Chapter 7 Everything stops with a silence

Marina's Pov :

            My heart was burning and my mind was thinking all sorts of illogical stuffs. His unjust death was the reason behind all of this. I would have been alright, if I had received his dead body but his mystery of death started to make me lose my mind and all senses.

      If only Jacob was not there, I wouldn't have been able to get back to my senses.

     That day, when I went to Captain Jim's house, I would have been caught.I would have been sentenced to prison, if I was found to have done that. If I wasn't stopped on time, I would have really turned into someone horrible.

    "Are you really mad? Why don't you get it? Why are you trying to dig too much? He is such a powerful person. You cannot fight with him. "

     "Then, what do you want me to do? How is this justice that he is living such a happy life and I have to live in a grief. "

     "Everything has its time. He will get his punishment someday. As a soldier, I cannot allow you to take laws in your hand. I cannot let a innocent person turn into a criminal. "

     He dragged me to the incubator and showed me,"Look at your daughter. You even denied to look at her. Just look at her.Are you really going to leave her at orphanage with her mother being alive. "

     I looked at the little girl sleeping quietly inside that incubator. My daughter she  was so small. She had such a small hands which were not even held by her mother,she had such small legs which had to walk alone without mother. She had small eyes which were closed and were sleeping sound. Her head had only few hairs.

     This was the first time I had seen her,after giving birth to her. Seeing her made my maternal love to grow. I couldn't resist myself from crying for her. What was I thinking? Had I really gone crazy?

    How can I ever think of abandoning the only gift he had left with me?

    I would have rather died instead of abandoning my love. If only, I had courage to see her earlier, If only I had seen her earlier, I would have never thought of those things. Those things would have never come to my mind.

    "Do you still decide to do what you were going to do? Stop all of these nonsense and get back and live a beautiful life with your daughter. "

    His words just made me to sob. It just made me to resent myself.It made me realize what a great mistake,I was going to commit.

    Then, I remembered Captain Jim's son.I was never going to forgive. He would surely pay for his sins, someday. I was never going to forgive him but his son was still just a innocent child. He didn't deserve to be the abducted for such a evil motive.

     I realized what my mistake was. After, some days, I was discharged. And before going back to home, I went to meet Jacob for one last time. He came happily to meet me.

    "Thank you for all that you have done. I would always be indebted to you. Without you, I would have turned into a monster. You have been really my saviour. "

    "It's okay. Your husband was my saviour too. I cannot let a brave soldiers family, to be messed up like this. I hope you take great care of your daughter ."

    "I will. I will now live for her. "

    "Army school's are great here.You can send her here, later to study. "

   "No, it's okay. I will try to keep my daughter far  from all of these things. I won't ever let her to be near to war, guns and fights. I want her to live a peaceful life without all of these things.I want her to be away from violence. I'm really thankful for all your help. To be honest, I can never ever forget my each and every night in the capital. Thank you for everything. "

     "I can come to drop you,if you are willing. "

     "No, I can carry on. "

     With that, I returned back to my own home. To my father in law, to my mother in law and to my daughter. Whole way, I thought, the nightmares I had been through the capital. I want my family to think he was dead. His dead mystery should never be revealed in front of them. They should never know that their one and only son was buried alive.

    I looked at my daughter and hugged her tight. Actually, she was my saviour. If I hadn't seen her, I would have completely reverse life but because of her my life would again be beautiful.

    Jacob was right. Everything starts with a voice, like when child is born but I also understood that day everything stops with a silence, too. I would never remember these days in my whole life.

       After, I returned back to my hometown everything was as before.Nobody knew what I went through in the capital city. Yes, I of course returned with the reward and every month,the government helped with the finances as well. And furthermore, I started teaching in a private school in the town.

     I named my daughter Monita. She was beautiful.Her eyes were big, white and soft skin and curly hair. She had a chubby cheeks and when she smiled, she would lit my world.

     Her grand parents too loved her,  a lot. She loved her grandma more than me and her grandpa. She used to tell her lots of stories, fairy tales and all and she would ask all types of ridiculous questions to her.

      Sometimes,  she would feel irritated and sometimes, she would just answer them in a ridiculous way as well.

     She was fond Of dogs since she was child. I let her keep the two dogs to play with. She would always played with them.

    I loved her a lot but I also was strict with her. She went to the same primary school where I used to teach. She would always bring troubles with her.She was way more talkative and I always used to get complain that she always used to make noise in the class.

      Once there was a rumour in the whole class that the school was haunted by the ghost. Someone had told that the headless ghost walks at the night and it would eat all the little kids. She was in grade 5 at that time. When the rumours were still on, she was locked in the toilet and you don't know how much she cried,thinking that she was locked by the ghost and she would be eaten by it.

    She was so scared but rescued but when we searched for the student who spread the rumors,I was shocked to know that it was her. So,  silly.She was scared of her own jokes.

    She had quite number of friends to frighten and who would take all her jokes as truth but she was also too much confident about everything. The only thing, she was bad was her studies.

      As a teacher,  I always wanted to improve her and as I was strict to her but she would listen for one day and forget it another day. At least I was able to make her pass every test.

     But when, she grew up she started to become more sociable and also more over confident.Wasting her time over nonsense things in the class. She was a teacher's daughter but she always made me ashamed every time. I don't know when she learned all of these things. When she learned to be that much over confident and stubborn but still I loved her.

    But when she grew up and started studying in lower secondary level, I had limit her everything. I didn't want my daughter to get involved in unnecessary things.I limited her play time, her nonsense speeches, her absurd behavior and her friends too.

     I never wanted her to be violent and never hear of the war and soldiers.

      Her grandparents always told her, she behaved just like her father. But, when I hear that it would make me sad because I never want her to be like her dad.

     It's true.I pressurized her for everything because she was the only treasure I had. And I couldn't compromise her with anything. I hired private home tutors and also sent her to music classes, so that her mind would always stay calm as she was hot tempered.

    I knew, she didn't want it but still she had to do it for her own future. I never allowed her to stay away from me. When she used to go her excursions, it used to worry me every time. Whether she was hurt or whether she ate on time and the mother crucial one was ,did she hurt others?

   I was primary teacher,  so I had to handle her well at home. She was improving too. 
   She had a friend, who was our neighbors son who used to study together.As I knew him very nicely, I let him be her friend. They seemed friendly to me.

    I thought, I was raising her well and protecting her well until one day, when ran away from the home before her middle school 's final exam.