Chapter four

Because of you, I laugh a little harder, cry a little less and smile a lot more

♥

Cassie

I stormed off angrily to my room,which was covered in a thick darkness. I decided not to switch on the light so I don't wake up a sleeping Nene who decided to occupy my room since I wasn't going to be around. She didn't even need to ask for a change of clothes cause hers was always left in my closet incase she wanted to sleep over. 

Switching on my reading lamp,which was so dim that I could barely see a thing, I quickly took off my dress before changing into my nightwear. My eyes drifted to a part of my reading table which had a picture frame of Sam and I smiling cheekily at the photographer. That was during our graduation ceremony he made a promise that he would never breakup with me no matter what. 

And now, all he could tell me today was I don't have feelings for you 

I like yetunde

Am sorry cassie... 

What happened to those promises of not breaking up with me 

What even happened to us

Why today of all days!!!! I was sobbing hardly now

" you know what?! Fuck you Sam "I whispered aloud as I quickly gather all pictures of Sam and I, throwing them all in an empty box. As I sobbed harder I kept tearing off his pictures off my wall... It only made me to breakdown more

" cassie " I heard a voice startle me. I didn't even realize I had woken Nene up. She didn't switch on the lights Instead she shifted closer to me, wrapping me around her bosom as she patted my back 

" what happened? What of Sam? Talk to me!? " she asked and though I wanted to pour out my heart to her. The only words that could come out that minute in a crooked voice was 

" he... Broke.. Up.. With me " I said in a whisper as I sobbed loudly. She didn't say a word instead she patted my back gently again. 

After some minutes of crying. This time the lights were on and I was sitting on the bed with my legs crossed while Nene was standing. Continously hissing while I narrated to her what happened. She finally spoke

" let me get this straight... So he almost stood you up "

" yeah! " I replied shrugging 

" then he tells you you're the sweetest a thing that ever happened to him... "

" yeah! "

" and then he becomes as an ashole and announces his intentions "

I sighed. Nene was asking like she was doing some investigation yet I had to answer her

" yeah"

" without any particular intentions if not liking that bullfrog called yetunde"she said as she huffed

" like what even happened to us? We even.... " I trailed off as my voice cracked. Nene came over to sit beside me as she relapsed back into silence 

I huffed aloud " Nene I don't think I can even forget about him " i said truthfully. Considering he was my first love and first everything, the first guy I ever dated, the first guy I ever slept with... Yeah I had my first sex when I was 17.not because it was right but because it felt so right that I was doing it with the right person and now that right person turned out to be the first guy to break my heart.moving on is so going to be tough for me. 

Nene smiled sadly as she brought my face to her chest again, then pulling my chins up she said

" look at me cassie," she called as I looked up at her with tears blurring my vision. She wiped them off with her thumb as she smiled grimly while I brought down my face 

" cry all you want cassie, yes cry and make sure there are no tears left But!" She paused 

" let this be the last time you'll cry over him " she concluded. I glanced up at her giving her a smug smile before breaking into a loud fit of sobs... I just wish I could get over him. 

" you'll be fine" that was the last thing I heard Nene say before I drifted off to sleep

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Nene's p.o.v

I was having a nightmare. A nightmare only me knew about, a nightmare that was always made me suffocate at night. It was becoming so unbearable that I had to sleepover at cassie's house. So when she told me she had a date tonight, I didn't know how to react. I've always had my nightmares and when I feared it, I always slept over yet I never told cassie about it so how could I tell her now? 

This night seemed worse, I had the nightmare again . This made me wake up while breathing hard as I clutched my neck. I was panting really hard before I heard someone sobbing 

" fuck you Sam... " well, that could only mean one thing. That cassie was back from her date. But she sobbing and tearing off the pictures of Sam on her wall was something I didn't get. So I called

" Cassie ! " she turned back startled as I patted her back in consolation 

" what happened? What of Sam? Talk to me Cassie! "I ask all at once and the only reply she could muster out was

" he.. broke... up... with... me" I didn't know what to say and all I could do was pat her back... 

Minutes later she had narrated how he broke up with her and it annoyed me that he had no reason to do that yet he choose to mess with her... Seeing cassie breakdown like this made me so sad. The last time she felt this much pain was when her mum died. it was so painful that she was made to join rehablitation class. Though that was when I met Toyo and cassie . not in the rehab class tho but on a Sunday evening. This story is for some other time