CHAPTER 5

“Let go of my hand!” I order him again clenching my teeth tighter and one glimpse on him tells me that he is not ready to let go. I let my eyes linger on his darker gray eyes for a transient second and then I look away.

“You are very intriguing, Bella. You make me want to know you more,” he eyes me with his impassive eyes, his face void of emotions and that makes it hard to tell what is on his mind.

He looks mysterious yet hella attractive something I so hate.

I guess we somehow share some characters. The impassiveness, shutting people out and ignoring people's presence.

I am super irritated but I can’t even fight him because apparently he is stronger than me, way too stronger than me and he is taking advantage of that to torture me mentally, emotionally and physically something I don’t appreciate.

If he won’t let go of me in the next two minutes I will lose it and only God knows what will happen next.

He is giving me anxieties and I fucking hate it. I can do worse things than strangling someone and I am trying my best here to stay composed. I hate feeling helpless and I hate it when I can’t even defend myself.

“For the umpteenth time today, the name is Belle!” I snap at him and he gives me a dry short smile, a forced one of course. Does he ever smile genuinely?

Another similar characteristic.

“Bella!” he insists and I roll my eyes.

“Stop calling me Bella!” I seethe at him but he just stares at me perceptively and I wish I could get a hint of what’s in his mind but his face is not giving anything away, so impassive, so guarded and yet so perceptive. I guess he is trying hard to analyze me like I am doing him.

“Why does it irritate you so much when I call you Bella, the two names are the same I mea…”

“You are so dumb if you think Belle and Bella are almost the same.” I tell him sarcastically. The difference is obvious, right? “There is an a in Bella and an e in Belle and the pronounciation is not similar.”

“Just that Bella is cooler than Belle…” do I even care which name is cooler than the other?

Your guess is as right as mine.

State university is so full of jerks Lucas and Jake inclusive and I am so done with state University.

How am I supposed to spend even a month with people like Jake and Lucas? They are so annoying. Did I have to meet these jerks today? Lucas and Jake are the creepiest people I have ever met save for Nina and mom.

“You are such a creep let me go!” I glower at him but he makes no effort of letting me go and it is so aggravating.

“Even a small thing irritates the hell out of you.” He observes, his eyes on my face and I try pulling myself away but he holds me tighter.

I don’t appreciate men holding me at all but what other choice do I have? I give up fighting him and I just glare at him. I am trying very hard to control myself right now but he is giving me no choice. My hands are clasped and I know I have small semicircles on my palm already.

“So you joined the school in the course of a semester, which campus did you transfer from?” Like he hasn’t irritated me enough to last me a life time in one day already.

“You are so nosy, Lucas! My life is none of your business.” I am quick to answer him.

“You almost killed my best friend today!” ooh yeah, I almost did. “I am just concerned.”

“And that makes my life your business? You are so lucky that your friend is still alive!” I shout at him. “And the last thing I need is someone showing me any concern.”

“We have a shrink in SU just so you know….” he is going past the limits now. A shrink?

“Lucas, let go of my hand before I do something worse than just strangling you!” I hiss at him.

“You remember my name?”

“It is a common name. Did you offer to drive me so you can agonize me in my parent’s drive way?”

“Who is torturing you? I only want to know you like I told you before; you have weird characters and something about you is ….” He is loosening his grip on me. “Totally odd.”

“I appreciate your efforts so much Lucas, but the last thing I need right now is a creepy person like you as a friend” I tell him yanking my hand from his grip.

“I don’t do the friendship shit, Bella, so get your head out of the clouds.” He smirks.

“That makes the two of us, Lucas.” I shout hopping out of his car in the next second.

“You are welcome, Bella,” he shouts at me, sticking his head through the window.

“Whatever,” I take a deep calming breath, to ease my anger and I stride towards the house without even turning back.

Lucas can go to hell for all than I care.

“Belle, you are home already how was your first day in SU?” Mom asks me immediately I walk to the family room. She never gets tired of being a creep, does she?

“Very great,” I tell her sarcastically.

“I knew you would love it there,” either my tone was not sarcastic enough or her level of tracing sarcasm if fucking low, it is probably the second one.

