LOGINI shrugged and started to walk out but he put out his arm and blocked my way.
"Where the hell do you think you are going?" I could feel a slight anger in his voice.
I rolled my eyes and he stared at me, waiting for me to talk.
"Guest room. I guess we don't need to pretend to be married when there are only two of us in this house, right?"
He clenched his jaw, dropped his arm, and came closer.
"You are living in the same room as me," he said in a low voice.
"You don't owe me. It was just a deal. Deal to get married, not to be your wife," I said feeling annoyed.
"Whatever, you are not leaving," he looked behind me. I know he was angry but I didn't care.
"Oh, so what are you going do to stop me?" I asked, daring him to stop me.
He came closer, narrowing his eyes. He slid his arm around my waist, pulled me close to him, tightening his grip. He stared at me and shook his head. I felt his grip slowly loosen up and then without saying anything he left.
I stood there looking at the leaving figure. I thought he would yell or force me to stay but he didn't. Did I want that? Of course not but what with his behaviour? I stood there for a while feeling confused. I don't know why but somewhere I thought he would come back and yell but he didn't. He is so weird. I went to the guest room and unpacked my things. It felt good to be alone. After that, I didn't bother to go down to eat.
For four days straight, I didn't see him anywhere. My sister called me time and again to ask how my honeymoon was going on. Honeymoon? I found out that he had told her, we were on honeymoon. I guess he forgot to tell her that he was on honeymoon with someone else not with me.
"Bastard," I thought to myself.
Ok, This marriage was fake but at least he could have some respect for it. It was his choice to marry me, not mine. Even though he lied, he did me a favour by keeping me away from after marriage rituals. I didn't really like it and it was a huge relief to not be part of it.
While preparing lunch, I asked Tina where he was and she said he was in his office and came back yesterday. He came back yesterday from where? Oh yeah, his honeymoon but why was I so pissed of? It's great that he is not coming in front of me and he is doing me a favour leaving me alone. I didn't want to see his face.
I told her to call him for dinner but instead of coming out, he asked her to bring the food to his office. Is he trying to ignore me? Like I care, who gives a flying fuck. Tina took the food towards his office and I eat in silence. While eating, everything was bothering me. When was his deal gonna end and I will be free? I couldn't control myself and eager to know about it, I went straight to his office not finishing my meal. I stood in front of the door and lightly knocked on the door.
"I have not finished yet, Tina," came from another side of the door. I rolled my eyes.
I opened it anyway and stepped in.
"I.." he stopped as soon as his eyes landed on me.
"So, so, don't tell me you are afraid to live in that room alone and want to come back to our room," he said smirking, he got nerves to tease me? I glared at him.
"I don't want to live in the same room with the person who goes out on honeymoon with another woman while leaving his wife at home," I said using air quotes at the word "wife".
He gritted his teeth and stood up.
"What did you say?"
"What you heard," I shrugged.
He narrowed his eyes at me.
"I didn't go on honeymoon with another woman. I am not that stupid. Trust me on that."
Some kind of relief washed over me. why would I care?
"Trust you?" I laughed "I don't care what you do or how many women you go out with. I just want this deal to be over."
He slowly came towards me. I know he was angry so he didn't look at me. He was looking behind me. I don't know why he did that.
"So tell me, when this meaningless marriage gonna end." I demanded.
"We haven't even got married for five days and someone is already eager to leave," he said in trying to suppress his anger.
"Yes, can't wait," I said and he finally looked at me. His hand in his pocket.
"You know what? I have the right to know about the deal." It came out harshly.
"Don't raise your voice," he said calmly.
"If I didn't then what?" I said glaring at him. I was so angry that I wanted to punch him.
He studied me for some time. He took his hands out from his pocket. I crossed my arms ready to face what's coming but all he said was,
"Leave,"
I looked at him, confused. He always confused me. He never fought with me or showed me anger. I would find ways to show my anger but he was always so calm.
He was about to speak but I cut him off.
"Instead of saving me why didn't you let me die. I was better off dead." I almost screamed.
He clenched his fist. I looked at his fist then at his face.
"So, Mr devil is angry," I said in a mocking tone. He looked at me with a confused look. Maybe he was shocked that I gave him that nickname. It suited him to be honest. He was indeed a devil. A devil who saved me without my choice and made a deal when I was not in good condition. The devil, who married me, made me his wife and went on honeymoon with another woman and got the nerve to tell my sister.
I was blooming with anger.
"I can't even explain how much I hate you. Right now, I want to punch you or wish I could kill you for ruining my life, for everything." I said and without letting him say a word I storm out in rage.
