LOGINAlexa is just your regular teenager. What are a couple hardships and relationship fails a girl can't handle? Come to talk about undiscovered feelings for someone you should never fall for. Join Alexa in a world that doesn't just revolve around just eating peanuts and excess gummy bears. Who knows? Maybe you might find something that puts you down tight on your seats.
View MoreThere are the moments when you feel like something beautiful is right ahead of you, maybe physically, maybe mentally, maybe emotionally or maybe even in your subconscious. Right now for me it was the latter.I don't know why but my lips are stretched into a blissful smile and I'm not even fully awake yet. My eyes are still closed and I'm still in that sleepy haze between wonder land and real life. Maybe it's because of the extremely soft duvet I'm hugging tightly to myself, or it's because of the sweet smell of vanilla and mint surrounding me, or even because of the comfortable heat pressed against my back."I know you are awake lex, you can open your eyes now " his voice husky and low behind my ear.I smile even wider opening my eyes and turn so I'm facing him. "hey ""Morning, " he grins down at me, prompting his head on his palm with his elbow resting
"What do you want? " i say ripping open a pack of gummy bears and popping it into my mouth."How do you feel? "he takes me by surprise."Do you really want to know? ""Yes " he looks really serious, no falter in his expression what so ever.I sit up, staring him straight in the eye. "like you're a piece of shit "He sighs and his eyes soften into something a little sad. He walks closer to me and takes a sit on my little love seat by the corner. "it bothers you ""Surprise, surprise ""I know i haven't been the father you probably wanted -""Shocking! "i fake surprise with my eyes wide."-But i want to make up for it " he goes on, ignoring my childish comment. "i didn't start off on the right foot, and I've probably hurt you
Dinner isn't going well at all. I feel uncomfortable with two burning gazes on me, one a deep shade of mesmerizing blue and the other, the darkest of browns. I force myself to force food in my mouth that are surprisingly really good but don't feel as good because of the intensity of the situation.They'd been trying to get me to say something, pulling small talks here and there but so far nothing is working, i just continue to ignore them completely increasing my pace so i can go back to my room and study a little before retreating for the night."We are getting married "Brittany finally blurted.I freeze.Slowly lifting eyes to look up at the woman who said those words, i find her staring at me intently gagging my reaction and Andrew sending daggers to the side of head with his eyes. "what did you say?"
I lay by the window, watching the droplets hit the ground with the ticking sound. I stand to my feet and push the lid open letting my hands stretched out allowing the cold droplets of rain wash me."You really think i should do it? "i ask lying back down and watch the water wash over the green yard. "she said she'll pay, but i don't think i want to be anywhere near him ""Babe you're still going to have to face him one way or the other, if he wants to get to you he will no matter what way it would be, you rather just do it while making something out of it "Ali says that last line in a duh tone over the phone, i can imagine her flipping her platinum hair.I gave a frustrated sigh "i don't know "."Think about it Lex, you need this, besides its worth more than you were earning in that bar to be honest. " that's true, but i know Ali doesn't really