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Tapos na ang mga araw na pilit niyang tinaguan ang realidad. Dahil ngayon ay kailangan na niyang muling kaharapin ang katotohanan. At ito ay ang hindi lang sa sarili niya umiikot ang mundo, marami pa siyang tao na naghihintay sa kanya lalo na sa sariling kumpanya.

Masasabi niyang naghilom na kahit papaano ang kanyang puso, hindi na iyon ganoon kadurog kagaya dati. She just realized with the help of some psychiatrist she met in different countries they've been na what she felt towards Leo is not just a pure love. She became obsessed with him, to the point na kaya niyang masaktan at saktan ng lalaki basta huwag lang itong lumayo.

Pero hindi pala ganoon ang pagmamahal, dahil kapag of pinagpatuloy lang niya ito ay baka magkaroon pa siya ng mental health issues. Mabuti na lang talaga at hindi makasarili ang puso niya.

At hinding-hindi niya makakalimutan ang sinabi sa kanya ng psychiatrist na Pinoy na nakilala niya sa Vietnam.

"You fell in love with him when you were young, and you hold on for that idea for so long. Your mindset hugged the idea that he's the only man you could like. And when the time came where he noticed you, you did everything just to make him stay. But in the process, you unconsciously hurting yourself, you became a masochist, to the point that it's okay to be hurt, than to be left out. And loving someone not all about that, you should love yourself first before someone else. Because the more you love others than yours, you're lowering yourself. What you felt is not just love, you're also obsessed with him but not severe. So, go find the old you again, it's not too late, dear."

Ito na nga siya ngayon, pilit bumabangon mula sa pagkakalugmok. Dahil hindi lang ang lalaki ang kanyang buhay. This is her reality.

And wearing her designer clothes and accessories bought by her Titas, she glamorously walked towards her office.

"Welcome back, President."

Everyone giving her warm welcome and some of them was in an awe. Who would right? She just got a new hairstyle, it was trimmed up to her shoulders and it was dye with hazel brown color. It's purely idea of her Tita Sha, mas bagay daw kasi sa kanya nang mapadpad sila sa salon sa Maldives.

"Madam, you're here," her secretary welcomed her upon entering her own office.

Tanging tango lang naman ang itinugon niya dito bago nagpatuloy sa paglalakad papasok.

"Sorry to ruining your moments, Ma'am, but this one is urgent for your confirmation," sumunod pala sa kanya ang sekretarya.

Nilapag na lamang niya ang bagong bag sa table at tamad na umupo sa kanyang swiveling chair.

"What is that all about?"

Maayos naman itong tumayo sa kanyang harapan, "Our partnership with Marasigan Accounting Firm was about to expire through contracts. That's why we are asking po for your information if we'll continue po. Subok at sigurado naman po ang serbisyo nila sa atin."

She picked up her personal pen on the drawer, "Go find another Accounting Firm. We're no longer be their partner."

Her decision is final. Ayaw na niyang magkaroon pa ng kahit anong koneksyon pa tungkol sa binata. Kung gusto niya talagang maka-move on ay kailangan niya itong gawin. She don't want to hear his surname or first name.

Halata naman ang gulat sa mukha ng kanyang sekretarya, "But they did great po. Based on our statistics —," hindi na niya pinatuloy pa ang sasabihin nito, she cutted her off.

"Who's the boss?," she may sounded like a bitch boss but no one can ever dared to change her decision.

Para namang naupos na kandila ang dalaga, "I'm sorry, Ma'am. I'll informed the people in charge po."

Tumango-tango naman siya, "Good. And I've heard from Vixen that there's delay in the shipments of important documents?," she's back.

"Ah, yes, Ma'am. Pero napapadala pa rin naman po."

"Tell that courier that we will no longer entertain their service. Go find another one, this time sana naman ay 'yung mas maganda ang pagpapadala. Hindi pwede 'yung nade-deliver naman. What if it was urgent? Edi tayo ang sira sa mga clients?," she stated a matter of fact.

"Okay po, Ma'am. Copy," her secretary even noted it on her notepad.

"Give me the new lists of pending projects. And after that you may go, and continue what you was about to do," muli niyang wika at pagkatapos ay inabala na niya ang sarili sa pagbubuklat ng mga folders na nasa kanyang table.

"Alright, Madam. I'll be back," at naramdaman na niya ang pagpihit nito patikod palabas sa kanyang opisina.

Naiwan naman siyang mag-isa at pilit na inabala ang sarili sa ginagawa.

"READY FOR tonight, babe?," magiliw na tanong sa kanya ni Cia habang nag-aayos ito ng kanyang sarili.

Natatawa naman siyang tumango dito, "Yup! Sino ba 'yung iba pa nating kasama?," she just fixed her hair in a high pony tail.

"My co-designers, Toni, mga lagi ko ring kasama sa gimik."

She's just wearing a black bralette and a maong short, paired with a black killer heels and a smokey looked makeup made by Cia. While her friend wearing a hanging sando and a ripped jeans paired with black boots and a fierce makeup. Para lang silang pakawala ngayong gabi.

And this is her first time again going in a bar after months. How she missed this.

"Oh, akala ko ba busy ka sa work?," she tried to mocked her.

Umirap naman ito sa kanya at maarteng tumayo mula sa vanity chair, "Duh! Party-Work Balance, girl," she even giggled.

"Imbento ka talaga, Concepcion," she laughed again.

"Whatever! Let's go na nga at baka kanina pa nandoon sila Heaven!," at walang pasubaling itong nanghila palabas ng kanyang condominium unit.

"Excited makahanap ng lalaki?," she teased her again.

"Gaya mo ko sa'yong di maka-move on sa abogado niya!"

Rebuttal it is.

