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Chapter 5
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2020-10-02 09:17:59Lisa
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I tried hard to pretend I don't have a heart for my own benefit. Battling to act like my heart was a rock to fit in, in the society. I had buried my heart, for long as I can remember because a wise man once said 'the best way to not get your heartbroken, is to act like you don't have one'
But lets at least be factual here, I have a heart — a flesh. And I am broken. I am a human, and I have feelings. It's hard to dissemble here; it's hard being selfless to make others happy.
Saying some hurtful things to one's face is heartbreaking, and it's better to keep them hidden, even if they are true.
I was in doctor Edwardo's mansion. Father to Ares. A week had passed, and they refused to allow me to leave, saying I needed first to recover.I understood, from the fight I had with Rae, she split my head, and maybe that was the reason the doctor's family wasn't allowing me to leave yet. But I wanted to go and find myself.
After two days of unconsciousness, I was woken up by a dream. A dream which felt real and that was why I needed at least to try and know who I really was. As far as I could remember, I had been working for Rae. I had no idea how they employed me, but they said I worked for them for long. They treated me well. Especially Rae. So I felt comfortable. I assumed maybe I was an orphan. Because I never thought of family. But the dark side was, I never remembered any face to claim as family, except recently. The dreams I have been having.A dream woke me. In it, I saw myself in a building. I couldn't tell what sort of building it was but what I saw was two kids, a boy, and a girl crying.
I was seated when I saw they needed help, and when I walked to them, people started running up and down. I couldn't tell why, but it looked like something terrible was happening. The next thing I saw was, me trying to help the two cute kids with another man coming to my aid. A man I always saw whenever I entered Rae's home.
In the dream, I saw the man and me being so helpful. But something happened to the man. I suddenly saw him on floor bleeding so badly.
In Rae's home, they had a picture of the man they always visited his grave. Rae once told me he died a year and a half ago from an accident that happened in Hum building. And he was the prime minister's brother.
The dream felt real, and one thing I wanted to know was what really happened at Hum Building; Because those weird dreams had been sending me a message
It's impossible to dream twice about the same thing without it meaning something.
I put my shoes on and decided to leave the room. Maybe escaping could free me. I didn't care where I was going, but being far from the city could help me find myself. I could go looking for another job elsewhere.~^~
The more I walked, the more my head pounded. I had walked for twenty minutes since I left the house. Luckily, I managed to lie to the gateman that the doctor allowed me to go out for fresh air. A cheap lie but it helped me get out.
I rechecked my google map and saw I was close to a small town that was not known. I needed to stop at any moment before I could fall. My head felt sick.
As I tried to find where to rest, I heard a car pull over on my side and in a second, someone walked out. I wanted to run, but dizziness overpowered me. Turning to see whether the person wanted to offer some help, I saw Ares walking towards me.
"Where are you going?" He asked quickening to catch up with me.
"For fresh air," I answered. I was still walking without giving him attention.
"I know a good place you can have fresh air." He held my hand, but I pulled mine away.
"Fresh air. Alone! So thank you." I emphasized without stopping.
"You are sick, Lisa. How even did they let you out? We have a garden in dad's home you could have gone there."
"I am not a prisoner. And stop following me." He was not giving up. I knew that but still, I couldn't run away with him following me.
"How far are you going then?" He asked, with his voice lowered. "Melody...?"
"Just a walk. Can you please go back." I stopped then glared at him. "Go home. Go anywhere but stop following me."
"Why are you crying?" He asked, taking a step towards me, but I stepped back. "Melody come on."
"I am not crying." I whimpered drying up my tears. "I just want to be alone."
"Okay. I was on my way to see you. My father talked to me about you." He ran his fingers on his hair. "About your situation."
"Tell him I am fine. I have been too much to your family, and I'll find a way to pay you back. Tell him I am fine now and...I appreciate it." I truthfully said. I couldn't thank his family enough, but again, I couldn't trust anyone anymore. Rae had been kind to me only to get the worst treatment from her.
"No, it's about your skin. He said you could have a surgery which--"
I chuckled. "Wow... You know you could have gone straight to the point, just like the way Rae did that I am ugly. That is why you want me to have reconstructive surgery?"
"Melody, It's surgery because dad believes it's not a sickness; your skin was burned. What you are thinking and what Rae told you, is all about you. Dad sent me to ask you but if you don't want it's okay...are you okay?" He reached my shoulder when he saw me shivering. "You need to go back home you are freezing."
"Burns?" I was confused. "But how I have never been in a fire accident I-"
"Come with me, Melody."