My life was already ruined before him. There was nothing left to ruin but I don't know why I said that. Maybe in anger, we tend to speak nonsense and so did I. I said whatever came on my mouth without thinking to calm my anger. Somewhere it pained me knowing he would turn out just like my parents. Even if it's just a deal at least he could respect it until we are divorced.
I was still furious about the kiss and more than that he forgot me while she was there. I skipped breakfast so I don't have to see him. I came down to tell Tina that I will be preparing for lunch. Tina told me not to make food spicy because he doesn't eat spicy food.I told her, I will make sure about it but guess what? I made it so spicy that even the spicy lover wouldn't eat it. I giggled thinking about how I am gonna make him pay and imagined him rushing to drink milk or water.I knew that it would make him angry but who cares. After lunch was ready I told Tina to call him but he didn't come out so Tina took food to his office. I felt quite bad about it and thought of making the food again."No, he deserves it," I told myself.Food was too spicy and what if he doesn't eat it and stays hungry? The thought of him staying hungry made me feel bad more than him being angry. Tina came out with the message that he wants
Next morning, After I prepared breakfast I went to the garden without having it because when I asked tina to call him, she said he wasn't in his office. I was enjoying gardening when he came with breakfast. I looked at him and he smiled. I washed my hands and sat on the bench. We then ate in silence."If you don't mind, I was thinking.. if...you know..i .... I want to take you out...." He said nervously, playing with his hand. I looked at him and laughed a little. Was he nervous?I just sat there looking at him and he frowned looking at his hands when I didn't say anything."For... Dinner," he said nervously."I didn't mean to.....laugh," I said feeling bad and He nodded.Question filled my mind. I mean he never asked me to go out before."Before? Girl you have been married for what maybe 10 days?" I told myself. I was in my own thought while he was looking at me, waitin
We came back after like maybe two hours. The crowd was huge and the line... oh don't ask about the line in the temple. I was worn out. My legs were hurt and my feet were aching. We came inside and found out rima had already left. I went straight to the room and remembered that I haven't thanked him. He entered the room and I could see he was exhausted. He gave me a tired smile."Thanks," I said and he just looked at me for awhile, probably thinking why."For this," I said showing sari.He nodded. Even though I was angry at his behaviour that gift meant a lot to me. After some time he went out and I was all alone in the room.I was fasting and.... for his long life. Yes, for him. I thought I would be able to fast without drinking a drop of water but as time passed it became difficult for me. I know this marriage was fake and he forced me in it but I don't know why I was fasting for him. I know it's kinda weird.
I went straight to take the shower cause I wanted to cool my mind. I sat on the shower feeling bad about everything. My energy was totally drained. I shouldn't have gone there but if I had not, they would have come here or called devil to visit them. Anyhow they would have made me go there.I came out and got ready to sleep but there was no sign of him. I looked around, went to his office but he was not there. I came back and sat on the bed. Where was he? I got up and looked outside from the window and he was in the garden. He was still in the same clothes that he wore in the morning. He didn't come up to change? Or oh, he went directly to the garden?I felt confused and then realized, holy crap. Is he mad because of what happened in the car? Or he must have felt bad but why would I care? I rolled my eyes and went to watch series but couldn't focus on it. After some time I looked at the watch and it was almost 12 but he had not come back
The next morning, I was all alone in the bed. I don't know why but I didn't like it. Today we were going to my parent's house so I got dressed. Dar was at night but prarthi told me to come early. I stood at the window admiring the day and waiting for him but as I looked down he was on the bench reading newspaper. Was he not going with me? Maybe he doesn't want to go? Why would he? But I know they called us just because they wanted to see him more than me.My legs took me to the garden. I stood staring at his back, thinking if I should go near him or not. He kept the newspaper and looked straight. what if he says he doesn't want to go? What am I gonna say to my sister? My parents will taunt me the whole day for not being able to bring him. No, I will beg him to go with me.I slowly went and sat on the bench. Tina brought tea for both of us. She smiled and left. I sat there watching at the trees thinking about how to ask him and then finally I said.&n
I was in the garden when I got a call from my sister. She told me they were expecting us tomorrow for Dar. Hell, I didn't even know Teej was already here. I have no new sari. Obviously, they would expect you to wear a sari. I don't want to and I only have that two sari's I wore on our wedding day.(Teej is a festival where Nepali women celebrate by keeping fast for the long age of their husband or young girls keep fast to get a nice husband. Some even keep fast without drinking water. )I went inside and Rima was there with the devil, talking. I was about to go towards my room when Rima called me. I stopped and turned to look at her. Devil was also looking at me. Our eyes met but I focused my attention towards Rima."Hey," she said. What shocked me was she hugged me but I didn't hug her back. She hugged me so suddenly. I wasn't expecting that. I mean, I don't expect anything from anyone but that was something I would never thi