LOGINNot because I wanted it anyway, I wanted it from him. It suddenly seemed very important to me.
"No, Phil ..." I said. "Ask me right away, okay?"
I looked him in the eye, he looked a little confused. When he saw what I was getting at, his eyes became a little embarrassed, but he apparently wanted it as much as I did.
I could see the sparkle in his eyes despite the darkness. Those warm, familiar eyes that I loved so much.
He pulled me a little tighter and stroked my hair. So full of love and longing again that it half overwhelmed me again.
Now I felt his toned body, which suddenly touched my bosom. Jesus Christ, what was he doing to me, this desire was almost unbearable. The other hand stroked my cheek, which immediately began to throb, although he barely touched it.
I couldn't move and just stared at him. Breathe Lila, office, I said to myself.
"You are so beautiful, Lila. I've dreamed of doing exactly what I'm doing for so long. ”He says it with so much melancholy in his soft voice that I got a glimpse of how long it was in reality.
“I would like to hold you in my arms forever, to tangle my fingers in your beautiful curls and… to kiss you… I don't want more than that, just that. And I don't like to think yet that this evening will end one day is. "
he took very gently, than it is to be rejected if could break my face in his hands and pulled it in closer, his lips touched mine very carefully, as if he expected any moment. As if he couldn't quite believe that his wish to be so close to me was just coming true.
It tingled everywhere. In my head, in my stomach and a little bit in my little heart ... Suddenly all my doubts that something could go wrong were blown away. This variant was just beautiful and I enjoyed the moment.
His tongue touched my lips somewhat unexpectedly, the feeling was alien to me, but I wanted more of it.
It literally electrified me.
I very carefully caressed his tongue with mine and suddenly my breath came faster automatically. I clawed his neck with my hands and a pleasant, comforting feeling spread inside me. That was new too, but not uncomfortable.
He pulled me closer to him and his breath was hot and quick too. Our lips moved to the rhythm and our tongues just melted away.
It was so overwhelming and I kept wondering why I had taken so much time with it?
I lost track of time. It didn't matter either, as far as I was concerned it could have gone on forever. And I think he was no different.
Phil kissed me gently again,
ending our wonderful kiss.
Now he looked at me again, somewhat embarrassed and searching, as if he were looking for something in my eyes. Maybe a bit of hope that he could give me a little bit of his great love. He hoped so much I could see it.
"It was beautiful ..." I said and closed my eyes to review the last few minutes. I didn't know if it was enough for him, I hoped it was.
"What did you want to ask me earlier?" I asked him when I came to.
"Lila, I ..., I fell in love with you ... And what I wanted to ask you, you can surely already guess.", Phil said and looked at the floor as he had done before. He wasn't uncomfortable telling me. He looked at the floor because he was afraid that I wouldn't reciprocate his feelings.
What was she proud of? That it was people from wealthy families who convinced them to go out with us? It was pathetic how superficial some people were. I suddenly felt disgust. Yes, as I knew Kate, she was proud of this, I thought sarcastically. Sometimes I was happy that we were so incredibly different on some points. Then at least I didn't have to think about something like that any further."I just hope they're not philistines," I said quietly, not knowing if she heard it.She just parked her freshly washed convertible and I saw where we would spend the evening. I rolled my eyes and ran my thumb and forefinger over my nose. Of course it had to be “La Habanna”, what else? The most expensive cocktail bar in Jacksonville, right on the St. Johns River Promenade.Was it only superficiality surrounding me, I thought annoyed? I already didn't feel like getting to know the people who were waiting for us. Hoping to see a white Audi, I turned to all sides.
I'm so sorry, Lila," he said briefly and smiled again."Me too, Daniel" - my voice stopped for a moment. "I meant the last two weeks" - I admitted quietly.I was really sorry, he didn't deserve me to treat him like that. His face twitched in pain, as if he were reliving the agony of the last few weeks in his heart."I am also ... very sorry" - he replied, also embarrassed. What did he mean by that, I didn't understand, what was he so sorry for? He had done nothing at all, except that he existed. I had to postpone my questions because Mr. Brown was just entering the classroom. Damn. I could not wait. I quickly tore a piece of paper from my pad."What are you sorry for Daniel?" - I wrote on it and pushed him over to him. Without looking at me, which was another sign of the fact that he already knew what was on the piece of paper, he picked up a pen and wrote something on it. It took half an eternity before he passed the note over to me unnoticed.&ld
One day, it should change . Like almost every day, I sat alone in my seat, fought back tears at the end of school and packed my school bag.The class was already empty. I strolled slowly down the hall and as I stepped outside, Kate came towards me. Quickly put on a friendlier mine purple. I wasn't in the mood for an interrogation.I couldn't hide it from her for long anyway. It was almost a miracle that I made it this far. But, with Daniel and Sem, she's had a good distraction lately. Every day she had to think about how to impress both of them.She seemed to be in a good mood, which I didn't expect after leaving her alone again earlier."Tell me, what was the matter with Daniel, he half ran to his car as if he didn't expect to get away from here," she said again in one breath. He's been doing that for days, but it's good that she only noticed it today.“How should I know, Kate. You can ask him personally ”, I evaded irritated play.
Sem Callahan came towards me on the grand staircase. I haven't had the opportunity to meet him yet. Nevertheless, I knew automatically that it was him. Sem was a little shorter than Daniel. His hair was a little darker, but he had the same deep blue eyes. He smiled at me as I passed him. He too had a tremendous charisma, but by far not the same as Daniel had. It was different with him. He hadn't blown me away like Daniel had the day before. Obviously it wasn't a fundamental problem what I had with the Callahan's. It was entirely up to Daniel.Before entering the classroom, I parted my hair and sorted my curls a little. I did this more often because it avoided headaches. I walked into the room and the first thing I saw was Daniel's face. Was it so impossible to get my plan through? I felt angry at myself. Consistency was probably not one of my strengths. He smiled at me with his beautiful eyes. I looked away quickly so as not to fall into his gaze again. He was a drug. You kne
Kate was good at this, but I ... I thought I was different. But Daniel triggered something completely unknown in me. And I'll say it again- it really scared the hell out of me.I thought about it all day, couldn't follow the lesson and still couldn't find a solution.Our eyes met every now and then and every time I had the feeling that his eyes reflected my thoughts and my soul. As if to tell me, "Hey, I understand that you're confused."It calmed me a bit that he seemed to know how I was doing . And I knew he knew. On the other hand, it was so daunting that I tried to look away again as soon as possible. Of course it wasn't normal to think like that, but it felt so familiar, as if it had never been any different between us.When the doorbell rang and it was the end of school for today, I was slowly trotting down the big stairs when Daniel suddenly walked next to me. I took a deep breath and looked at him. His presence cost me strength.“It's
Oh, I was uncomfortable because everyone was naturally staring at me. I glanced around quickly before scurrying to my seat with my head bowed. I had one right by the window, which I was very grateful for.Here and there some of them talked about their experiences they had made during the vacation. I only took it with half an ear. I've never had much to do with my classmates. So I just didn't care what they were talking about.As usual, I automatically looked out the window and suddenly thought of Phil who was standing in the parking lot earlier. Occasionally he looked over at me as if to say that my time to think about it had expired and that I should now make up my mind.He didn't make it easy for me. I tried to put this topic off as long as possible. But it was clear that it couldn't go on much longer.Fortunately, the voice of Mr. Brown, the math teacher, broke my mind and I had to look up. He was a short, thin man, in his forties, and was half bald. Y