Mag-log inI opened my orange notebook slowly. This time I continued with the next lesson, a lesson that for me personally is quite fun to write about.
Ustazah was already sitting in his chair calmly and the children seemed some were still busy with the conversations they brought from class previous. But fortunately, when the ustazah started greeting, the children immediately returned to order.
Everyone seems to pay attention to the Quran Tafsir lesson well. This lesson became one of the most liked by children, because each ustazah explained, he always complete it with stories. Who doesn't love stories? Since childhood we may often hear stories. Even our father or mother told them before bed.
I also listened carefully to what was said. Almost everything the ustazah said, I tried to write it down in an orange and navy blue book with a picture of a guitar. I like notebooks with nice pictures.
Every child has the opportunity to ask questions. And my habit is, if other people ask a lot of questions, I prefer to just listen. Do not participate in adding questions. Afraid that his mother would be dizzy. But if the class is quiet, I just asked. Because I'm always curious about something I just know or hear.
Um .. talking about asking questions, earlier before the ustazah entered, my classmates were in a mess when Tama said that Arif loves me. I'm also confused about what kind of response. I'll just let Tama handle it.
Until he said and explained like this, "Calm down guys. Let me answer all your question with one explanation. Listen carefully ... "
Everything fell silent. And in the midst of silence, Arif suddenly entered the classroom. Tama immediately pointed at him followed by the gaze of the whole class.
"Eh, the person concerned came. Try here Rif!" Said Tama while pointing at Arif who had just entered the class. I'm getting excited. Cold sweat started pouring down my forehead. I was both impatient and terrified, what kind of explanation would Arif give to everyone in this class.
"Do you want Rif to answer?" Tama asked when Arif was already close to us.
"About?" Asked him confused. "The reason you are on the same bench as Nasrul." "Oh yeah, I really love him .."
Deg! I was immediately excited. All the children fell silent. They glanced at each other. And began to distance himself from Arif. Maybe afraid to be the victim of Arif's homo.
"What date is this, Tam?" Tetiba Arif asked something strange and in my opinion it has nothing to do with it.
Date? What is the relation?
"1st". Tama replied confused too.
But yet he still answered casually. "Month?"
"April. It's April 1st." Answer Tama innocently.
"April fools ..." answered Arif in a slightly long tone. Then followed by her annoying grin. Uh! Almost. I guess what.
"Eh, kalbun! Kirdun!We were already shocked, I thought it was real ..." A boisterous tone began to sound. Some people beat Arif because they were so annoyed that they had been fooled. I also didn't realize that it's April Fool's Day. How come Arif does it? He also made April Fools' Day everything. I looked at him once again. He was just still cheerfully laughing. As if it was the greatest joke in a boarding school. You rascal!
( Kalbun = dog, kirdun = monkey)
"I swear, Rif. Your face is really serious when you say you love him. I was shocked. But I just stopped, yes-yes. I don't want your image to be damaged, that's why I just kept quiet. But Nasrul asked, that's why I answered. aja. Uh, let it go. You know this! " Obviously Tama was annoyed.
"Haha. After all, you're really serious Tam. I'm talking like that. I just meant to hurry up. And I just happen to remember that it's April Fool's Day. So I'll just work on you. Alright, disband, disband ..." The children automatically obey Arif's instructions. They immediately returned to their respective places. Some of them were still laughing at Arif's act.
I took a deep breath. You can also suffer from heartburn and die, after a long time you approach this one child. I have to start to keep my distance.
"Tam ... let's go to the future again! I'll just sit with me. I hope it's April Fool's Day." Take me to Tama before returning to my seat.
"No, no. Let's just go with Arif first. I want to feel a few days sitting in the back. I'm bored in front of you."
"Seriously? Are you sure you won't miss lessons?"
"Yes, Rul. Great. Calmin weh. I'll borrow your notes later. Haha."
"Do not want." I don't know why I immediately responded like that.
"Why, why?"
"I just want to lend a note to me with my classmate."
I immediately returned to the place. Shit! Why am I talking like that? What would Tama think of me?
I regret my stupidity while bending my face on the table. Touched my eyes and head to my forearm.
"Excuse me, can I sit down?" Arif's annoying voice again.
I immediately lifted my face and gave him a way to sit down without a word. Even the stare was reluctant.
"Don't be so mean. It's going to rain."
I ignored him at all, until the sign of going to class rang. Just when the jaros stopped, the ustazah who was teaching Quranic interpretation entered the classroom.
