LOGINShare
1
publish date:
2020-10-19 01:49:48I woke up screaming and sweating, myself and the bed are soaked. I feel disgusted and dirty. That was one of the worst nightmares I have had. It felt like I was back there, going through it all again. It was so real.
The only thing that would help right now is a nice shower. I rubbed my eyes and looked around the room. I was in my bedroom not on the floor back there. It was a relief. I pulled the covers to the side and slipped out of my bed, I love the feel of the carpet between my toes, something about it is so comforting.
Wrapping myself in my white dressing gown after my shower I stood in front of the mirror, I hated looking at my reflection, I looked pale and tired, I had big bags under my blue eyes, my blonde hair was a mess and my normally plump lips that are the shape of cupids bow, looked thin and dry. I closed my eyes and opened them straight away, I was breathing heavily and shaking, when I closed my eyes I could see his face smirking at me and felt his hands on me. It scared me.
After going back to my bedroom, I picked out my work uniform from my wardrobe and got dressed, I applied my usual foundation and blusher, and put my hair up into it's usual pony tail. I looked around my room and panicked, it felt like I was being watched. I shrugged of the feeling, thinking the nightmare must be playing with me and went to the kitchen.
After making a cup of tea I sat on the kitchen side, like I do every morning. I was looking out the window when I thought I saw HIM standing across the road looking at me, I quickly looked away and back again but he wasn't there, no one was. I guess this nightmare is still lingering on me. I picked up my phone just as I received a text message, it was my only friend Sally.
Sally - Hey, I'm outside when you're ready :) x
Me - Hey, I will be right down x
Sally is my best friend, I say best friend but she is also my only friend, she is my rock. I find it hard to trust people but with Sally I can be myself, she doesn't push me to open up and she is always there when I need her. I made my way down the block of flats and out the front. Up on seeing Sally with her brown straight hair and brown eyes, I smilled and waved. I walked to her car and climed into the passenger seat of her blue Audi, it was a lovely car.
I couldn't afford a car so Sally gave me a lift to work whenever we had the same shifts. Once I was inside the car Sally smiled and turned up the music that was playing, it was our favourite song, work by Britney Spears, don't ask me why we love this song, we just do. Sally started to sing along with the song then stopped "Hey unless you start singing this song with me, I'm not moving this car" Sally said with a smile.
"Okay, okay, I will sing along with you" I said with a eye roll.
Once I started singing she nodded her head with a huge smile. And of we went to work.
The whole day at work was weird, I felt uneasy, I kept looking over my shoulder, I couldn't shake the feeling of being watched. Fortunately the day went by fast and it was nearly time to finish.
"Sophia, we still on for tonight?" Sally said with a huge smile.
"Erm.... what are we doing tonight?" I honestly can't remember planning anything.
"OMG. Don't tell me you forgot. We are hitting town for a few drinks." Sally was shaking her head but was smiling at the same time. "Honestly you forget everything."
She was right, I'm not good at remembering things, that is unless I put it in my phone.
"Oh okay, you coming to mine to get ready?" I asked.
"You bet, I have all my stuff with me in the car." Sally said with a smirk.
Once we left work we headed straight to my place.
"Sally do you want to put some music on, see what's on the music channels"
"Sure, I will make us some drinks, we have to be at least half drunk before heading into town" she chuckled.
Sally was to engrossed finding the best music channel to notice I rolled my eyes at her, while walking to my bedroom.
"I have a drink out here for you!" Sally shouted.
"Okay, I will be out in a minute" I replied.
"Girl you need to get new clothes, you always wear that when we go out"
"Ya well.. I like this outfit. Can you please help me with my hair?" I put on my best puppy dog eyes.
"Don't look at me like that, just get your ass over here"
I walked over and sat in front of Sally. She was so good at styling hair, she should have been a hair dresser.
10 minutes later and my hair was done.
I stood up and looked around the room. I could feel the heat of eyes buring into my back but there was only me and Sally here. I decided to ignore it and turn my attention back to Sally.
"Wow Sally, my hair looks amazing" she had put my hair in a half up half down style, the hair at the bottom had been curled while the top, she put in a messy bun, it definitely looked good.
"Why thank you" Sally blushed.
We both stood up ready to leave, making sure we both had everything we needed. After gulping down the last of our drinks, we were ready to go.
