Chapter 12: Stupid Feelings

MJ

I WENT TO ALEXIS’ workplace because part of me wanted to apologize for what happened when we got drunk on my apartment, and because a huge part of me also wanted to see her. But what I’ve just witnessed made me realize how stupid of me to even think that I can have her when someone’s already holding her heart.

Fuck! Even pain makes a bullshit like me spits stupid poetries.

I tightly hold on to my motorcycle and accelerated on my speed. I squint my eyes as the road before me has become blurry. I am driving very fast—imagining that I am flying just so I could shake off the hurt that has engulfed itself in my system when I saw how Alexis’ boyfriend held her and kissed her in front of my eyes. Just the thought of them together makes me wanna smash this vehicle on the road.

But then again, I shouldn’t let Alexis consume all of me. There’s still a lot of fish in the sea. And fortunately, I happen to know just the right place.

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I’m at the bar. Wanna come?

I click send and almost immediately, receive a quick reply from Bella. Geez. Bella is so clingy and most of the time, she annoys me. But tonight, I kinda need such physical pull to clear my mind off.

I order a bottle of hard liquor and sits on the stool near the bar tender, waiting for Bella to come. I occasionally look at the beautiful and sexy girls dancing in front of me. There are also a couple of guys who would sit beside me but I shoo them away by saying “I also like the menu that you like.”

Man, that sends them running with a cringy face. I can’t help but laugh to myself.

“Hi.”

I turn to my side and see a girl wearing a tight-fitting dress with a neckline that exposes her almost average sized-boobbies.

“Hey,” I reply, pushing my chair near her. “You’re new here, aren’t you? It’s the first time I see you around here.”

The girl answers me with a quick peck on my lips. Woah, that was fast.

“That’s my way of saying hello to gorgeous women like you,” she whispers to my ears. “And I’m not new here. In fact, I happen to always see you hanging around in this bar. It’s a surprise you don’t have a girl with you now.”

“That’s a nice way of saying hello,” I reply, chuckling. “It so happens that my friend isn’t here yet. I’m waiting for her.”

“I see. I’m Rosee,” she says, extending her slender hand.

I’m about to reach out when a figure sits on my lap, blocking my face from the sight of Rosee. I laugh when I realize who that is.

“And I’m Bella—her fling, her friend, and her fuck buddy. Now move along bitch.”

Rosee draws a shocked expression and hesitantly retreats. I follow her through my gaze as she walks through the mob of dancing bodies inside the bar, swaying her buttocks from side to side.

“Damn, she’s so hot.”

“You shouldn’t have called me then if you want other hot girls entertaining you.”

Bella gets up and attempts to walk away but I stop her, pulling her back on my lap. “Wait! Come on. You wouldn’t leave me here, right?” I say as I flash her a toothy grin. “Oh shoot, the bottles almost empty—”

Bella rolls her eyes at me and I chuckle. She smiles and I pull her body to give her a kiss on the lips. My hands automatically brush through her slender back. I realize she’s wearing a backless little black dress that’s also above the knee.

“Let’s order another one,” she whispers as she breaks the kiss. She rummages through her wallet and a waiter immediately attends to her. I grin. This is why I like hanging out with Bella.

I draw a deep breath. I just have to shake these stupid feelings then believe that tomorrow, Alexis will no longer be in my system.

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