LOGIN5 days have passed. I have fought with Akash every single day and at one time, we even pushed each other. I have destroyed every task given to us and one time even broken furniture. This is now getting tiring. I am not sure I can survive whole month.
On the other hand, Pihu is now friends with both groups - Akash and anti-Akash. Everyone loves her and she has somehow become anchor to me. I sometimes think I will go mad if she is not there.
I am not feeling good since morning. How can I stoop so low to just change my image. I don’t what was I thinking coming to this hellhole. What kind of actor am I if I need to trick audience using this stupid reality show. I must not be a good actor, this is the reason Rakesh Sir wanted me to come to this show. Everyone wants to get rid of me. I know I am not the most pleasant person but am I so bad? Yes, Virat noone even wants to see your face in person that kind of worst person you have become. Do you remember how you spoke badly to Rustomji and that day to Maahi. Your bad behaviour is the reason you are being punished. Nobody wants to bear you. They have sent you here to just get rid of you. If I am this bad, maybe, I should not get up from bed, maybe not eat anything, maybe not live anymore. I should die that must be the solution. But can I die, am I being selfish again? What will happen to my mom and dad? So, I just need to endure the pain till they are alive. I can end my life after that. Yes, I will not live even for one day more than them. Anyways nobody wants me in their lives. People do even want to talk to me. But Virat you cannot be selfish anymore. Because nobody is interested to know if you are in pain or people just want to see your beautiful face not the ugly person hidden behind it.
“Viraaat, why are you still lying down? Get up and come out with me.” Pihu said trying to pull me out of the bed.
My limbs seem to have lost the strength. She is not able to pull me but I am unable to help her. Why is she pretending? I know nobody can bear me. I am not worth the effort.
“Why are doing it Pihu? They are not going to show this to the audience. Only fights are mostly shown in the hour long episode. I know you don’t like me. In fact, I know that nobody even wants to see my face. So, please stop.”
“What? What are you saying and why? I like you very much Virat. In fact, I have always been very vocal about my liking to you. How can you even think I don’t like you. Have I not told you again and again that I like. You only always said that lets keep liking to reel life and not bring into real life. What has happened to you?” Pihu shouted.
Pihu likes me. She really likes me. But how can she like me. I am not likable. Maybe she just likes my face like everyone else. Or could she really like me? My limbs have started working now somehow.
“Or enough of this nonsense. Come out and sit in sunlight with me” said Pihu again trying to pull me.
This time I got up and let myself pulled by her to wherever she wants. If she doesn’t like why will she pull me, right? But how can she like you, a voice is trying to tell me. I don’t want to hear you.
Another two weeks have passed and tomorrow we will be evicted together from the house as was planned by the Producers.Pihu and I have been together almost every waking hour. She is so sorted in her mind. Always clear about her thoughts and feelings. We are so different. I am always overthinking and confused about my feelings. Though my life and future has always been well planned and I follow my planning strictly to achieve my life goals but same I can never claim about my feelings. On the other hand, Pihu literally lives in the moment. She doesn’t even plan her day properly.We were talking about future and investments and she has almost none except for the bare minimum which she was forced to do for taxes. How can a person not think and secure their future. She has no idea where she has spent all her money. Except for car payment and recurring deposit which her father has forced her to do, there is no account about all the money spent. I was baffled when s
“Virat, why are you crying? What happened? Are you missing your family? Son, talk to me.” Said Richa Mam. She is the senior most in the house. She was the top actress of her time in late 80s.“Huh. I am not crying Mam. Must be some dust in my eyes.”“Virat. I have children of your age. I can easily tell when someone has allergy and when they are crying. It is fine if you don’t want to share. But you don’t need to cry alone. I am there. Think of me as your mother.” Said Richa Mam kindly.My control on tears slipped after listening to her and I started bawling like a little boy. She just hugged me and said nothing. After 5 whole minutes, I was feeling so much better.“Virat, are you crying? Varsha said you are crying your heart out.” Pihu came running.“No Pihu. I just have dust in my eyes. But thank you for caring.”“Ohh Virat.” Pihu just hugged me tight and sat beside me.I am feeling like all energy has come back to me.
It has been 2 days since the truth and dare game. I can still easily recall the touch of her lips and it still sends shivers in my body. I am not sure why I keep remembering that simple kiss. It was not even some mind-boggling out of the world experience. It was just one simple small kiss and not even my first time kissing Pihu. We kissed in almost every episode of our series. We even shot love making scene. So, one small kiss is almost nothing.“if it was nothing then why do you keep remembering it.” That small voice in my head which I have since named N-Virat (short of nagging Virat) asked sweetly.“I don’t know and don’t you start nagging again. I am already confused” I said trying to shut him up.“I think you are falling in love with Pihu” suddenly Pratham’s words came to me.“This cannot happen. This house is effecting me. I will not think about any of this. Virat you need to be strong. A little stint like this cannot impact your
“I will spin the bottle. Everyone sit in a circle please.” Pihu said excitedlyBottle pointed to everyone and eventually it pointed to Pihu. I really wanted to know what she will reveal or do because nothing is impossible for Pihu. More I know about her more curious I get.Now I know that she started acting in TV series and films when she was just 4 years old. Her whole childhood was spent going from one studio to another. She enjoys acting a lot and wants to do all different kind of roles. But she couldn’t enjoy her childhood and was always envious of other children from her neighbourhood. So, her children will not start any kind of work till they are atleast 15-16 years old.Her parents are not bad people but her working was necessary because they do not belong to high earning class. However, they never forced her to do anything against her wishes. She loves her little sister so much. Her words not mine. She is studying to be a doctor and Pihu is very
“Virat, let’s play truth or dare. Come see everyone is playing. Come please.” Pihu urged“Ok”Another 5 days are gone. These days my life has started revolving around whatever Pihu wants me to do and fighting with Akash and his gang.Yesterday, she got me to swim with her. Before that she wanted to eat something good. So, I ended up cooking for the entire house.We are also participating in each task and as usual fighting and destroying everything. I have not forgotten my aim of coming in this hellhole.I sometimes think that I would not have achieved my aim had it not been Pihu to keep me grounded. I am not sure why I never noticed that she looks so beautiful in Indian ethnic wear. No doubt her historical drama was so successful. Audience must have found it impossible to change the television channel after getting even a glimpse of her.2 days back, we had a task where she and I had to play king and queen while others had
5 days have passed. I have fought with Akash every single day and at one time, we even pushed each other. I have destroyed every task given to us and one time even broken furniture. This is now getting tiring. I am not sure I can survive whole month.On the other hand, Pihu is now friends with both groups - Akash and anti-Akash. Everyone loves her and she has somehow become anchor to me. I sometimes think I will go mad if she is not there.I am not feeling good since morning. How can I stoop so low to just change my image. I don’t what was I thinking coming to this hellhole. What kind of actor am I if I need to trick audience using this stupid reality show. I must not be a good actor, this is the reason Rakesh Sir wanted me to come to this show. Everyone wants to get rid of me. I know I am not the most pleasant person but am I so bad? Yes, Virat noone even wants to see your face in person that kind of worst person you have become. Do you remember how you spoke badl