't see me properly.

"Are you going crazy now." I said a little louder.

“What did you not understand about the end? I do not want to see you. GET OFF! ”I continued to hiss and everything in me began to simmer. He just stopped and tried to fixate on me, but he didn't succeed in the least. So I went to the door.

"Then I'll just disappear." When I said that, I was grabbed hard by the arm.

"JOLINA." Nick hissed now. It hurts the way he held my wrist. I wanted to tear myself away so that he pushed me against the wall, pressed me against her and I was squeezed between her and him. He pressed against me with his whole body.

"Nick." I said in a trembling voice. Now his gaze in my and me a lot of goosebumps all over my body. I tried to push myself away from him, so that I moved back and forth and so my bathrobe slipped off one shoulder on the other side. We both looked down immediately. Now my shoulders were free and my cleavage was visible. Fortunately not anymore, but I noticed Nick's gaze fixed on my bare skin.

"Nick." I whispered hotter. I had such a premonition and I was not mistaken. He let go of me with one hand and stabbed over my shoulder. Over my collarbone and further down.

"Nick please .." I pleaded. But then I noticed how his hand went between us and to the band of the bathrobe that still held the rest together. He gruffly undid the knot and tore the ribbon. I looked at him with a startled heartbeat. He wouldn't ...

"Nick, Nick look at me. What are you doing? ”Then I noticed how the coat opened a bit and he disappeared into it with his hand. I immediately felt his hand firmly on my hip. He squeezed hard and then drove down a little further. I began to panic more and more, I would like to pass out now. I wouldn't take it if he touched me anywhere. I had to swallow hard.

"Nick!" I said louder now.

" Please do not do that to me! I beg you. Please don't touch me like that. ”

“ Why not. I want you so much, why shouldn't I take what I want? ”I had to swallow again. When I heard his dark rough voice.

"Because ... because then I could never look at you again without hating you and I could ... never love you." When I said that, his eyes flew up at me immediately and I held my breath. His look was angry and it wasn't His look. He just seemed strange to me. His eyes were still almost black and red. He laughed and Blitz quickly pulled his hand out of my bathrobe, cupped my chin and pulled me towards him. Very close to his face. It hurt, but I preferred it that way. Immediately I was able to loosen one of my hands because he had created some space between us and quickly closed the tape with shaky fingers. As tight as I could and then grabbed his hand that pressed my chin.

"Nick." I tried again, but he cut me off.

"Shut up! Don't ever tell me again that you could never love me I know you do! You had a crush on me before I even knew your name. ”I laughed when he said that. I didn't know how I dared to do it in this situation, but it just came out. What did I get out of it? he pressed me firmly against the wall again.

"Why are you trying to hide your feelings from me, even though you know exactly that I have the same for you? Because I told you I wasn't a shit! Why don't you tell me that you love me too? ”He growled at me. His grip tightened even more. So that my whole jaw hurt and I got tears in my eyes. I tried to pull his hand away with mine around his wrist, but it didn't work.

“Because I don't love this Nick who is standing in front of me. I can't love a man who just loves drugs. You don't really love me. ”I managed a pained smile.

"Don't talk that fucking Jolina," he hissed.

"Can you remember the last time we were together alone and you weren't really booed?" I waited for an answer, but none came.

"Me neither," I managed to say sadly.

“I was with a junkie. Drugs were more important to you than me. I've shown you every time that I hate to see you, that I hate when you take something. I don't want to kiss a junkie, I don't want to sleep with a junkie. If so, then I want all of this with the real, real Nick. If he's the one I ... was in love with. ”His grip loosened for a second before tightening and he put his hand around my entire lower jaw. I had to squint my eyes in pain.

"Stop me full of brawns with your shit. Why don't you just say that I'm not good enough for you. That you are better. ”I wouldn't dare to do that. He just squeezed harder. I was just waiting for the cracking sound that would tell me my jaw was broken. He had such power that was incredible. I tried to get his hand off me again, but it didn't work.

"Nick." I exclaimed now because I couldn't take it any longer. I could hardly breathe. The shower was running all the time and the steam from the hot water took the air out of the room.