Chapter 12

Lonely - justin bieber 🎶

The air is cold and evenly caressing my skin..the dark sky watches me with it few glittering stars.. 

 "Hmmmm" letting out a deep exhale 

My hair strands whip my lips and cheek as the cold breeze blows

   

   

There's a sofa outside...who must have it carried down here..

Must be one of the departmental lecturers , I thought to myself as i take a seat spreading my arms on both sides of the sofa arms and stretching my legs forward then crossing the left over the right.

          

        

I close my eyes.

        

I feel so calm now.

Silence really is peaceful, you dont just know it yet.

   

         

Something light and cold..maybe slippery swipes through my tummy to my narvel swiftly...

 I experience some sort of speedy shock and goosebumps running through me now, a chill suddenly crept up from my chest and spread through out my upper limb..at that instinct I quickly open my eyes

"Snakee!" Opening my eyes and feeling alarmed just to see Jayy smiling 

 "Renee..."his warm breathe emanates

     

     

What the actual fuck! What was Jayy doing here..I tensely snickered a gaze around my surrounding making sure I was truely alone. Wow, what to do now....

"Jayy..."my voice cracks a little

  

I don't understand what's going on, "could you be more disrespectful..!"

I feel insulted from such touch..I shrug and manage to get up.

He pockets his hand..still smiling and some what flexing his height..was that to make me intimidated.

  

I walk a few metres away to the left and place my hands on the rail.

  

      

My subconscious seems to be two. One for making me walk here meaning she enjoyed such touch and craved for more and the weak other not able to make me go back inside to be with the others.

however, was he ever going to get the chance he seekd for

      

     

The door creeks open to reveal IT coming around but is on the phone with someone and is really into the talk but you may never know.

she may just be her lackadaisical self right now, not like I even laid hope that she'd catch his attention on purpose.

 I feel something spiky resting upon my right shoulder and arms around my waist, Jayy!

  

I'm able to stand my ground and not allow this stupid subconscious make me turn around because by then, what if i kiss him. No, i dont want to..how can I even imagine that.

  

       

Now I get it...Jayy totally wants something from me but whatever it is I'm totally not interested as there's no form of attraction on this end.

          

A quick peck lands on my cheek,

"Stop!" My voice comes out harsh and a 

little bit higher than normal as I dont want to cause any form of attention from those inside but I need to show him I can stand my ground.

 He moves away grinning.

"Thats my roommate,

my friend advanced towards her

and she goes out loud" IT mocks over the phone

"Yea, she's a child, 15? Or so..." she laughs out loud to the other person on the phone.

  

Gosh, I'm super irritated by this set of people. I never thought I'd come across such. She was just not nice or i dont even know...getting involved in intimate stuffs doesn't necessarily make you a bigger person especially not with someone you're not even least attracted to

  

My face must be looking fury by now...

I walk away and can obviously hear my feets stamping to the ground .

I gotta control this..telling myself as I'm almost in the class.

       

I let out a soothing breathe and open the door to the class room.

As i take a step forward, our eyes pierces through each other's soul.

it grew heavier without getting any old.