All Chapters of Have you Ever been in Love?: Chapter 11 - Chapter 20

"There are still Alicia, Janni and Michelle left," Kathi reminded me carefully."But it's not really certain yet," I contradicted weakly.“Your mother will change your father's mind and the school will agree. What's in your way? By the way, while you were away I looked at the information about your host family. José Diaz and Naiara Comez, both will soon be 22 and, as I understand it, will soon be engaged. And I googled a bit, the place is actually by the sea, ”Kathi explained with a beaming smile. I smiled half-heartedly back."I prefer to call the others from home, okay? I'll see you at school tomorrow, ”I said and got up."Okay. I promise, it'll be great. ”Kathi hugged me again and took me to the door. I got on my bike and made my way home, now it was noon.I wasn't particularly keen on hurting any more of my friends, but Kathi was right - the faster the better. My father greeted me briefly, but didn't bring up the

You cannot know what your life will bring.You can only be yourself and go the right way. ........The last few days have passed me without my really realizing it. I stopped seeing the others because I felt like I had to say goodbye alone. I needed rest to make it for myself to somehow find an inner closure. I longed for the day of departure and at the same time feared it, but I couldn't really think about which of my feelings predominated.My mother hung on the phone almost the whole last day and consulted with Kathi's mother, while Kathi and I had to make do with our cell phones and at the same time packed our bags. I had spent half the day accepting farewell greetings from relatives and friends and doing a little small talk and so we were finally in a hurry, even though we had planned everything down to the last detail. The flight was in the morning and we wouldn'

I didn't think that I could sleep while I was hundreds of meters in the air, but somehow I dozed off and was only woken up by the pointless announcements that informed about where you were. Eventually I gave up and kept myself awake by thinking about what to expect at the end of my journey. José had written that they would pick me up at the airport and I was nervous about what that meant - did he mean the parking lot? In my mind's eye I saw myself wandering around the airport, confused and disoriented, until I was found by security men ...I was so lost in thought that I only heard the announcement about the landing when the person sitting next to me got up and took her hand luggage out of the Fished compartment above the seats. Startled, I looked at the clock, the time of the flight had literally flown by. I barely noticed how we landed and finally stopped because it was suddenly in chaos - everyone ignored the request to stay seated and pushed their way into the narr

“Have you recovered a bit? The food will be ready immediately. ”Naiara took plates from a cupboard, which I took from her out of habit and distributed on the dining table. I was surprised and grateful that she didn't switch to English as soon as I was there, now I didn't feel so much like an outsider."Yes, I needed the shower." I sat down, opposite me was José (such a mean place, how should you eat sensibly and without being totally embarrassed? At least I had an excuse to look at it) and at the Side Naiara. As a precautionary measure, I had thought about what I could ask if there was a tense silence, but it never came to that. Not all people seemed to have communication problems like me sometimes, at least the two of them kept a casual conversation going with admirable serenity, so that after a few minutes I started chatting casually (communication knot burst, then I could not be stopped) and from my family, Osnabrück and told my school.Maybe

The rest of the day passed too fast. We spent most of the time on the water and I could have stayed there a lot longer. Germany seemed incredibly far away to me, but it wasn't an uncomfortable feeling or homesickness, even if I caught myself a few times thinking about how the others would like it here, my family, Kathi, Nico.I felt good, accepted and respected, even if everyone was older than me. Serena and I played beach volleyball against the boys and we lost a lot because I was so bad, we went swimming in the ocean several times and only went back up to the house when Naiara called for dinner. We ate on the little terrace at the back of the house and sat there until the sun went down. When David and Serena said goodbye and I went to bed, I was still warm from the meal and this time I left the window directly open. I was tired from all the movement and postponed the text message, which was due again, to the next day.I was surprised how easy it was to treat Jos&eacu