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2020-10-20 21:16:58With her hands on my shoulders Sally said "Hey just breath. In, out, in, out. You can do this."
I walked over to the door and opened it, to be greeted by his beautiful smile.
Once we were inside the living room I apologized for the size of my place and the lack of seating.
Hugo didn't seem to mind as he said "It's okay, it's a nice place you have and I'm just grateful I'm finally allowed to see it"
The smile on his face made my knees go week. I still can't believe that he is into someone like me.
We watched two movies in the end and ordered pizza. I'm sure Hugo has never ordered a takeaway pizza before, if I'm going off the face he pulled when he tried it. It was so funny, his face was bunched up in disgust, but to his credit he finished the slice.
We were all cleaning up the mess we had made when Hugo came up behind me and snaked his hands around my waist and kissed my cheek. I blushed so hard. In the corner of my eye I could see Sally smilling and she winked at me when she noticed I could see her. That made me blush even more. If that was even possible.
Sally excused herself and went home. Me and Hugo were sitting on the sofa with a glass of wine when he suddenly asked.
"Will you accompany me to a business meal next weekend?" He looked into my eyes "everyone is taking their wifes and girlfriends" he winked at me.
I went to bed that night unsure if I would go with him or not.
** 17 years earlier **
Me and my mummy were happily playing in the livingroom, she smelled like cigarette smoke and alcohol, I hate the smell but I smiled and carry on playing. It was rare for her to play with me.
There was a loud bang on the door so I ran to open it.
"NO!" Shouted my mummy "DON'T OPEN IT"
It was too late, I had opened the door. The next thing I know I am being carried out the house kicking and screaming. I was shoved inside a car, I looked out the window, my mum was bent over crying her eyes out.
What was going on? I thought
"MUMMY! MUMMY!" I screamed while banging my fist against the door window.
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I am inside my new families house. I am scared and I feel alone, even though there are other children here. Some of them seem nice but a few of them don't.
One day I was in the dining room building forts, I liked to build them and hide in there all day.
One of the boys who lived with me came in and started to help me build it, I thought he was nice, but I was wrong.
His name is Ryan and he is 12 years old, I have not long had my 7th birthday.
We started to play fight inside the fort and he started to get rough, I shouted "get off me, you are hurting me"
He sneered at me and said "oh but you like it"
He then started to put his hands on my legs and was running then up and down. I was kicking my legs to try to get him off me but he just kept on laughing. I hated his laugh.
He started to do things that I didn't know about. It felt wrong, I knew it was wrong.
"NO! get off me" I cried.
"You will love it trust me" he smirked "your so tight"
I completely froze and switched off. My mind decided it was going to shut down, I couldn't move or speak. I felt dead.
After he was done. He got up and said "don't tell anyone about this. I didn't do anything bad. I just don't want you to get into trouble. Okay"
"Okay" I replied quietly.
I didn't know what else to say. It felt wrong and bad and I hated myself and him.
A few weeks later I was sat down at the table where I used to build forts. After that day I no longer did that.
"Darling, we have some very sad news to tell you." Said a woman I have never seen before. She had black hair, brown eyes and a face covered in too much make-up.
She looked at me with a sad expression "your mummy is no longer here with us, she has gone to heaven and will be looking down on you and keeping you safe."
I burst into tears. I couldn't hear what the lady was saying after that, my tears had drowned her out. I cried every night for as long as I can remember.
Ryan started coming to my bedroom in the middle of the night, after the first time. It was the same as the first time. Me crying, him doing things I didn't wont to. I was scared to go to sleep. I even tried to hide in my wardrobe and other places a few times but he would always find me, and punish me for hiding.
After I found out about my mum I gave in and just let him do what he wanted. I learnt the more I struggled the more he would hurt me. I also didn't have anyone anymore who could save me. I only had myself.
** present day **
I woke up crying. I had another nightmare. I shook myself awake and dried my eyes using the top I slept in.
"Shit, Sophia, pull yourself together" I said while walking to the bath room.
After a full day at work, I got home to put my feet up. I felt really drained and tired. Tomorrow night is the meal for Hugo's business meeting. I need to get lots of rest, I just hope I don't have another nightmare.
