LOGINI visited the doctor for full body checkup. According to him, everything is fine. I told him I sometimes feel that someone is squeezing my heart. But he insisted that I am fine and there is nothing wrong with my body. He has suggested to visit a psychiatrist. I am not sure about it. He said that due to stressful life these days it can happen and visiting a psychiatrist may help in such cases.
I am meeting Pratham after a long time today. He also got a male lead part in forward story of his previous drama. So, we are celebrating.
“Hi Buddy, how are you doing?” said Pratham
“I am ok my friend. How are you?”
“ I am fine but you don’t sound good. Has something happened? You know you can tell me about anything, right.” Said Pratham
“ I don’t know. I sometimes feel that someone is squeezing my heart. So, I visited the doctor and according to him there is nothing wrong with my body. He suggested to visit a psychiatrist because this could be due to stress.”
“ That sounds like a good suggestion. So, when do you feel this squeezing feeling? When did it start?”
“ I first experienced it on the day when we went on that dance reality show for publicity.”
“ok, that doesn’t sound stressful. Did something happened to cause stress?”
“ Nothing much except for that stupid male co-star of Pihu was touching her, pulling her close and had the audacity to lift her in his hands. I really wanted to slap him. He was not even thinking about Pihu’s reputation. I never lifted her in public. Even we were popular couple. I don’t like him at all. Ohh see now he has stressed me I felt my heart squeezing.”
Pratham was smiling.
“Why are you smiling? Do you find my health issues a joke? If this is all a big joke to you, I should leave.”
“Ohh sorry buddy. I did not mean to smile but I am sure that you don’t have any health issues physical or mental.” Said Pratham.
“How can you be sure? Have you become a doctor now?” I was really irritated by him at that moment.
“ No doctors degree required to deduce your condition. Think carefully and tell me does this heart squeezing happens when you think about Pihu and Ritesh or anyone else with Pihu.” Asked Pratham.
“I don’t know.”
“Ok I will tell you about your ailment when we meet again on our college reunion in a 2 weeks time. Till then just keep in mind what you were thinking or seeing when you got this squeezing feeling. Promise me.” Said Pratham.
“I promise”
Pratham is my friend, philosopher and guide in life. He is almost never wrong and I trust him implicitly. So, I decided to indulge him. Though at times he gets very weird.
“Ok forget about all this. Let’s party and be merry.” Said Pratham.
I came home at 2 am with my manager Rustomji.
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“Virat, why are you crying? What happened? Are you missing your family? Son, talk to me.” Said Richa Mam. She is the senior most in the house. She was the top actress of her time in late 80s.“Huh. I am not crying Mam. Must be some dust in my eyes.”“Virat. I have children of your age. I can easily tell when someone has allergy and when they are crying. It is fine if you don’t want to share. But you don’t need to cry alone. I am there. Think of me as your mother.” Said Richa Mam kindly.My control on tears slipped after listening to her and I started bawling like a little boy. She just hugged me and said nothing. After 5 whole minutes, I was feeling so much better.“Virat, are you crying? Varsha said you are crying your heart out.” Pihu came running.“No Pihu. I just have dust in my eyes. But thank you for caring.”“Ohh Virat.” Pihu just hugged me tight and sat beside me.I am feeling like all energy has come back to me.
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5 days have passed. I have fought with Akash every single day and at one time, we even pushed each other. I have destroyed every task given to us and one time even broken furniture. This is now getting tiring. I am not sure I can survive whole month.On the other hand, Pihu is now friends with both groups - Akash and anti-Akash. Everyone loves her and she has somehow become anchor to me. I sometimes think I will go mad if she is not there.I am not feeling good since morning. How can I stoop so low to just change my image. I don’t what was I thinking coming to this hellhole. What kind of actor am I if I need to trick audience using this stupid reality show. I must not be a good actor, this is the reason Rakesh Sir wanted me to come to this show. Everyone wants to get rid of me. I know I am not the most pleasant person but am I so bad? Yes, Virat noone even wants to see your face in person that kind of worst person you have become. Do you remember how you spoke badl