“I have prepared something for you, I figured you might be hungry,”

“I am not hungry I will just head upstairs.” I tell her and start walking upstairs to my room. I open the door and toss the bag on the floor.

I overdose my sleeping pills hoping that I will get some sleep before ploping myself on the bed. I know it is not recommended but I need to relax after such a long day and taking the prescribed dosage can’t help me sleep for long.

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I wake up the following day at 8:00am, I have been sleeping for almost fourteen hours and I am fucking glad that no one tried to wake me up. The night was one of the few nights that I get to sleep peacefully without nightmares and obviously I always wake up in a very cheerful mood and a very bright face.

Elsa is busy at the dressing table applying some make up. I sit on the bed to watch her and she turns to face me giving me her best smile, the one that goes all the way to the corner of her beautiful eyes and I smile at her lazily.

“You are in a good mood,” she observes. I hardly smile in the morning.

“Didn’t have nightmares and I slept for more than three hours in I don’t know how long, what do you expect?” I drowse and stand up to stretch before making my bed and she is just staring at me her eyes beaming in excitement.

“You have a class at 9:00 am, right?”

“No, I ain’t going back to that fucked up school.” I say stoutly.

“Yes you are, Belle. Come on don’t give us a hard time.” She stands up and walks towards me.

“I almost strangled your friend yesterday, I don’t want that to happen again.” I tell her and she sighs heavily, she sits on the already made bed and pulls me to sit close to her.

“I have a proposal.” She suggests cheerfully.

“Anything else but not going to SU,” she pouts at that.

“Give yourself two weeks only in SU if things get worse then I will talk to mom and dad.” I start protesting but I make the mistake of looking at her face.

“Do it for me, Belle,” she pleads, giving me that kicked puppy look.

“How am I even supposed to say no to you?” she makes everything damn hard for me when she gives me that look. Everything about Elsa reminds me of Bella.

“So is that a yes?” I nod and she practically throws herself on me the next second. I hope I won’t regret this decision.

Ten minutes later I am standing in front of the dressing mirror wearing some eye liner, Elsa suggested the romper short and a matching pink laced heels. I look hot if I must say.

“You look hot sis,” she comments as I make sure to hide my Scar with my massive hair before slinging my bag and following her outside.

“Mom can I have my car key?” I ask hopefully but she shakes her head. I kinda expected that.

“I am not ready to lose you, Belle, the last time you drove you almost lost your life.” I roll my eyes, same story, same excuse. They exchange knowing looks with Elsa and I walk out Elsa following me closely.

“Did Lucas give you a hard time yesterday?” She asks me when we get in the car.

“He is an ass,” I tell her and she giggles.

“But he drove you home which was a surprise,” is that supposed to make me like him?

“Doesn’t change the fact that he is an ass.” She shrugs carelessly.

“But he is a good guy he knows how to mind his business and he hardly talks with people.” I noticed that.

“But that doesn’t make him less of a jerk.” She shrugs again starting the car. I put my headphones on and play my favorite playlist as we drive to SU.

Thirty minutes later Elsa pulls in the parking lots and I hop out of her car, she walks over to me and volunteers to walk me to my first class.

“Marya will sit with you in class…”

“I don’t need someone to babysit me, I will behave.” I promise her but she insists on Maya sitting next to me.

“She won’t talk to you, I gave her clear instructions and you won’t even notice her.” I shrug as I stand next to the entrance of the lecture hall.

“Let’s go I am walking you inside,” she takes my hand and leads me to where Marya is sitting, she is busy with her phone probably chatting with Lucas.

Lucas didn’t strike me as the chatting type.

“You came to class early today.” Elsa tells Marya snatching her phone and she looks up smiling at m sister and I can’t help but contrast her reaction and how I reacted yesterday when Jake snatched my phone. She is calm and I went all psycho on Jake.

“Who are you chatting with, Lucas?” Elsa asks her handing her phone back and Marya laughs lightly.

“We both know Lucas doesn’t chat back.” She tells her.

Maya turns to look at me and waves at me flashing me a smile, she proceeds to take her bag from the seat next to her and I sit down without saying anything to her.

“I will see you after class, okay?” Elsa tells me before walking out just as Jake walks in.