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** Meanwhile in the Styles livingroom **"Hugo. Please take a seat." My dad said to me, so I did.I only came round as mum and dad said it was important."You know me and your mum have wanted you to get married and settled down for some time. Well..." he paused and mum took his hand in hers."When Harriet, Charles's wife, was pregnant with the twins, we decided if one was a girl you and her would get married once you was of age." He sighed and mum took over."Unfortunately after the birth Harriet and the baby girl had disappeared from the hospital. Charles and Lewis were taken to a different hospital a few hours after they were born, as he had a few issues that need specialist care. When Charles went back to the hospital to pick up Harriet and his baby girl, they had vanished. The hospital said they had no record of her or the births." Mum now had tears running down her cheeks. I didn't know what to say. What can I say
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"I don't know if I could ever forgive him for hurting my Sophia." Dad said and got up to go to bed."Night son.""Night dad."The next day Sophia came up to me and said that Sally her best friend was coming over. I can't wait to meet the woman who has always been there for Sophia. If it wasn't for her Sophia wouldn't be here now, Sophia said so herself."Sally is coming over, she should be here in 15 minutes." Sophia was happy, like really happy. I could tell Sally ment to world to her at this moment."I can't wait to meet her." I smiled.Sally nocked on the door."I'll get it" Sophia said as she rushed to answer the door.They said hi to each other as the hugged. When they pulled apart Sophia brought Sally over to me."Sally this is my brother Lewis." She smilled "Lewis this is my best friend Sally."I said hi and smiled at Sally. She was breathtaking, with her b
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'What arranged marriage? It can't be for me. As far as my parents know I am still seeing Sophia, surly they won't do this while they think I'm dating someone else?' I questioned myself in my head.They finished that conversation and moved on to talk about other stuff. At this point I decided to go to the bar and get drunk. I've had enough of this gala already and I just won't to go home.After about five shots and three wines I decided to call it a day, well actually Lewis decided that for me."Hugo man. We need to get you to your car, you need to go home. I think you've had enought to drink.""No man. I'm good. I'm goooood." I slurred and chuckled at the same time. I was starring to see two of him as he put his arm around me and lifted me off the stool.Lewis helped me walk over to my car and put me in the passenger seat. I guess he is going to drive me home.We we're driving in a awkward sil
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"Yo...your daughter?" Said both Debbie and Henry at the same time.The look on their face was of pure shock. They know everything that had happen with my wife and daughter, they were the ones who helped me through it all. Debbie was best friends with Harriet when it all happened, so she also took it hard."Yes, we have finally found her." I exclaimed with a huge smile on my face.I could see the confusion on their faces, even Hugo looked confused."I didn't know you had a daughter, it's a shame she can't be here." Hugo said with a smile, not realising he has already met her."Yes it is a shame." I sighed.I really wanted to have a go at him for what he has done to Sophia. Even though she hasn't told us who the father of the baby was, both me and Lewis believe that it was Hugo, given the timeline and everything thing.All I could do was smile at him and swallow my words, I would be making a scene if I voice my tho
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I have spent the last three days at home being looked after by both Lewis and dad. It has been nice to have them with me, it's not how I thought I would be spending the first few days living with them.Today I have decided to go and see Hugo to let him know I lost our baby. I don't expect anything from him but I need to get it off my chest and tell him so I can move on from this. Don't get me wrong I will never forget my baby, it will always hold a piece of my heart.Once I got to Hugo's office I started to get nervous. It was the same as last time, I am once again sitting in the waiting area.I was looking around and noticed that a woman had gone into Hugo's office with a bag of food and then left almost as soon as she entered. I took that as a opportunity that he was alone having his lunch.I got up from my seat and walked to his office door, luckily for me his receptionist has left her desk for lunch, so it was all clear. I knoc
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** Lewis point of view **Everything went by in a blur.The ambulance had come along with the firefighters. They had to cut Sophia out of the car, it was heart breaking to see it all happen.As I was getting checked over by the ambulance crew, a police man came to me to ask me questions. I answered the best I could but it happened so fast I couldn't really remember anything."Thank you for your time" the police officer said. "We will now take statements form the witnesses. If we have anything else to ask you, we will get in touch."I just nodded my head, I was in shock. All I wanted to do was get back to Sophia and make sure she was all right.When Sophia was finally cut out of the car, it felt like it took them a lifetime to do so, she was rushed into the ambulance."Please can I come to?" I pleaded to the ambulance staff."Yes. We have to leave now."
