My happy place

Its been nearly a month, and mumma have no intentions of coming back soon. My day started early, instruct the maid , cook lunch before leaving, wake up my dad and rush to college. Rush home after the college, then tuitions and dinner, sometimes we ordered, or I cook. My cousins come over for a night every weekend with a lots of food, my aunt made sure we were good.

Every night I just lay on the bed, my mind shut, body immovable but eyes open. I couldn't sleep. It wasn't like i was depressed but it was something words can't express.

Kevin was there,  We spent all the time together in college, carol armaan and raaj joined us in starting but eventually drifted apart. Spending timw with him felt good. Being with him felt good. I was comfortable with sharing everything with him.

In the starting he was shy but now he talks a lot, everyday something about his ex, or cinematography or his home. He chirped whole day.

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As usual i reached late. Yet again was allowed in.

"Only 5 mins late ,huh?!" Whispered kevin "not bad"

"Shut up" i growled.

"How many hours did you sleep?" He asked cautiously.

It was like we knew everything about each other, we shared same thoughts, same stupid jokes, and exactly knew what other one is thinking. 

I just looked at him not knowing what to say.

"You didn't, did you?" He asked 

"I tried,okay. I just can't. You won't understand, god knows how you manage to sleep 8 hours" I snarled.

"Kavya, can you please read page no. 3 of pdf" said H.O.D. pdfs notes were sent online daily. Kevin handed me his phone, he knew as always i forgot to turn on my internet.

We spoke ocassionally, him telling me his imagination and how he will save me if the fans fell off. Class had only 3 fan,one above sir's desk and remaining two were from 18th century, they existed but never worked.

As soon as the lab ended we ran back to our secure place, window above the library. It was our happy place. We usually sat there for like an hour after the lab, except Wednesday and Thursday when we lectures ended at 4pm. 

"Any news? When will your mumma return? I am so tired of  tasteless food made by you." He asked.

"I have told you, don't. Ask. Me. This. Question. I don't know."

"Always grumpy" 

"I am not grumpy" i said realising i was acting grumpy lately.

"I know what you need"

"Hmmm.. same old, same old.sleep. I know. I have  some sleeping pills. I will be out whole weekend" i said with a evil laugh.

"What?!!!!...no i never said use  sleeping pills" in shock "don't you dare"

"Just kidding" i said - 

"You need peace" he said taking deep breath placing his hands on his lap.

"Yeah. Drugs?"  He gets really annoyed whenever i talk about drugs, alcohol or sleeping pill. I don't use them he knows. But annoying him was fun.

"Church. We have arranged an event for poor children. We will spend time with them and feed them delicious food" 

"No. No way. I hate children, you know that. I am not a rainbow girl."

"I didn't asked you, its my order." "Believe me. You will enjoy. Just come and pray. For me please" i hate these puppy faces.

After an hour of argument. I gave up and agreed. Sometimes he can really be stubborn.

On weekend, I decided to pickup rosh because I don't wanna be alone just in case a child pops up or some aunty approach me. Rosh loved the idea.

It took us more than an hour to find the church. Stupid road construction.

"Finally" we sighed.

Looking at the gate i thought this was really a bad idea. His family will be here and he is a pianist so will be with his church band. I looked at rosh and motioned her towards our vehicle, we are leaving.

She grabbed my hand and pulled me all the way to the first floor where everyone was singing and god damn dancing. So many happy faces.

We took our seat at farthest corner where no one can see us. Kevin was busy playing piano, singing loudly, not knowing i was here. 

I recognised his sister who was singing in mic facing us. Rosh pointed towards the large screen displaying lyrics.

I took my time to observe the surrounding but rosh started dancing and singing.

I looked at her and realised i am here to pray. I started singing along with them.

Hours passed by and it was time to leave, kevin still had no idea that i was there. So i decided to inform him before leaving. I saw a small window on his right, so i walked to the window and waved. 

"Omg! You came" he hopped towards the window.

"Umm... Yes, but i need to leave now, its late and-"

"Noo no no, just few more minutes."

I waited for half an hour, then decided to leave. Partly because my papa called and also I didn't want to meet his family"

I walked to the window again and waved him bye. But i didn't think he saw. But another lady waved at me, may be she was his mom, i was not sure.