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Chapter 4 - THE INVITE!
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2020-10-06 06:49:40At this time I finally was able to collect my thoughts. I didn't want to return to dance class so I grabbed my phone and I sent a text to Dee telling her that I need to leave because I'm not feeling well. I told her to drop my bag off at my house after she leaves class today. As I was walking out of the school I received a text back from Dee, she wanted to know if I was ok and that she would definitely bring my bags for me. I replied telling her that I am fine I just don't feel well at the moment. I didn't te a rly lie. I felt sick to my stomach. But it wasn't a bad feeling it was a good feeling but it made me feel sick. I couldn't think straight I needed to just go home. I got an UBER and went home. On my way home I sent my boyfriend Sean a text message letting him know that I left school and not to wait for me after class. He was worried about me. He wanted to leave class to take care of me. Sean is such a sweet heart. He would drop everything just for me if he knew I wasn't feeling well. I felt like I betrayed him because of this feeling I had towards Celine.
On my way home, everything that happened in the bathroom with Celine keep replaying in my head. I couldn't help but touch my lips as I thought about her lips touching mine. She is so beautiful. As I thought about it my mind started racing trying to think back of a time where I ever felt this way towards any other woman. Growing up I always thought women looked beautiful but I never took it for anything but just an opinion. We're all allowed to have an opinion towards the same sex or opposite sex. As I sat there thinking about it I remembered this one time when I was about 12 or 13 where I say a girl at six flags who I couldn't stop staring at because I thought she was so beautiful. It was as if she was a supermodel or something. She was much older than I was but I never thought too much about it. But now as all of this is happening with Celine it's very confusing. I started to question my sexuality at this time. Am I a lesbian? Am I bisexual? Do I even really love my boyfriend Sean? How can I love someone so much but still feel insanely attached to and attracted to someone else? Not only someone else but someone of the same sex? Nothing made any sense anymore. I needed to just get home and lay down. I was starting to get a headache at this time.
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As my UBER approached my house I got the UBER and went right into my home. As I entered my home I finally felt like I could breathe. I went right to the refrigerator and I grabbed a bottle of ice cold water. I meant to only take a couple of sips but I ended up finishing the entire bottle. I didn't realize how thirsty I was. I sat at the counter in the kitchen and I was so great full for to be home and for this bottle of water. I sat at the counter for a while without moving.
After thirty minutes has passed, my phone vibrated with a notification. It was a notification from Brad. Brad is one of the cool guys at school. He's also a double major at NYU. He's a dancer and he majors in Pre-Med, he's actually an amazing dancer and he's been dancing since he was 2 years old. Brad also has a crush on me and he always says that God is so unfair for placing someone as beautiful and amazing as me with someone else. It's quite funny also because Brad also has a girlfriend name Ashley. Ashley would hear him say this to me and she would get jealous. I would feel bad for her but aside from that Brad is just a flirt. He never cheats on Ashley, they've been together for four years and he treats her very well. He just needs to stop the flirting.
I looked at the notification that Brad posted on Facebook and it was an invite to his house warming party. Brads parties are pretty awesome. The last time I went I had a really good time. I thought about it for a while then I thought that it would be great to get out to take my mind off of things for a while and be around people. As I was about to text Dee telling her that we should go to Brads party she text me at the same time telling me that we should go. It's funny how we always think the same things sometimes. I smiled to myself as I texted back yea I'm so down. Meet you there at 8pm. She texted back "no I'm going to come over and we leave together". I said ok and I went to my room to lay down.
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