First lesson

One day, it should change . Like almost every day, I sat alone in my seat, fought back tears at the end of school and packed my school bag.

The class was already empty. I strolled slowly down the hall and as I stepped outside, Kate came towards me. Quickly put on a friendlier mine purple. I wasn't in the mood for an interrogation.

I couldn't hide it from her for long anyway. It was almost a miracle that I made it this far. But, with Daniel and Sem, she's had a good distraction lately. Every day she had to think about how to impress both of them.

She seemed to be in a good mood, which I didn't expect after leaving her alone again earlier.

"Tell me, what was the matter with Daniel, he half ran to his car as if he didn't expect to get away from here," she said again in one breath. He's been doing that for days, but it's good that she only noticed it today.

“How should I know, Kate. You can ask him personally ”, I evaded irritated play.

She thought about my idea for a moment and smiled contentedly.

"I'll drive you okay."

"Yes, thank you, that's nice of you." It was already decided anyway. She put on a pair of oversized designer sunglasses and started the engine.

"I also wanted to ask you something else," she said casually and looked at me and I prayed that she didn't see anything that might raise questions. At that moment I would probably have put on one of these monster glasses voluntarily. But since I happened to have none with me, I tried very hard to look completely relaxed.

She put into gear elegantly and we finally drove off.

“I wanted to ask you if you would like to go out tomorrow night. We should take advantage of the nice weather and treat ourselves to a few cocktails. “We” meant people I hardly knew. And neither, mind you, Kate. Still, she was of the opinion that these people were just about her level. She saw my skepticism, apparently I was able to reflect my thoughts on my face. If i wanted With Daniel, for example, it wasn't about will. It was more a question of whether I could hide my thoughts from him.

“You are also welcome to bring someone with you. I'll ask Daniel and Sem first thing tomorrow if they'd like to. It is definitely not easy to settle in here. And the way Daniel had behaved earlier, it didn't look like he had already succeeded. ”- she put on a pitying expression.

If she only knew to whom he owed this. Also, I often had the feeling that he didn't care about settling in Jacksonville. Unfortunately, the only thing that mattered to him was having me by his side. I hoped once again that I was wrong.

I closed my eyes for a moment. What she had just said blew me away. I tried my best to ignore Daniel for my own protection and she just ruined it by inviting him too. I took a deep breath and considered canceling. I didn't have to come with you.

But it couldn't go on like this, I couldn't avoid him forever. I saw that now. This realization came out of nowhere. But basically I already knew it on the first day. I say yes, I'm good at suppressing painful things. And there will be situations like this all the time. So I decided to at least try it out. He's not a Monster Lila. He's just a boy that you seem to have fallen in love with and he scares you with it. Give him a chance. And yourself, - I talked to myself in my mind. My heart felt a little lighter. The pressure I had built up finally eased. I was ready.

"Yeah sure why not. I'll be there, when does it start? ”- I asked with a fleeting smile on my face. What I felt at that moment was fear and joy at the same time.

I had to feel my way to the new situation. She looked at me with a smile out of the corner of her eye. She was satisfied. It looked like she was hoping for exactly that answer. I got out when we parked in front of our house.

“Thanks for driving,” I said briefly.

"Thanks for accepting," she replied with a smile.

I admit that it hadn’t happened often before that I accepted so easily and quickly. I think that puzzled her. Kate wasn't stupid, so she could add up one and the other.

The rest of the day I was completely over the moon. From time to time I had doubts whether it was really good for me to get involved with Daniel. I knew only too well that he would want to use his chance in a flash.

At the end of the day I was completely exhausted and had a headache from thinking about it. But I couldn't really sleep either. In the middle of the night I quietly turned on the CD player. Then I finally fell asleep, completely exhausted. And just before I sank into a deep sleep, I felt cozy warmth on my cheek.

I tried not to think about Daniel all morning. Don't drive yourself crazy, I kept telling myself. And just as we parked in front of the school - Kate had picked me up and the white Audi drove up too.

Daniel came today with Sem. The two got out and Daniel seemed visibly nervous. Many times he got his car keys down. He was always so perfect that I almost scared to see him so nervous. Daniel gave me a fleeting, half-confused look and looked away again without greeting me. He looked a little sad, which made his beautiful blue eyes darker. I had to look away, otherwise I would have probably stared at him again and I wanted to avoid that. That should stop today. He shouldn't see that he was almost driving me crazy. It would be ridiculous. In every way.

Sem smiled at me on the other hand, why shouldn't he? I had no problems with him. They were half past us when Kate cut them off. Daniel didn't seem really surprised about this, though. If I hadn't known better, I would have said that he already knew what she was about to ask him. But it was impossible. Although, well, it wasn't that impossible somehow. If he could read my mind - of course only theoretically - then he would know about yesterday's conversation between me and Kate. That kind of made sense. For me at least. And he should have noticed that yesterday I was completely off the mark. And then logically he knew my answer to Kate's invitation. Maybe that made him so nervous.

"... yes, and then I wanted to invite you to come with me," I heard. Instead of giving her an answer, he looked at me throughout the conversation as if asking for permission. Astonishment made his face freeze.

I could only stare at him for a moment again. I wanted to give the whole thing a chance, or rather myself. I wanted to test whether I could survive an evening with him and that's why I gave him a short smile.

He looked skeptical, so he wanted to ask me, "Are you sure you want it?" I tried to answer him in my head to test my theory. "I'm not sure, but I would like to try". He smiled at me in relief and said yes to Kate. In me, however, a very strange and completely new feeling spread. He had actually noticed my thoughts.

How should I deal with this knowledge now? In any case, I had to digest it first.

His nervousness from the moment was blown away. As if he knew that this conversation was going to happen, but he doubted my answer, which he now seemed to know, to the end.

The first step was taken. When I entered the classroom, Daniel was already in his seat, at our table. He was wearing a very nice, light blue shirt, which only emphasized the color of his eyes. I have to admit I haven't paid attention to what he was wearing for the past few weeks. I tried not to look at him at all. As I approached the table he looked up - not surprising that I was almost in front of him - and smiled at me. It was a smile of relief, I saw it in his beautiful blue eyes, which were somehow lighter blue than I remembered them. I suspect it's because of his mood at the moment. Sad, meant deep blue, happy light blue.

"Hello Daniel" - I returned his smile and looked at the floor because I didn't know how he would take my sudden change of heart.

"Hello, Lila," he said in his soft, angelic voice. It almost knocked me over and I was happy when I sat in my chair, which gave me security. I unpacked my things, as usual we had math in the first lesson. I was just blissed inside and grinned to myself. If anyone saw that, stop it Lila, I told myself. Beside me I heard a low chuckle, which was so low that I apparently shouldn't have heard. I knew where it came from, he had rummaged through my mind again. It was very strange, but nothing new. I was absurdly starting to get used to it. Daniel apparently had a gift, from time to time it appeared in people. "Daniel, stop it," I ordered him, only half serious in thought. He fell silent and turned his head to me, his eyes still smiling. I knitted my eyebrows and looked at him insistently.