Mag-log inWe arrived at the schools parking lot. Sean says to me that he's excited for class today because his professor said they would be creating a new and exciting project today. I love when he gets excited about things. We gave each other a kiss before we exit the car. Sean headed to his accounting class and I headed to my dance class today. Today we were learning a new routine and who ever masters it will get to choreograph the next routine for our next class. I arrive at my dance class and I run into Dee. Dee is my best friend. We've been best friends since we were five years old. We loved just about the same things hence why we are both in the same school majoring in the same things. Dee is also a double major. We've both been dancing ballet and Hip-Hop from the age of six or seven. We swore that we would make it big one day and become these amazing dancers on broadway. It would be absolutely amazing for the both of us to make it onto broadway. Dee started telling me about her day yesterday and how she met a guy named Brady at the Starbucks across the street. Dee doesn't exactly have the best track record when it comes to guys. She would meet one today and tomorrow she feels in love and then she somehow either runs him away because she falls way too fast or it last long enough just to find out that the guy is a psychopath. Dee says she swears that this could turn into something serious because the guy reminds her of my boyfriend Sean. She said she's so excited to finally meet someone because she's tired of always being the third wheel when ever she goes out with Sean and I. I love Dee she's my best friend but sometimes I wish she would just slow down. I try to tell her many times to just take it slow with guys but she never listens. All I can do is be there for her at this point.
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As Dee and I were talking the door to the dance room opened up and a beautiful woman walked through the door. She walked to the other side of the room and took off her jean jacket and her hat. As she took off her jean jacket she revealed her amazing figure. Her hair was so long and seemed so soft. I don't know what happened at this exact moment but it was a feeling that I could not describe. I couldn't stop staring. I have seen a lot of beautiful women and I have been around a lot of beautiful women but for some reason just her presence made my stomach feel funny on the inside. It felt like a really bad stomach ache. At this moment, Dee saw me staring as she was trying to talk to me about the guy she met and she says hey what are you staring at?. I immediately snapped out of it and my face turned red instantly as I thought about if anyone else saw me staring. I turned to Dee and I asked, Do you know who that is? She said yes that is Celine. She's just started this class, I ran into her at Starbucks as well and we started talking for a bit. Come, let me introduce you to her. As Dee was trying to introduce me to Celine I tried to move but my legs wouldn't let me. Dee grabbed my arm and said hey come on silly I know her I swear. Dee grabs my arm and basically dragged me across the room. My heart started racing and my palms started to become sweaty. What was happening? I never felt like this before.Dee and I fell sleep while watching a movie on Netflix. After all of that crying I was very sleepy. I woke up first and I looked at my phone to see if Sean tried to reach out but to my dismay he didn't. Like Dee suggested I needed to give him some time so I didn't blow up his phone with text messages or call too many times and leave a bunch of voicemail. I was about to put my phone down when Dee woke up and asked if Sean contacted me yet. I told her that he didn't yet. Dee looked at me with her puppy dog eyes and she said don't worry baby girl he will eventually. Suddenly the doorbell rang. Dee and I looked at each other with our eyes wide open and we rang downstairs to see who it was. As I opened the door two delivery guys were standing at the door. They both said "are you Jamie Scott?" I was so confused because I didn't order anything. Both delivery guys gave me the items in their hands and walked away. Dee asked "what is that Jamie?" I said "I don't know I didn't order anything b
Two hours has passed and I still did not receive a message back from Sean. I looked out of the window and I noticed that his car was gone. I didn't even hear him come back. He was so angry with me he didn't even want to see me. He didn't know why or even try to find out why. He just took off and never returned and completely shut me out. I dont blame Sean for being upset at the thought of me even leaving him. We were good together. We made so much sense, but it wasn't fair to him to try to stay with him when I couldn't gruels love him with my all, when a part of me would always want and yearn to be with a woman. What if we got married and had children and then one day I decided to just leave everything we've built for a woman? Before it got to that point I needed to end it with him. I wasn't leaving him because of Celine, yes she played a part in it but Celine just allowed me to open my eyes to what I was blinded by my whole life. It wasn't fair to Sean so I needed to let him go no
After talking to my dad I payed back down in bed and I tried to fall asleep. As I layed there trying to fall asleep I could smell Celine's scent all over my sheets and pillow. I smiled to myself as the events of lastnight fussed in my head. I hurried my head in my pillow and I started shaking excitedly. I really had an amazing time with Celine. She was so gentle with me. She was definitely not shy. Even though I was a bit shy because this was indeed my first time ever being with a woman I couldn't help but feel comfortable with Celine. I wished she didn't have to leave. As I thought about Celine my thoughts turned to my dad who just told me that he knew that I was into women even before I did, not only that but my mom knew as well. My best friend Dee even knew about this, it seemed as thought I was the one running from my true feelings. We're always told who we're supposed to love but the heart speaks for itself. The heart wants what the heart wants. There was no running or hiding f
The next day at about 4am Celine wakes up first and she stared at me sleeping. She then leans down and kisses me on my lips until I woke up. I woke up with a smile on my face. It felt great to wake up with way. She then says "I had an amazing time either you". I started to recall the events of the night and I started to blush. I then looked her in the eyes and said "I had an amazing time with you too". Celine then leans forward and gives me a kiss. She then starts to cuddle with me. We cuddled for a few minutes before she said "I know I came here for us to talk, I'm sorry if we didn't exactly do much talking", I started to laugh then I said "it's ok, I think we're somewhat on the same page here. We're both just trying to figure this out. Being that I am in a heterosexual relationship with my boyfriend I need to figure out what exactly this is before we go any further. Even though this may have been a tad bit too far already. My boyfriend is a really good guy and he deserves the resp
as soon as I got into the house I headed straight for my room. As soon as I closed the door to my bedroom I could feel my heart racing. I finally felt like I could breathe and think straight again. I don't what what it is that Celine does to me but It's like she has me wrapped around her little finger. As I thought about her at this time I needed to sit for a while on my bed. As I was sitting in my bed I suddenly received a text from my boyfriend Sean. He texted me saying that he was on his way over. I haven't talked to Sean ever since I left school early. He was so worried about me. My heart stopped for a quick second and I got up and headed straight for the shower. I didn't want Sean to see me like this.As I got out of the shower I felt so much better, much more relaxed. I didn't want Sean to take one look at me and suspect that something was wrong. He had this super power when it comes to me. He could always read my face, but over the years I have learned to hide it from h
I must have fallen asleep because I suddenly felt my phone vibrating next to my body. I reached for my phone and it was my best friend Dee. I picked up and she said, "hey Jamie I'm here open the door." I was a bit confused at first but then I remembered Brad's party is tonight. I went downstairs to open the door and I saw Dee standing there with two big bags in her hands. I said wait, what's going on? She says girl you know I need different outfit choices and I need my best friend to help me pick the perfect outfit so that I can impress the guy I met today. I rolled my eyes because I knew that Dee was going all out for this new guy she met. I love her so much but I just wish she would slow down a bit. I said ok fine let me take a shower then we can get dressed and head to the party. The party starts at 8pm and it is now currently 7:30pm. I said Dee we'll be late for the party. Dee looked at me like I was crazy. She said you know the life of the party never arrive on time. We have to