MABILIS silang nakarating sa bar na tinutukoy ng dalaga sa Makati. Maingay na ang buong lugar nang makapasok sila sa loob.

Sumaludo pa nga ang bouncer ng high end bar na ito kay Cia. Hindi halatang madalang dito ang gaga.

"Guys! I would like to introduce my hot chick friend of mine, Antoinette!," matinis na boses ni Cia ang bumungad sa limang estranghero na nakaupo sa isang malaking couch.

"Sakit talaga sa eardrums ng boses mo, Leticia," natatawang turan ng isang babaeng may pink na buhok.

Actually, iba-iba ang kulay ng buhok nilang lima, mukha lang silang rainbow ngayon.

Cia giggled, "I have a beautiful voice kaya sabi ni Mommy!"

"Gaga! Sinungaling nanay mo!," the violet haired girl spoke up.

Cia raised her middle finger on that girl, "Like I care, ube!," at hinila na naman siya nito paupo sa bakanteng espasyo katabi ng lalaking may kulay blue na buhok.

"Kaibigan ka ba talaga nito ni Cia? Buti napagtiyagaan mo, girl," base sa boses nito ay bakla ang lalaking kumausap naman sa kanya, kulay red naman ang buhok nito.

"Ingay niyan sa department namin, nakakarindi pa 'yung boses kapag nakanta," pang-aalaska naman nung isa pang babae na may kulay orange na buhok.

Tanging tawa na lamang ang naitugon niya sa mga ito. Hindi nalalayo ang ugali ng lima kay Cia.

Puro tawanan ang namutawi sa kanilang table, lalo na at puro komedyante pala ang mga kasamahan ni Cia. Ni hindi na nga niya namalayan na nakailang bote na sila ng alak.

Mabuti na lang talaga at high tolerance siya kaya hindi agad siya tinamaan ng alak. At ngayon nga ay nagpatinaod na siya sa maingay na tugtugin na nililikha ng DJ.

She excused herself on their circle at magarbo siyang naglakad papunta sa alon ng mga taong nagsasayaw.

"Let's get wasted everyone!," the DJ shouted at the microphone while changing the music in the more party song.

"Whooo!"

Mas lalong nagwala ang mga tao sa kanyang paligid kaya masaya rin siyang nakisabay sa saliw ng musika. She's dancing like there's no tomorrow. Dancing like everything happened before will be gone.

While grinding her body with the rhythm of the music, she suddenly felt a person closer to her behind. At imbis na lumayo ay mas lalong pa niyang nilapit ang sarili sa estranghero.

She moved her hips in a more seductive way. Damang-dama niya ang pagsayaw na parang kawalang hayop and she also felt the bump on stranger's pants behind her.

"You're so good in dancing," the guy behind her spoke up using his sexiest and manliest voice, hawak na siya nito ngayon sa bewang.

She showed a lopsided grin even the latter won't see it, "Everyone in this bar are just like me."

Naramdaman naman niya ang hininga nito sa kanyang punong-tainga, "But you're the sexiest," his baritone voice was so deep!

"And your tongue is so sweet," she uses a metaphoric words.

He laughed a bit, pati pagtawa ay gwapo, "Wanna taste it?"

"You're so blunt," she answered back.

"It's better to be prank, than to lose in having you, babe," his hand are still on her waist, massaging it a bit.

"You never seen my face."

Patuloy pa rin ang pag-indak ng mga taong nasa paligid nila. But them, they are like just dancing in a box, small movements, at hindi pa nilalayo ng lalaki ang katawan nito sa kanya.

"I've been watching you with your colourful friends, babe," he spoke up again, and now he is sniffing her hair.

Bahagya naman siyang natawa sa ginawa nitong palayaw sa mga kasamahan ni Cia. Pero kungsabagay, totoo naman ang sinabi nito.

"Really?," she faced him now in a brief of seconds.

At halos matutop niya ang bibig sa gwapong mukha na sumalubong sa kanya. Para itong Adan na hinulog ng langit sa sobrang kagwapuhan.

Pero syempre wala pa ring hihigit kay L— nevermind, hindi na niya tinuloy sa isip.

"Wanna go somewhere?," he asked, touching her cheek now.

His eyes are so blue. Napakaganda nitong pagmasdan.

She smiled, "Sure. What's your name?," this is her first time asking someone's name.

Ngumiti naman ito ng pilyo, "Lev, 'bout you, babe?"

"Toni," ito rin ang unang beses na binigay niya ang palayaw sa estranghero!

"Let's go?," he asked again.

Matamis namang ngiti at tango ang iginanti niya dito, "Sure."

SHE just found herself a minute after inside this luxurious car, kissing the guy she just met in the bar.

He is so experienced. The way he sucked and bit her lower lip, it's so sensual. His tongue expertly exploring her insides.

But when he was about to removed her top ay agad siyang natigilan.

This is wrong, her mind shouting that.

"Why, Toni?," Lev asked her, halatang nabitin sa pangyayari.

"I'm sorry, but I can't do this, Lev," she honestly answered.

Naguguluhan naman itong tumingin sa kanya, "Hindi ba ko magaling humalik?," may bahid ng disappointment ang boses nito.

She laughed, "You're good, Lev. But I think we can't. I'm sorry," tanging naituran niya at bahagyang hinalikan ang lalaki sa pisngi bago niya napagdesisyunang lumabas na sa sasakyan ng binata.

Naiwan namang tulala ang huli, at hindi na nito nagawang pigilan ang kanyang pag-alis.

"I can't still give in my body on anyone except him," she is now talking on herself.

At hindi na niya alam kung paano pa siya nakabalik sa loob ng bar. Parang nawala ang lahat ng alak sa kanyang katawan at gising na gising siya.

This is so insane! Pinalagpas niya lang naman ang napakagwapong Adan!