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My fingers were playing on the cup of latte, which was in front of me. The more I played with it, the more my mind kept having some new pictures of me in a restaurant tapping my fingers following certain music. "What is it?" Ares made me snap my head up to stare at him. "It got cold with you just staring?"
I gazed at the cup and realized I was battling with my thoughts that the latte went cold. "Ares, please be honest with me. Has Rae ever told you who I am?"
"You are Mellisa. You are Melody." He answered with a smile on his lips.
"Can you even tell more about me? Am I Mellisa...no surname? Ever since I started working for Rae, I have never thought of visiting family...because I don't remember one, neither do I know one. I...I am just Lisa, whose skin turned out it was a burn and not a disease. Then why did Rae's family doctor tell me it was a sickness?" I rambled on as Ares looked at me, realizing that I was now serious.
"I have known Rae for six months, and she never mentioned a thing about you." He looked down. "I can help you find out. I have connections."
"No. Just let me do it. It's my mess to deal with, please do me a favor?" I sipped my latte. "Let me go. Let me get out of your lives. I know your family wants the best for me but...from what you said, the surgery might affect my memories, I don't want to forget some things. I already don't know myself and realizing I could forget everything is like starting from zero again." I announced as Ares nod.
"It's okay, Melody. If you don't want to pursue the surgery, don't force it. But I won't let you go. Where will you go? You can do that while staying here or at my parents." He wrinkled his forehead.
"I am done being a bother to people who don't appreciate me, Ares. Don't you get it? Furthermore, I am old to stay here. I should find myself a house." I explained
"I regret everything. I regret having left you behind with Rae because it looks like she said too many things!" He was angry.
"She said I am ugly." I smiled as I fought with the lump in my throat. "She called me a monster. An ugly monster." I sipped latte again. "She was angry, but at least she got to say what she always had in her heart. If she had a chance, she could have made fun of me just like her sisters." I silently started playing with my fingers as I lacked the words to continue. I could feel Ares gazing at me, but he was not saying anything. Then I felt his hand on mine as his thumb caressed me gently.
"Then why do you care. Tell me, Melody. What do you see of yourself? Because all I see is a pure heart, a clean soul, and a considerate person. What I see in front of me is a beautiful lady who is fighting herself. What are you doing to yourself, Lisa?" I was tensing; his words felt like he was the one with an ugly face and skin; he was serious. "Where is my Melody, who never cared what others think?"
My heart literary stopped. I gazed down at his hand on mine, and to be honest, it looked more beautiful than mine.
"Do you remember my first time I saw you, actually I saw you first before I got to meet Rae. I remember how you tried to teach my modeling team on how to pose for the camera and stuff. It called for my attention that I had to walk out of my office and watch you. I was so surprised to see a new face I hadn't employed, smarter than the existing team but suddenly, Rae pulled you away before I could get to ask who you were"
I smiled after remembering that moment. We had visited Spark organization where Rae had some business to do, and as I used to accompany her everywhere, that day was no exception. Since it was a business meeting, she left me outside, and at that moment, I saw a team of girls walking towards another building, and seeing how they dressed, I assumed they were models.
Since it was a thing in my blood, I decided to follow them and realized I had guessed right. They were taking pictures. It compelled me to approach them and try to teach them other poses, which some took seriously, and others were just laughing.
"But Rae had a meeting with you?" I questioned since I remembered Rae wanted Spark to do work for her father's campaign.
"When I saw you interfere with my workers, I told my PA to inform Rae to book a proper appointment so I could get a chance to see your poses. It angered Rae, and that was why she came to you and pulled you away." He explained, and I remembered the drive back home, Rae kept insulting the CEO of the Spark for not agreeing to see her. Who turned out to be Ares.
"You could have got me arrested." I laughed then sipped my drink, which, of course, was so cold. "Have you ever seen an advert for Olay Quench Lotion? A lady used one of the poses you used, and it turned out perfectly." He enunciated, and I was flattered. "The courageous Melody back then is totally gone, and even though some of my team made fun of you, you never cared, and that is why I liked you. I don't understand why Rae's words should change you, Melody. Be yourself. Appreciate yourself because I do, I don't see anything but a beautiful Melody in front of me."
"You are flattering me." I laughed, just assuming he was doing that to cheer me up.
"Then, you look even more beautiful when blushing." He smiled, and I looked away.
"Oh, please!" I stood and took the cup in the sink to avoid meeting his eyes. "But thanks. I can't see what you see in me, but your words made me strong again."
"And that is why I am telling you if you don't want to take the surgery, it's okay. It won't change what I see in you."
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