Latest chapter
Sophia's journey - how to open up and love 23
** Meanwhile in the Styles livingroom **"Hugo. Please take a seat." My dad said to me, so I did.I only came round as mum and dad said it was important."You know me and your mum have wanted you to get married and settled down for some time. Well..." he paused and mum took his hand in hers."When Harriet, Charles's wife, was pregnant with the twins, we decided if one was a girl you and her would get married once you was of age." He sighed and mum took over."Unfortunately after the birth Harriet and the baby girl had disappeared from the hospital. Charles and Lewis were taken to a different hospital a few hours after they were born, as he had a few issues that need specialist care. When Charles went back to the hospital to pick up Harriet and his baby girl, they had vanished. The hospital said they had no record of her or the births." Mum now had tears running down her cheeks. I didn't know what to say. What can I say
Sophia's journey - how to open up and love 22
"I don't know if I could ever forgive him for hurting my Sophia." Dad said and got up to go to bed."Night son.""Night dad."The next day Sophia came up to me and said that Sally her best friend was coming over. I can't wait to meet the woman who has always been there for Sophia. If it wasn't for her Sophia wouldn't be here now, Sophia said so herself."Sally is coming over, she should be here in 15 minutes." Sophia was happy, like really happy. I could tell Sally ment to world to her at this moment."I can't wait to meet her." I smiled.Sally nocked on the door."I'll get it" Sophia said as she rushed to answer the door.They said hi to each other as the hugged. When they pulled apart Sophia brought Sally over to me."Sally this is my brother Lewis." She smilled "Lewis this is my best friend Sally."I said hi and smiled at Sally. She was breathtaking, with her b
Sophia's journey - how to open up and love 21
'What arranged marriage? It can't be for me. As far as my parents know I am still seeing Sophia, surly they won't do this while they think I'm dating someone else?' I questioned myself in my head.They finished that conversation and moved on to talk about other stuff. At this point I decided to go to the bar and get drunk. I've had enough of this gala already and I just won't to go home.After about five shots and three wines I decided to call it a day, well actually Lewis decided that for me."Hugo man. We need to get you to your car, you need to go home. I think you've had enought to drink.""No man. I'm good. I'm goooood." I slurred and chuckled at the same time. I was starring to see two of him as he put his arm around me and lifted me off the stool.Lewis helped me walk over to my car and put me in the passenger seat. I guess he is going to drive me home.We we're driving in a awkward sil
Sophia's journey - how to open up and love 20
"Yo...your daughter?" Said both Debbie and Henry at the same time.The look on their face was of pure shock. They know everything that had happen with my wife and daughter, they were the ones who helped me through it all. Debbie was best friends with Harriet when it all happened, so she also took it hard."Yes, we have finally found her." I exclaimed with a huge smile on my face.I could see the confusion on their faces, even Hugo looked confused."I didn't know you had a daughter, it's a shame she can't be here." Hugo said with a smile, not realising he has already met her."Yes it is a shame." I sighed.I really wanted to have a go at him for what he has done to Sophia. Even though she hasn't told us who the father of the baby was, both me and Lewis believe that it was Hugo, given the timeline and everything thing.All I could do was smile at him and swallow my words, I would be making a scene if I voice my tho
Sophia's journey - how to open up and love 19
I have spent the last three days at home being looked after by both Lewis and dad. It has been nice to have them with me, it's not how I thought I would be spending the first few days living with them.Today I have decided to go and see Hugo to let him know I lost our baby. I don't expect anything from him but I need to get it off my chest and tell him so I can move on from this. Don't get me wrong I will never forget my baby, it will always hold a piece of my heart.Once I got to Hugo's office I started to get nervous. It was the same as last time, I am once again sitting in the waiting area.I was looking around and noticed that a woman had gone into Hugo's office with a bag of food and then left almost as soon as she entered. I took that as a opportunity that he was alone having his lunch.I got up from my seat and walked to his office door, luckily for me his receptionist has left her desk for lunch, so it was all clear. I knoc
Sophia's journey - how to open up and love 18
** Lewis point of view **Everything went by in a blur.The ambulance had come along with the firefighters. They had to cut Sophia out of the car, it was heart breaking to see it all happen.As I was getting checked over by the ambulance crew, a police man came to me to ask me questions. I answered the best I could but it happened so fast I couldn't really remember anything."Thank you for your time" the police officer said. "We will now take statements form the witnesses. If we have anything else to ask you, we will get in touch."I just nodded my head, I was in shock. All I wanted to do was get back to Sophia and make sure she was all right.When Sophia was finally cut out of the car, it felt like it took them a lifetime to do so, she was rushed into the ambulance."Please can I come to?" I pleaded to the ambulance staff."Yes. We have to leave now."