In the middle of the lesson, because the ustazah told us to write down a verse in the Koran, I was really curious and asked Arif, "Rif .." I said quietly as I continued to write and didn't look at him.
"Yes beb .." He immediately looked at me. "Ish!" I stomped his leg.
"Aw!" Luckily he screamed softly.
So that everyone doesn't pay too much attention to us.
"So don't call like that. I want to ask seriously."
"Yes, yes. What do you want to ask?"
"How come you called me, with the pronoun me-you? Just when I was talking to Tama, you just used to use me ..."
"You pay attention to such detail?"
"Yes. I'm not paying attention. But just immediately. Already ah, it doesn't matter what I pay attention to. You just explain!"
"Do you want a long answer or a short answer?"
"Hmm ... Is it different?" "Yes, it's different."
"Yes, it's just short." Answer me so quickly.
"Because you are special." He whispered straight into my ear.
I paused. But I don't want to be affected by her rags all day long. That's why I immediately asked again boldly.
"How long?" On purpose. So he can think a little. My annoyance continues to be with him!
"Because you are special .... in my life and heart." Said he emphasized the special word and sounded it longer.
I spontaneously stomped his legs harder. And now he's screaming really loud.
"Aw ...!"
"Why are you Arif? Have you finished writing it?" His screams managed to steal the ustazah's attention.
"Na'am, ustazah. Arif asked for more. He said he felt less. Earlier he was arrogant and told me that he felt less like ustazah. That's why I pinched him. Mother said last week, I taught you, we can't be arrogant." I immediately jumped in, took over the report to the ustazah, before Arif answered. I can't just keep quiet this time.
"Oh I see, Rul. Alright. You add ten verses below Rif yes. A bonus for you. It must be finished now. If not, you will later bring your writing to the ustazah's house." Ustadzah's house is in a hut environment, so it is fine if you are asked to collect assignments to her house.
Take that, Rif! It's also hard to write verses all this time, they keep adding them. My mind is happy.
All the children laughed at the ustazah's answer. When I looked at Arif, he was actually busy smiling vaguely, "Thank you, bro. You mentioned my name in front of children and ustazah. Your voice is beautiful. So my name sounds beautiful just now."
My turn is silent now. What do you want your child to do?
"I already told you, I want you.
All part of you, beb. Completely. "
What the .. can he really read my mind? Go to hell, Rif!
"No, I can't read your mind, bro. I only understand your language, even though it doesn't say it. I understand who you are."
Shit! My defenses are down. I really can't keep on being liked. I can't just keep quiet. Okay, finally my rebellious streak emerged. I'm trying to join in his game.
"Rif ... I think I've fallen in love with you. Can you give me whatever I want?" I whispered directly into his ear, while blew a little of my breath down his neck. He smiled with joy, then nodded.
"I want a hot kiss, which I have never felt in my life. I want you to be able to do that to me tonight, no matter what, but you can't get caught. If you fail, I'll never fall in love with you again. , and you have to stay away from me, forever! "
He immediately stared. But then he smiled casually again. How annoying this kid!
"You just know what tastes good, beb. I won't even ask you to! Anything for you, beb. Wait for me yeah?"
It was my turn who finally came back completely silent. I immediately pretended to focus on writing again, while he continued to stare at me. I feel uncomfortable being stared at like that.
Who was controlling me earlier? Why can I say that stupidly? Arif, right? But, but, there's no way he can kiss me right? He slept a lot. Ah, at most he never could. I won't dare!
But what if the earth and sky support it? How is it, universe?
Help ...
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The jaros rang again. That's a sign that today's lesson is over. I'm relieved. Ah, finally, I can breathe better after this. Literally, I don't need to be close to Arif right now. I have to find a place to hide, calm down and confide in. Fill in my diary again as usual.The general activities of the students here after school are praying asar, receiving punishment which will be announced by qismul i ‟lan or doing extracurricular activities. My extracurricular? Looks like scouts are the ones who are obliged, hehe. Because I don't really like sports. I think walking back and forth between Hammaam is also a sport. Anyways my body is thin So I don't need to be more tired with exercise.As usual, I tidied up the contents of my bag, and I entered the subject books last time to the cupboard. I'll take my bottle and drink first. I have to calm down before praying after almost all day long I've been bothered by Arif.Crazy man. Just tell him all day long, up to 10 mosaic